Density(Author C) One second, I have my letter ready and preparing to pull the trigger but the next, i'm on my knees sobbing, I know my family needs me but I can't take this anymore the feelings and empty void in my soul. Benny walked in, and I quickly slid the gun in my pillow case. "Hey," he said, eyes red and puffy, he must've been crying. I scanned the room and saw Benny pull my goodbye note out of his pocket and he said "I found it in your living room." He snapped "The the heck is this man?! Ending your life??!!" he sighed "That's not it man." I was angry, another lecture from my clueless boyfriend. He had no idea about my abuse but he ill I have letters for that too. So I grabbed the gun out of my pillowcase and held it to my head. "Move or talk and I'll shoot myself right now." As tears streamed down his face I took a breath in. It's never going to stop, even if Benny knew, he can't do jack about it. "On the back is the combination to my diary." I mentioned "I love you Benny." My last words to him.
"Please no!!" he begged, I smiled at him, my first love and my last. "October please don't! I love you!" He fell to his knees my family needs me. He can't do anything. "You'll understand when it's over.." I whispered under my breath. I cocked the gun pulled the trigger and-
OVER A MONTH LATER...
Benny was at a suicide prevention convention after his boyfriend, October, Killed himself. In front of his eyes. Benny encountered a little girl. She looked no more than Twelve years old but you could see on her arms deep cuts. Cuts that Benny was surprised hadn't killed her. She poked his side, "You're Benny?" Benny winced not knowing what to expect. "Yes, I'm Benny." They shared a chilling glare. "So you dated my brother, October?" She paused sniffling back her tears. Benny had never met October's family so he was shocked to meet her. "You let him die. You didn't stop him." She looked around. "Benny you're going to pay." Her words piercing Benny's ears as if she actually meant that he was going to pay. Benny turned away wiping tears away from his eyes. The sincerity in her tone frightened Benny to be frank. The little girl walked over to her family and pointed Benny out. Her family consisted of her mother and father who looked like underweight drunks that never had a chance in the world. Benny remembered one of the letters October wrote stating "My dad is very abusive, and unfair to me." Those words echoed in Benny's mind as he lost control and started to sprint towards Tober's dad, knocking him into a table. While the fight went on the girl grabbed a bag that looked to consist of fishing rods and ran.
Minutes later...
"Benny is dead." I whispered under my breath. As I was reminiscing, I heard sirens in the distance, I grabbed my disposable glove and I also wiped down the sniper removing any trace of my fingerprints behind.There were a lot of stairs on the tower that I had to run down. It's funny i thought as I was running down the stairs. Before I pulled the trigger there was a tribute and Benny said his last words "I love you Tober, Fly high forever." I chuckled. It was pretty convincing, I actually thought he loved my brother for a second. As I threw the gloves away, "Just like that...For you Tober."

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