My Mistake to Regret

My Mistake to Regret(Brandi) So much has happened in my life, that I start to give up on myself and make dumb decisions, and one of them was getting into the back of a van, and running from my problems. Here’s my story! I asked my friend one of my best friend Hailey to make a mention to make new friends on Snapchat, and she did that for me. A boy named Brandon Barnes added me. We talked for like 3 or 4 days. On the 5th day, he had asked me where I lived, so I told him Kaukauna Wi, then he asked where so I gave him my address. That day I was hurting from menstrual cramps, so I stayed home that morning resting. That afternoon I came to school (Kaukauna High School), went to class, hung out with friends took the bus home. After school, I went home and lay down from more pain, and well I was at school beforehand. That same morning I had found out that my aunt was most likely dying, that my dad has a blood clot in his leg and that if it travelled elsewhere he’d probably die. Hearing my dad was scared of dying killed me, I am afraid of losing him, I love him, and I just want my dad. From all that, and my little brother being hateful towards everything, and saying I’m not his sister hurt me really badly. My mind was going crazy, I never intended for anything to happen, I didn’t wanna run. Later that night around 8 PM I had taken my sleeping medication to help me sleep, I got a snap from Brandon around 8:30 - 9 PM saying he was almost to my house. When he got there I told him and his friend Elijah that I didn’t want to go and that I was hesitant about leaving. Brandon got out of the van and walked towards my house, when he saw me in my backyard he came up grabbed my hand then started running. Was being pushed into the back of the van where all the seats were down in a hurry. There were pillows and blankets in the back, it was a dark, bumpy, and fast ride. Due to having taken my pill, I was tired, and out of it. I was falling asleep, when Brandon started touching me, lifting up the dress. (Before he got to my house he told me to wear a dress, I told him I didn’t want to but he kept insisting that I wear one.) I kept turning away from him and telling him, no, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. I drifted off to sleep, still feeling hands, and kisses on my neck, face, lips, and chest. I felt it, my body registered, turning away, fighting him. I kept waking up, I kept telling him NO, I kept turning away. When we got to Iron River MI, to his dad’s house where he lives, we got out, Elijah going home would be my guess. Brandon’s friend whom he calls his “homie” was there on the bed playing COD on the Xbox. I sat in the corner of the bed, tired, drifting again. I fell asleep once again, woke up maybe 30 minutes after laying on my back. All was good until I felt his hands on me again. Everything he did to me was repeated, no matter how hard I fought and said no, he continued. Forced to shower with him, I tried keeping my dress on but he took it off even when I told him NO! Late morning we all were awake, Kaden, Brandon and I, the two boys went to go make breakfast, when done, Brandon had come into the room alone, I asked where Kaden was he told me that he told Kaden to stay out or something like that for alone time. I kept telling Brandon that Kaden can come back in it's fine, but he insisted he stay out. Around 1 - 1:30, the chief of police came into the room just in time before being raped for the second time. That's when I felt the love of God being there for me, saving me. I spent the rest of the day scared in the Iron River Police Department, although I was safe. I went to school the next day, which happen to be a Friday, my mom told me I didn't have to but I told her I wanted to try and get everything off my mind, so she took me. When I got there my head was spinning, I was scared, my anxiety struck like lighting. I had my friend from school with me the whole time. I remember crying, looking around to see my exits just in case. I just wanted to share my story because when you run away you are not sure what's gonna happen, you may trust that person, but then they backstab you. People may not believe you on why you ran, but before you run, think before you go, talk to someone about what's going on, because when you go, you will be hurt. I was raped, I was sexually assaulted multiple times, I still fear men to this day, I don't show it because I feel weak if I show myself being scared, but be careful, talk to someone for help, reach out. I learned that the hard way.
My name is Brandi Grover, I am 16 years old and this is my story!