This isn't really a story, more of like i don't know a message i guess. well i'm pretty much depressed guys i don't know why, it's just one of those days i guess. I don't really have any friends because they all moved somewhere far away and i'm just so very much lonely. I mean, i got my family but they can be damn annoying sometimes. i don't know if your allowed to curse on these sites but i don't really care right now.
So i'll either not make any stories for a whole week or i'll just quit storystar altogether. You guys are lucky your not well.... like me because then you'd have people stare at you, hear people make fun of you, call you names blah blah blah.
I also have a anger problem, i get angry easily where sometimes i just wanna scream, beat shit up, and cry all at the time. I do that sometimes when i'm home alone and it kinda makes me feel better. But to know i'll always look like how i am right now is just depressing for me to think about. I'm also stressed out about school and work and blah blah blah.
The only things that i actually enjoy are playing games, talking to friends online, going to quiet places and relaxing, and just hanging out with my dad on the weekends.
Sometimes, i think about suicide but i don't actually do it you know? Even though it is the easy way out, i still don't really wanna die young because i still have family i wanna hang out with and other stuff.
I might just quit storystar because i don't know if i'll be a writer, at least not a famous one. My Non-Normal life was a good story i guess and a true one but other stories i just half assed it and some of you liked it.
Since i can't speak correctly then every time i try to speak people can't understand a GOD DAM word i'm saying and it's just annoying. Sometimes i just don't wanna talk at all. Sometimes i just wanna be left alone, sometimes i just don't wanna do anything at all. I can't eat, i look weird, and i have no feet. That's definitely not normal but hey, what the hell can i do, right? Something or someone or some magic crap made me who i am today. There are days where i just hate myself and there are days here i like myself.
Don't worry, i ain't gonna kill myself or anything. But.... i don't know. What's even more depressing is i'll probably die alone and be single for like the rest of my life. i know people are ok with being single but i don't. I want someone to love, someone to spend my life with, someone to hold in my arms, someone to kiss, someone that tells me they love me. I don't want to be BE ALONE!!!!!!!! Maybe being alone is just my fate..... And i know there's lots of people who are depressed and drink a lot and yada yada yada. But i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't do drugs. All i do is sad mope around everywhere i go.
Stop crying you, save your tears for later. i'm just saying how i feel right now, from the heart. I'm just gonna quit storystar and you guys won't hear from me again.
see ya later, maybe one day i'll make a story but right now it's just not gonna happen for at least a week. Maybe two weeks. Maybe more. So it's been a good deal of fun writing stories for you guys. I don't care about the stars, i just write stories to make you guys laugh. Laughing is healthy but me.... i'm not laughing, not today. :(