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- Story Listed as: True Life For Teens
- Theme: Survival / Success
- Subject: Loneliness / Solitude
- Published: 03/10/2022
No Matter What
Day in, day out, I'm constantly helping others. No matter if it hurts me. No matter if that person has harmed me. No matter what.
I suppose I do it to distract myself from the anger inside. From the pain, heartbreak,
Loss.
But it never fully works. Because in those moments I have no one to help, I feel alone. Neglected.
Worthless.
People look at me like I'm a monster, like I'm dirt. And the thing is, I don't even know what I did to them. Most of the time, I even helped them with something. But people are ungrateful. No matter how much you do, they just want more. At least that's how I see it.
I live in a Group Home. Here, I share a house with four other girls, and eight or nine boys.
There's one guy in particular I like. His name in Glyn. He's sixteen, tall, average looking. But, I don't really care about looks. It's his personality. He's kind. Helps others out without thinking of himself. And he will always listen. He's pretty smart, and can always get you to laugh.
I know three girls that like him, myself included. I knew I never really had a chance. It's not like I'm exceptionally beautiful or smart. Actually, I have very short dark hair, and am a bit over weight. People tend to think of me as a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. I'm fine with having friends, and being a friend, but I'm just always lonely. But, I pushed my feelings to the side to help him. He likes these two girls, and was having a hard time choosing who he should ask out. I told him to go out with Jay. She's pretty, smart, kind, and a great person.
The other girl is Anais. She's skinny, with long hair, and average looking. But she's disrespectful, loud, and steals.
Who did he choose? Anais.
I told him to go with Jay, who really knows him well, and is overall great. But, he ignored me. I wasn't going to force him into going out with Jay, because at the end of the day, it's his choice.
Well, fast forward, and him and Anais are dating. I'm still being used as a puppet so they can communicate. Anais told me I was ugly, and unloved. I don't really take things to heart, but I am already insecure about my family situation, and my body.
It was just the last straw.
Now, I realize that some people are just ungrateful, emotionless. Don't care about the people who help them.
So, am I really alone?
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