Today I received a lovely gift from my daughter Kerry Anne. She told me I am forgetting a lot of things and that I should keep a diary. It’s a beautiful silver diary with glitter all over it. I was so grateful for such a beautiful gift. It wasn’t even my birthday.
Today my friend Beryl came to visit and said we can no longer go on our holiday we were planning due to circumstances. I was saddened to hear this. She didn’t explain what was wrong so I didn’t ask. It would be impolite of me to pry into her personal life.
We had planned to go on a European cruise. We had been planning and saving for several years. Oh well obviously there are worse things in life.
Today I drove down the road . It started to rain and I forgot where the wiper lever was. I turn my right blinker on instead. I was so embarrassed that I turned right into the next road.
Once in the road I stopped the car and just sat. You see I was completely disorientated even though I had lived in the area for 30 years.
Should have been a piece of cake but it wasn’t. It was quite traumatic. i cried and thought maybe I shouldn’t be driving. I phoned Kerry Anne and she got dropped off and drove the car home for me.
Today I left the water running and flooded the kitchen. The water went all the way into the lounge carpet. To be honest I don’t think I turned that tap on but Kerry Anne said I must have because there was no one else around. Sometimes I wonder if she is a bit dishonest about things.
Today I stayed in bed all day because I was afraid I might get out of bed and just forget. I read this diary and wondered how long I had had it for.
Today I walked to the shops. My daughter came around late in the afternoon and asked why $5000. was just sitting on the dining table. I told her I must have taken it out for Beryl’s and my European holiday.
She told me we weren’t going. That upset me quite a lot. I asked if Beryl was sick but she didn’t answer me.
Today I cleaned the house and found I had 31 packets of cereal. All the same. I wondered why Kerry Anne had bought me so many. When I asked her she said she hadn’t and I must have purchased them. I wondered if she was trying to send me around the bend. Sometimes children do that to their parents you know. You have to be careful about that.
Today my son Grant arrived home from America. How exciting is that. I can’t remember the last time I saw him.
I introduced him to my daughter. They looked at me like I was stupid. I knew that I had made a mistake. We all make mistakes don’t we.
My daughter told me he had only been gone a month but I am pretty sure it’s been a lot longer than that.
Any way we had a lovely catch up and they took me out to dinner.
Today I heard my son and daughter discussing an assessment of my condition. I didn’t like the fact that they were talking behind my back and I told them so. It not like me to curse but I gave them what for. I stormed out of that room and slammed the door behind me.
Today was a lovely day. I turned 80 and my family spoiled me with gifts and a Dozen beautiful cupcakes, each was decorated with a different flower. The rose one was my favourite because that’s the name of my beautiful grand daughter. It was a black/red colour. I didn’t want to spoil it so I wouldn’t let anyone eat it.
My friend Beryl came over and I discussed with her the possibility of our trip going ahead. She didn’t answer so I am presuming she is still ill and doesn’t want to talk about it.
Today a lady came and treated me like a child. She put me through a lot of childish games. She asked me many questions. I got up and walked into my bedroom shutting the door on her. I was angry.
Today my children discussed with me a nursing home. I don’t think I am that forgetful. They tell me I have quite bad memory loss. It’s call dementia and it will probably get worse.
Well today I have moved into a nice place. It’s only a room , quite large with an ensuite bathroom. I never had an ensuite bathroom before.
I like the colours. It’s a pale blue colour. That’s my favourite. I like more that my room overlooks the water. It’s an active water view and I can watch the boats.
It has a tv on the wall but I don’t know how to turn it on.
The other elderly people here are like me. I guess this is like a one way trip and I wondered who had my room before me.
A nurse just came in . Seems like a nice lady . She gave me a thingie, a long black thing with lots of buttons. She said the red button turns the tv on and off.
I told her not to worry because I had brought my own thingie with me. She insisted I keep the new one and she stole my one from home. Never mind I will ask for it to be returned later.
I have already got some nice pictures on the wall of my family and a lovely one of my sister Rose and I on the bedside cabinet. I think I am going to be happy here.
Well today I had an interesting afternoon. A Lady called Barbara offered around a box of chocolates. After she did that she kicked up a stink and said the lady in the room opposite my room had stolen them off her. I hid in my bedroom and looked out of a little gap I had left in the door.
After I shut the door I laughed and I wondered if she was going to come and accuse me also.
Today Kerry Anne and Grant arrived to visit me. They had a lovely parcel for me. A lovely pink dressing gown and a ...........
Today a lovely lady came to visit me. She told me she was the lady in charge of this place. Aged care facility she called it. I can’t remember what she said her name was.
She told me I had worked here with her 20 years ago and that she remembers me.
I think she’s losing her memory because I never worked here, although some things about this place do seem familiar so maybe I had visited someone here in the past and she’s a bit confused.
I was thinking she will have my bed when I’m done.
Today I ...... today I .........today I just can’t remember. Maybe tomorrow I ........
Today I am writing in my mothers diary, her thoughts are very interesting.
Today I am giving her a wonderful send off. I have a special bunch of roses for her.