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- Story Listed as: True Life For Adults
- Theme: Family & Friends
- Subject: Friends / Friendship
- Published: 02/20/2017
Light of my Soul
Kolkata is the City of Joy and grown up in the city was a smiling face who has always been happy in her own world. Amidst the world of awesome food, sweet language, was a dream to be an independent woman experiencing the various colors of life. The only child of her parents has always found life in the world of friends. Friendship has always been her heartbeat. Passing college like any other youth wanted to earn free pocket money started tuition and within a short span got a job in a famous MNC which changed her world completely with the taste of passion for career. The outlook of life changed with determination to make it large for herself and prove herself to the world as an independent identity standing out in the crowd making her parents proud. Coming from a conservative family has never allowed the conservatism to affect her wings to fly. Her small liking towards photography gave her a new horizon welcoming her to the world of writing. What more could have been the ideal topic for a frequent traveler with parents and friends apart from Travel and Tourism. Luck being in her favor while working she got through in a renowned management college being sponsored by her own company as a motivation.
While studying and accelerating in her work, opened the gateway for her is a job opening from the financial capital of India, Mumbai. From the smallest city to the biggest cosmopolitan city was a perfect break for making her dreams a reality. Convincing her parents and making it alone to meet her own destiny was a big step for her with a challenge of sustenance. A girl who had never lived a life without cars, servants, easy life, luxury of having mom as a support having a care free life realised what life without them means. Struggle is a big experience realising the value of money, savings, karma to make it large for a relaxed life of your own. After a year of sheer struggle she started settling down with more confidence, zeal and enthusiasm to strike back with perfection and aim to reach high. Changing her job for better prospects she got herself engrossed into the world of survival of the fittest to grow up the ladder of success and power. Sudden break came in her life with her falling severely unwell with life guarantee of mere 1%. Not giving up she struggled with herself and overcame after continuous fortnightly nightmare of drips and injections with her new life shaking the world of her loved ones. She fought back with her new life with more confidence. During this phase she met her life partner and with her parent's insisting settled down in personal life as well. A struggle to balance between both lives meeting the demands of both she learnt to prioritize things as per time. With time she settled balancing both the life and continued her focus on career and life to enjoy more with company.
Life went by in fun and frolic amidst friends and strong memories. Changed her line of work she entered a new world of challenges in her career from her expertized world of comfort. In dis world she learnt the real meaning of life meeting innumerable people of all classes. Here she met her life which changed her life forever.
Here she met a girl who was almost a decade younger and a replica of her youth though with a zeal of more commitments towards her marital life which became more and more obvious with time. It was like a life of colors with time moving in leaps and bounds and everything seemed so right always with her. Nothing was unusual it was a strong friendship beyond explanation as her friend had named it. Writing was the mode through which they got connected by heart. They started writing for each other becoming close with time and unknowingly they created a world of their own in office being ignorant of their surroundings. During this phase also came news of her parting - she is going back to her hometown with her husband to settle for good. Not realizing the reality she got very much emotionally attached so much so somewhere she made her a lifeline to live. Surprisingly on a beautiful Valentine’s Day started their friendship though this day is not celebrated any further only revisited in silence.
Reality striked when her friend left the city forever. She realized life isn't the same anymore. Every moment of her life was so much engrossed in friendship that life without her used to be very difficult searching for her every now and then in mobile for text, if any. Life had suddenly become very strange for her with unwanted people around and near ones also realized that she is missing life big time and she is clueless how to settle herself. Suddenly she had become very alone. She couldn’t call it love as neither she could call it mere friendship. She has always been reserved about her feelings but only her writings knew about her expressions and feelings. As time went by she became more alone realizing that her friend is steadily going far from her happily adding different colors. First step of distance stepped in form of fights and long paused silence where she would be hardly available to reciprocate. With no time friend became pregnant where she became more far being in her own dreams and separate life. She on the other hand was taken aback by falling sick again taking her steps backwards where she met her life where it again fell short. A phase when her lifeline was giving life to a new life she fell severely unwell where she started depending on medical support for her life. Neither she could express her agony to her bestest friend who was more than life for her nor she could take the increasing distance between them. Her friend became busier in her own life forever leaving her behind. Left on her own to be happy with formalities of morning wishes and once in a while times pass like acknowdgements and vanish in between. A fear of no revival like last time she even went in person to meet her to see her for the last time but could not express anything to her and met her like a stranger having silence as a shield to continue her blind love for as her last journey.
Toughest time of her life came when she was at the door of death but somehow being a fighter came back. Not being able to move around nor having the stamina to sit she went to office and used to sit to increase her stamina speaking to people. She didnt give up and fought firmly starting to share her struggle to her sweetheart by writing in a note which she used to save instead of sending. This is how she learnt to share her feelings with her lifeline again like old times. Only difference is earlier she used to share with her and now she saves it virtually sharing her pain more virtually. A few days later came her life line's day of delivery. She was very scared and low due to slight complication. To make her feel better... This person who was not allowed to move within her own apartment traveled all the way to siddhi vinayak mandir forgetting herself for her bestie, her lifeline. She returned home bleeding heading herself to more complication but all were soothed with the news of a cute little wonder baby boy.
She was very happy with the news and was happiest as if her own son was born. She was thankful for being shared the pic of the baby. She wanted to see the baby but her health constraints couldn't allow. She couldn't even send a gift as a blessing for the little wonder. Neither could she share her inability nor could she send any gifts which is unlike her. She tried online gifts which failed delivery and the day the litter wonder completed a month, she somehow managed herself to buy a small gift and send her blessings. When you love someone really unconditionally you do not want that person to be disturbed with any unwanted information except happiness. She was more in her own world of happiness about completion of family. Time went by and little wonder was growing up which she was enjoying through uploading pics in social media. Surprisingly her friend being her bestie never realized that she not having a kid till then might be treating her friend's kid like her very own kid. Even through gifts and occasions that she used to send for him or her, never she for a second thought about it. Only words was all that was reserved for her always instead of real feelings and actions. She even went to Delhi but couldn't meet the little wonder. One little effort of carrying him along with her to meet her friend never striked her nor even she felt like instead of making excuses to introduce him. His one year birthday was like the biggest festival of the year. She did everything possible to assemble gifts for him from different parts of India. Her idea of his one year's bday was to gift him with 12 gifts for 12 months. Though she had become completely alone being secluded and ignored by her bestest friend her lifeline in reality yet she did everything for the little wonder and by default smile on her face being miles away. She had uploaded birthday bash of his little wonder but nowhere could she dedicate atleast one pic for this friend who had been over excited for this day of the year. Yes she had come to Mumbai for a day to meet her friend. She had come to seek blessings of Ganpati ji of whom she is biggest devotee. She couldn't bring his son as she weren't comfortable getting him along. Yes that 24 hours tried all ways to explain not to take this friendship any forward and let it take a back step as it's nowhere. She refused and mentioned it to have equal importance in her life being her lifeline. Few days went by and going by her words... She was asked if she can be committed towards this relation as friendship beyond explanation is nothing but love however this isn't the cheesy way. She accepted though didn't commit as it was below her dignity to accept the reality and vanished. That very year they met and as usual this time also wasn't introduced with little wonder. Was really hurt in reality but as always never told her anything and left half day instead of staying full day as had planned.
Following year started with good news of her being pregnant. She informed her immediately she got the news. Few days she was being entertained by her with different messages. Few days later all were normal and she took hibernation in her own world bng busy as always. In between she was hurt with her action and had even stopped talking to her and refuse to give any explanation as it was useless telling her. She had a very difficult delivery where she was very serious though all ended well. She gave birth to a baby boy. During that time she got to know dat her friend is going for a vacation to Goa. This time she was also excited thinking may be she might drop in like her for a stop over in Mumbai taking the advantage of meeting her. For the 1st time dunno why after knowing her still she had this hope. The hope fizzled on her birthday realizing she was unnecessarily expecting from a wrong person. On the contrary in her excitement she dropped the idea of wasting money on her friend's birthday. Gift is not important however it's a day when one expresses how special the person is in reality in their lives. As always got ignored in the bargain of her loved one being an outsider who is named as lifeline
She forgot that in name of friendship and continued with the game of good morning. She planned rice ceremony for her son in Kolkata and invited her with her family as otherwise she would never introduce little wonder whom the eyes have been dying to see in person. Finally she said that she would be coming along with him over weekend. She was over excited and made plans of visiting various places ensuring not making it hectic for the kiddos and her. At time of finalizing she confirmed only 1 day as always being ignored in name of commitment towards her dear loved ones. They fought also as this time she protested for being ignored always in the name of loved ones. But anyways nothing was to happen and she came for a day. Still forgetting everything gave her warm and loving hospitality letting her know by actions that how much they both are loved. Never by words it has always been action for her whereas it has always been only Words in return.
Time went by and this continued with her open acceptance that this is ignored relation of her however this relation is lifeline for her. To make her son's 1st year of birthday a remembrance for her loved ones.... She went all the way to Delhi to meet her on her birthday month. A week before though ensuring not to spoil her birthday with her loved ones. She managed to give a day and accordingly a trip was planned together for the four of them. There she presented her a watch to make it a mark of memory. In that trip she explained her that she wasted money which in other words was a clear indication that outsiders can be called lifeline but they will always remain outsiders and hence such gifts are to be avoided in future and that only words are all that we should have to exchange as an entertainment for each other. Though she smilingly departed but she was completely hurt and broken from inside. Anyways it was no point expressing against a wall and she decided to go silent forever.
She was surprised by her reciprocation of her gifts towards her son in break-up of six months and 12 months birthday. She never wanted her to fall under peer pressure and do anything out of it. No matter what she has always respected her decisions and loved her and never could ask her anything like to hurt her. She being thankful and out of her unconditional love have acknowledged her gratitude and love for her attribute.
Every friendship has its own story and ours is one of a kind. A story where a friend celebrates their friendship even being abroad arranging for surprise however receives a cold reciprocation. A story where one reciprocates one as lifeline by action and other by words. A story where there's unconditional love in one side and filler trying to match up like fairy tale on other side. A story of two friends in which one is always free for the other whereas the other has to be searched for a ping. A friendship in which one has become silent towards the other and other believes in morning greets. A friendship which is life in true sense and other feels gives feeling like a filler adjusting between time. A friendship where one always is treated as the most important person and the other gets neglected or ignored in the name of her loved ones. A friendship where surprises and unlimited love has mostly been reciprocated in form of hurt or conditions or ignorance. There are many reasons to leave but may be that one reason of love for this friend is too strong overcoming the others. Surprisingly a tale of two friends where both in their own ways have dedicated each other as their Light of soul.
Light of my soul(Amrita Dhar)
Light of my Soul
Kolkata is the City of Joy and grown up in the city was a smiling face who has always been happy in her own world. Amidst the world of awesome food, sweet language, was a dream to be an independent woman experiencing the various colors of life. The only child of her parents has always found life in the world of friends. Friendship has always been her heartbeat. Passing college like any other youth wanted to earn free pocket money started tuition and within a short span got a job in a famous MNC which changed her world completely with the taste of passion for career. The outlook of life changed with determination to make it large for herself and prove herself to the world as an independent identity standing out in the crowd making her parents proud. Coming from a conservative family has never allowed the conservatism to affect her wings to fly. Her small liking towards photography gave her a new horizon welcoming her to the world of writing. What more could have been the ideal topic for a frequent traveler with parents and friends apart from Travel and Tourism. Luck being in her favor while working she got through in a renowned management college being sponsored by her own company as a motivation.
While studying and accelerating in her work, opened the gateway for her is a job opening from the financial capital of India, Mumbai. From the smallest city to the biggest cosmopolitan city was a perfect break for making her dreams a reality. Convincing her parents and making it alone to meet her own destiny was a big step for her with a challenge of sustenance. A girl who had never lived a life without cars, servants, easy life, luxury of having mom as a support having a care free life realised what life without them means. Struggle is a big experience realising the value of money, savings, karma to make it large for a relaxed life of your own. After a year of sheer struggle she started settling down with more confidence, zeal and enthusiasm to strike back with perfection and aim to reach high. Changing her job for better prospects she got herself engrossed into the world of survival of the fittest to grow up the ladder of success and power. Sudden break came in her life with her falling severely unwell with life guarantee of mere 1%. Not giving up she struggled with herself and overcame after continuous fortnightly nightmare of drips and injections with her new life shaking the world of her loved ones. She fought back with her new life with more confidence. During this phase she met her life partner and with her parent's insisting settled down in personal life as well. A struggle to balance between both lives meeting the demands of both she learnt to prioritize things as per time. With time she settled balancing both the life and continued her focus on career and life to enjoy more with company.
Life went by in fun and frolic amidst friends and strong memories. Changed her line of work she entered a new world of challenges in her career from her expertized world of comfort. In dis world she learnt the real meaning of life meeting innumerable people of all classes. Here she met her life which changed her life forever.
Here she met a girl who was almost a decade younger and a replica of her youth though with a zeal of more commitments towards her marital life which became more and more obvious with time. It was like a life of colors with time moving in leaps and bounds and everything seemed so right always with her. Nothing was unusual it was a strong friendship beyond explanation as her friend had named it. Writing was the mode through which they got connected by heart. They started writing for each other becoming close with time and unknowingly they created a world of their own in office being ignorant of their surroundings. During this phase also came news of her parting - she is going back to her hometown with her husband to settle for good. Not realizing the reality she got very much emotionally attached so much so somewhere she made her a lifeline to live. Surprisingly on a beautiful Valentine’s Day started their friendship though this day is not celebrated any further only revisited in silence.
Reality striked when her friend left the city forever. She realized life isn't the same anymore. Every moment of her life was so much engrossed in friendship that life without her used to be very difficult searching for her every now and then in mobile for text, if any. Life had suddenly become very strange for her with unwanted people around and near ones also realized that she is missing life big time and she is clueless how to settle herself. Suddenly she had become very alone. She couldn’t call it love as neither she could call it mere friendship. She has always been reserved about her feelings but only her writings knew about her expressions and feelings. As time went by she became more alone realizing that her friend is steadily going far from her happily adding different colors. First step of distance stepped in form of fights and long paused silence where she would be hardly available to reciprocate. With no time friend became pregnant where she became more far being in her own dreams and separate life. She on the other hand was taken aback by falling sick again taking her steps backwards where she met her life where it again fell short. A phase when her lifeline was giving life to a new life she fell severely unwell where she started depending on medical support for her life. Neither she could express her agony to her bestest friend who was more than life for her nor she could take the increasing distance between them. Her friend became busier in her own life forever leaving her behind. Left on her own to be happy with formalities of morning wishes and once in a while times pass like acknowdgements and vanish in between. A fear of no revival like last time she even went in person to meet her to see her for the last time but could not express anything to her and met her like a stranger having silence as a shield to continue her blind love for as her last journey.
Toughest time of her life came when she was at the door of death but somehow being a fighter came back. Not being able to move around nor having the stamina to sit she went to office and used to sit to increase her stamina speaking to people. She didnt give up and fought firmly starting to share her struggle to her sweetheart by writing in a note which she used to save instead of sending. This is how she learnt to share her feelings with her lifeline again like old times. Only difference is earlier she used to share with her and now she saves it virtually sharing her pain more virtually. A few days later came her life line's day of delivery. She was very scared and low due to slight complication. To make her feel better... This person who was not allowed to move within her own apartment traveled all the way to siddhi vinayak mandir forgetting herself for her bestie, her lifeline. She returned home bleeding heading herself to more complication but all were soothed with the news of a cute little wonder baby boy.
She was very happy with the news and was happiest as if her own son was born. She was thankful for being shared the pic of the baby. She wanted to see the baby but her health constraints couldn't allow. She couldn't even send a gift as a blessing for the little wonder. Neither could she share her inability nor could she send any gifts which is unlike her. She tried online gifts which failed delivery and the day the litter wonder completed a month, she somehow managed herself to buy a small gift and send her blessings. When you love someone really unconditionally you do not want that person to be disturbed with any unwanted information except happiness. She was more in her own world of happiness about completion of family. Time went by and little wonder was growing up which she was enjoying through uploading pics in social media. Surprisingly her friend being her bestie never realized that she not having a kid till then might be treating her friend's kid like her very own kid. Even through gifts and occasions that she used to send for him or her, never she for a second thought about it. Only words was all that was reserved for her always instead of real feelings and actions. She even went to Delhi but couldn't meet the little wonder. One little effort of carrying him along with her to meet her friend never striked her nor even she felt like instead of making excuses to introduce him. His one year birthday was like the biggest festival of the year. She did everything possible to assemble gifts for him from different parts of India. Her idea of his one year's bday was to gift him with 12 gifts for 12 months. Though she had become completely alone being secluded and ignored by her bestest friend her lifeline in reality yet she did everything for the little wonder and by default smile on her face being miles away. She had uploaded birthday bash of his little wonder but nowhere could she dedicate atleast one pic for this friend who had been over excited for this day of the year. Yes she had come to Mumbai for a day to meet her friend. She had come to seek blessings of Ganpati ji of whom she is biggest devotee. She couldn't bring his son as she weren't comfortable getting him along. Yes that 24 hours tried all ways to explain not to take this friendship any forward and let it take a back step as it's nowhere. She refused and mentioned it to have equal importance in her life being her lifeline. Few days went by and going by her words... She was asked if she can be committed towards this relation as friendship beyond explanation is nothing but love however this isn't the cheesy way. She accepted though didn't commit as it was below her dignity to accept the reality and vanished. That very year they met and as usual this time also wasn't introduced with little wonder. Was really hurt in reality but as always never told her anything and left half day instead of staying full day as had planned.
Following year started with good news of her being pregnant. She informed her immediately she got the news. Few days she was being entertained by her with different messages. Few days later all were normal and she took hibernation in her own world bng busy as always. In between she was hurt with her action and had even stopped talking to her and refuse to give any explanation as it was useless telling her. She had a very difficult delivery where she was very serious though all ended well. She gave birth to a baby boy. During that time she got to know dat her friend is going for a vacation to Goa. This time she was also excited thinking may be she might drop in like her for a stop over in Mumbai taking the advantage of meeting her. For the 1st time dunno why after knowing her still she had this hope. The hope fizzled on her birthday realizing she was unnecessarily expecting from a wrong person. On the contrary in her excitement she dropped the idea of wasting money on her friend's birthday. Gift is not important however it's a day when one expresses how special the person is in reality in their lives. As always got ignored in the bargain of her loved one being an outsider who is named as lifeline
She forgot that in name of friendship and continued with the game of good morning. She planned rice ceremony for her son in Kolkata and invited her with her family as otherwise she would never introduce little wonder whom the eyes have been dying to see in person. Finally she said that she would be coming along with him over weekend. She was over excited and made plans of visiting various places ensuring not making it hectic for the kiddos and her. At time of finalizing she confirmed only 1 day as always being ignored in name of commitment towards her dear loved ones. They fought also as this time she protested for being ignored always in the name of loved ones. But anyways nothing was to happen and she came for a day. Still forgetting everything gave her warm and loving hospitality letting her know by actions that how much they both are loved. Never by words it has always been action for her whereas it has always been only Words in return.
Time went by and this continued with her open acceptance that this is ignored relation of her however this relation is lifeline for her. To make her son's 1st year of birthday a remembrance for her loved ones.... She went all the way to Delhi to meet her on her birthday month. A week before though ensuring not to spoil her birthday with her loved ones. She managed to give a day and accordingly a trip was planned together for the four of them. There she presented her a watch to make it a mark of memory. In that trip she explained her that she wasted money which in other words was a clear indication that outsiders can be called lifeline but they will always remain outsiders and hence such gifts are to be avoided in future and that only words are all that we should have to exchange as an entertainment for each other. Though she smilingly departed but she was completely hurt and broken from inside. Anyways it was no point expressing against a wall and she decided to go silent forever.
She was surprised by her reciprocation of her gifts towards her son in break-up of six months and 12 months birthday. She never wanted her to fall under peer pressure and do anything out of it. No matter what she has always respected her decisions and loved her and never could ask her anything like to hurt her. She being thankful and out of her unconditional love have acknowledged her gratitude and love for her attribute.
Every friendship has its own story and ours is one of a kind. A story where a friend celebrates their friendship even being abroad arranging for surprise however receives a cold reciprocation. A story where one reciprocates one as lifeline by action and other by words. A story where there's unconditional love in one side and filler trying to match up like fairy tale on other side. A story of two friends in which one is always free for the other whereas the other has to be searched for a ping. A friendship in which one has become silent towards the other and other believes in morning greets. A friendship which is life in true sense and other feels gives feeling like a filler adjusting between time. A friendship where one always is treated as the most important person and the other gets neglected or ignored in the name of her loved ones. A friendship where surprises and unlimited love has mostly been reciprocated in form of hurt or conditions or ignorance. There are many reasons to leave but may be that one reason of love for this friend is too strong overcoming the others. Surprisingly a tale of two friends where both in their own ways have dedicated each other as their Light of soul.
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