How to undo your own life.

My name is Judith Amadi. I was at school and there I would always study. I study from morning to night. Working so hard. Prayers I pray all the time. I am so surprised my life towed this line. Really shocked at it because it has gotten to a point where I have no rights amongst others. I tell lots of funny stories. Some I am named Barbara others Cindy, some named etc.
Because I see some things on that most in dreams.
I really don't know why I have a sad story to tell now.
People say am a little too reserved. I laugh, there's no other response to give and there were times I tried. Today we are much older.
For some reasons program gave me less power than others. I don't know why? I am really scared for my life because of this.
I also feel there are some strong factors doing this and needed to ask them why.
I am not a kid any more, I don't see how people would throw orders at me or tell me to take drugs against my will. It baffles my imagination.
I really wonder if its the devil doing that or something.
I prayed to God and tried hard to get people off my case because of some distinct sign in my looks which is so stupid. That is my natural hologram looks perfectly real. I just laughed. Is It not clear God has told you you can't see anything why are you still fussing. See am already on the ground you aren't still giving up. Though I have seen some people with this distinct set up sign. Are people not foolish.

Why are they constantly battling insanity but with me at the centre. Why can't people come out help each other understand their lives. Its sad.


If Rosettia is real as I still suspect I am meant to be Barbara Cindy Desmond but that's past tense now because I am 27 one of the men did not come bravo you have done good all these years at making sure so what is it again?
The place is fast paced with lots of happy healthy people leading fun fast paced life. The guys have even taken up the barbara post. So look at it. Wake up I am a million years behind present day social life. But am healthy if not happy just like you are exactly!