The Col(Seniha Haksever) I’m sitting down kneeling on my knees on the green pickle grass there is nobody to be seen I’m all by myself in silence and solitude. I’m talking and crying my heart out thinking and wondering if somebody would hear me and answer my questions that is raging in my mind. But there was one thing I certainly, truthfully knew… only GOD could hear me because I had worshiped, obeyed him so he placed and transferred all his mercy upon me.

I had searched inside the dream interpretation book and the definition and symbol of a col meant loneliness. It was true because after that traumatic, terrifying event I found myself in this col in loneliness, doubt, loss of faith, sadness and grief. I felt and thought that no one could ever help me anymore, I was so lost in myself, lost in where I was, who I was, I had totally forgotten why I was alive and my existence, I felt so unconscious or even… dead. I had even forgotten… god. The most greatest, gracious and merciful god. I had lost myself and found myself within god so he awakened, raised me up with his high and mighty powers. Now I am inwardly full of love, compassion, understanding and joy. I am extremely blessed, thankful and happy.

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