Picture the complete picture.
What would it look like?
Life in all it's glory.
A live painting that includes everything and does not exclude anything.
I have journeyed down this road of universal unity all my life, from thinking in shelves toward feeling connection with absolutely everything. My soul has always known the truth. My mind and brain has been stuck in the material world and was not ready to manifest this until now.
One of the original existentialistic thoughts I had as a child was a paradox: a person is born totally fresh and innocent, accepting everything as everything that exists, until he discovers that there's always more to discover. One day he discovers that the discovery is indeed endless. The further he looks into this, the more he discovers that there is no end to the discovery. More and more physicists today acknowledge eternity. So, nothingness is indeed a problem. He imagines himself beyond the end of the universe and realizes there must be more after that. He imagines himself before the big bang and realizes there had to be something before that. Nothing cannot exist. The only solution to that is a universal intelligence, something bigger than all that. Accordingly, that universal force created creation to regard himself, but who created the creator?
Ergo: our human brain seeks the end of anything, from life itself to a pancake, but our soul seeks and accepts eternity. Bringing those two idess together and helping them make love and create a baby is all our lives mission. One could put it this way: finding ourselves is our mission.
Universal unity is our common denominator. When we limit our spiritual faith to one religion, we are like the frog that thinks our pond is the only pond in the universe. We're forgetting all the alien species and how they pray to God, how the animals pray to God, how a tree feels the original energy of the universe and so on and so forth. If we limit our views, we limit God. If the universe is indeed endless, so is God and everything in it is as well. Accordingly, saying that only one faith leads to God is like saying that Rubens was history's only painter, that only one road leads to Rome or that "You Are My Sunshine" is history's only song. Jesus was and is a savior, but other universal civilizations never knew Jesus. It is said that there are aliens out there who move their metallic ships with thought- and emotion-controlled propulsion.
We all know energy. We tell our kids to sit still and remain calm when a wasp buzzes around us. "The wasp is drawn to your fear," we say, and yet we still believe the doctors and priests and not our own intuition.
We feel right away when someone is in a bad mood, although nothing physical shows it. When we fall in love, the surge is spiritual in our diaphragm, in what the Japanese call Onaka with what the Chinese call the force of Chi, the universal energy. When we defend or decide our identity or personality, who we are, we gesture to our chests or to our midst, not to our brain, and still we say there is no God, because religious doctrine has robbed us of our personal faith. It has told us spirituality is religious, but that is like saying eating belongs to the nutritionists. Our faith belongs not to institutions or governments. We need no holy book to find faith. It begins inside our hearts.
So we are back to the big picture, where we started. To me, the only logical explanation for everything is God. And God really is inside everything. If we exclude God from anything, we cheapen it, make it less than it can be. We are not talking of institutions here, though. I'm not asking you to become Christian or Muslim or Hindu or Buddhist or Shinto. God does not require taxes. Even Jesus said that and the church still demands it.
In fact, you can go to all temples and join all faiths, but remember that God was there before all holy books and manifests himself or herself or itself in countless ways throughout the universe. On our planet, Jesus and Krishna and Buddha are pathways. Buddha does not speak of God, but the intention is the same. But your pathway to God can be and should be personal. One cleaning woman said her laundry room was her church, where she met God every day in the peace and quiet of her cellar. The best way, though, is still living with God at every moment of the day.
A personal crisis led me to self interviews. That led me to my guardian angel, my higher self, which led me to Chakra meditation and the concept of the aura. That, in turn, led me to the universal energy, linked to the buzzing electricity of our electrons, and to quantum physics and the one explanation that includes everything.
One thing that fits into the all encompassing picture of everything that is came into my soul through a book that now is on my list as a favorite, next to Victor Hugo's "Les Miserables" and Stephen King's Kennedy-Thriller "11/22/63".
One sentence from Neale Donald Walsch's bestseller "Conversations with God" sticks out in my mind as especially poignant.
Neale asks God what we should do about the controversy of sexuality. Why are we drawn to it when we are not supposed to. God answers that it is built into us because it has to be, that it is a part of us that we cannot and should not deny. Otherwise babies would not be born. Denying sexuality would be denying ourselves. Responsibility being a necessity has nothing to do with it.
This segment, like so many other eye openers, reminded me of truths I had encountered in the 1990s. People getting upset about Sharon Stone showing her vagina in "Basic Instinct" and not mentioning the fact that she was a serial killer returned to me. People cheering at cinematic Hollywood-killers and sticking their tongues out at people who had sex just did not make sense to me.
Being a respectful and dignified connoisseur of female beauty, I asked myself why nudity in culture - Greek statues, Baroque paintings and the like - was considered art and nudity in life was considered sin.
I went to the sources of the Christian teachings and was surprised at what I found.
Jesus spoke nothing of sex being a deadly sin. The second deadly sin was formulated by forth century Greek monk Evagrius Ponticus. Jesus forgave the adulteress and saved her from stoning. Consequently, sex being a sin is an invention of the world and not a divine proclaim. Adultery has nothing to do with this. Of course we have to be faithful.
St. Paul assumed that priest have families in order to understand their congregation. Jesus chose a woman to spread the message of the resurrection. There is nothing in the bible that claims that priests have to be celibate. Neither did Jesus exclude women from his side. In fact, judging by his respectful behavior, I am sure he respected his mother's and Mary Magdalene's words and feelings. Celibacy was never a biblical demand. Nor was it Jesus wish to silence women in the church. St. Paul's words in the Corinthians about women being silent in church was an post-resurrective opinion, not a divine wish. The council of Nicea 325 A.D. decided on clerical celibacy and male priesthood not on biblical grounds, but because of clerical power, which in my book turns the early church of the 4th century A.D. into exactly what Jesus wanted to avoid (Mathew 22:21). Omitting nepotism was an official reason, fear of actual female superiority was a possible inofficial reason. Believe you me, had women gained power over the church, there would have been no religious wars. Consequently, modern Catholic gender doctrine is completely a product of mankind and not God's wish.
The biblical book of Genesis alone has multiple quotes that hint that we should enjoy marital sex. Genesis 2:25 speaks of man and woman not covering themselves and not being ashamed of their nudity. Proverbs 5:18 even speaks of a husband enjoying his wife's breasts and fountain of youth. The Song of Solomon 4:10 speaks of a bride's love being better than wine. Likewise, the original sin was shame not sex. The perversion of modern pornography is a modern reaction to a power game misunderstood as a divine wish that cannot be. Why would God create a tool for us to create our children and demand for us not to like it? Shame and censorship transforms something into a perversion. If we know it's okay to do something we automatically become responsible about it.
Respectful and mutually enjoyed sexual interaction is a divinely prolonged embrace that should be celebrated. It is peace in the making. Not only does it hurt no one, it binds couples together and at best creates a beautiful baby. When you see a couple kissing, celebrate that, ask them in your mind to make love and celebrate God's creation by making love and creating gorgeous little new lives. That should be the reaction. I know that I myself include God into my world when I make love to my wife. I express my love for her through and in my sex. The art of lovemaking is holy.
I have always had a problem with people sniggering and laughing at sex. Woody Allen's beautiful comment about sex being the most wonderful time he has ever had without laughing is poignant. I even told theatrical colleagues years ago that they should stop acting like juvenile imbeciles that spent hours trying to top each other with misogynistic wit. These men at the top of their profession told me that sexist jokes was a way for them to communicate. If there was no other way for them to communicate that is pretty sad.
Let me use an allegory:
We look at nude sculptures in the museum. Let's take Canova Canova's nude sculpture of Napoleon's sister Pauline from 1808. People will go to the museum, inspect her breasts and bottom, the marble curves of her chest and legs. They will call it exquisite art. Now imagine someone reinacting that sculpture detail by detail, finding a woman that looks like that, lies down like that on the couchand so on and so forth. Why cannot you call that exquisite art? God created that woman. Her beautiful breasts and bottom are a creation of life itself. You are by no means more unfaithful to your spouse if you at a distance enjoy the art of the real woman than if you enjoy the art of the sculpture. Sexist wit cheapens it. Dare to respect the art of creation of God, thanking her, God, for creating so many beautiful people along with beautiful souls. You decide if you want to cheapen sex or not. For more of this philosophy, go to Eric Zielinsky's wonderful article at
This is a new time.
A new time requires a deeper understanding beyond superficial power games down to actual truths. Logical truths. Not invented doctrines based on fear of authority.
Follow your intuition. See the big picture.
I know that the feelings that I was born with in my current life manifested into my reality, contradictions and extremities acting out through diversity and multiculturalism.
So life helped me do the detective work by giving me hints.
These are my current interpretations of my previous lives and should be regarded as such.
I lived as successful Count Axel von Fersen in the 18th century, falling in love with Queen Marie Antoinette. We were madly in love and the king accepted that, more or less willingly. One of her royal heirs was my illegitimate child. But the terror of the French Revolution tore me apart, killing them both and leaving me to blame myself for what I thought I had done. I could not let it go. I was drawn to solving the terror, but subconsciously created my own death by becoming lynched by an angry crowd on a Stockholm courtyard in 1810.
My love for a woman caused me to be reborn as a British woman named Millicent Fawcett in the 19th century, kickstarting the suffragette movement, my willingness to create a positive counter revolution of sorts for women because I had lost a woman as Axel von Fersen.
But the pain was still there.
I still could not let the pain go.
And so my soul chose to act as a catharsis, being reincarnated as Elvis stillborn brother Jesse, acting as his guardian angel until my birth as Charles in 1969.
Maybe I can let the pain go now.
Is all that true?
Does it help me?
The consensus is that I have been thrown back and forth between extremities in my lives. Between misogynist and feminist, between male and female, between war and peace, between dramatic and calm, between caring and indifferent, between revolutions.
In many ways, we are today at a crossroads. Neale Donald Walsch calls us a young species that still has a lot to learn.
Luckily, things are changing.
More and more people are rediscovering their own spirituality beyond organized institutions.
That is the way it should be.
Faith is personal beyond this life.
More and more people concentrate on the peaceful emotions with love in their hearts instead of succumbing to aggressive authority.
More and more people are eating healthier, realizing that 153 billion slaughtered animals a year is a bit much.
To sum it up, people are starting to think for themselves and most of them find that God really is inside the conscious energy of their spirits.