Dark Hole

Dark Hole(Artheey) Friends, you don't actually lose them you just find out who the real ones are.
Some turn out to judge you and some just spend time with you because they pity you. Its funny how they think that we don't know the foul things that they're speaking about us. They take us for a bunch of idiots just because we have problems. How could they do such things? How could they just stab you in the back after you waste time with them? I don't seem to understand this. Do they want to mock us? Make us feel anxious? I dont see why they waste my time. Yes I laughed with them and had a great time, but you know what hurts the most? It hurts that you actually called them your "friend". It hurts that you actually trusted them without knowing their true colours. People ask us "why are you so cold-hearted"? Its because I know everyone leaves you behind and leaves you to suffer alone. Whats hard is how can we trust people ever again? I mean imagine yourself having awkward conversations with your so called friend. That friend was once a friend whom you shared everything with, but it turns out it was fake. Its such a tragedy isn't it? Im starting to question my existence. Honestly whats the use of me living if im such a big disappointment in everyone's lives? Im sorry I whisper. Im sorry im not the perfect child. Im sorry that im not what you expect me to be, But everything seems worthless now ever since the day you left me. I trusted you but you didn't trust me. I tried to connect with you but you just shut me out. People just come and go. Im fading every single day, and yet no ones there for me. my feelings are now dark and shallow.