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- Story Listed as: Fiction For Teens
- Theme: Love stories / Romance
- Subject: Novels
- Published: 06/30/2022
Mandy
Born 1993, F, from CT, United States∞• MANDY •∞
∞•Chapter 1•∞
My alarm clock wakes me up with the usual 6am wake up call for school. I slam my hand down on the snooze button then wait in my bed for a couple lazy minutes. I tend to be the first person awake in my house. I walk by my brothers’ room & hear him snoring and speaking some gibberish in his sleep. I eat a quick breakfast and head out in my dad’s hand–me- down jeep.
Five years ago, my dad passed away from a terrible car accident. That was definitely a tough time for my family and I. Our family just isn’t the same since his passing. When the funeral came around, I wrote a song about him and sung it in front of everyone with my guitar. It was a very emotional day for everyone. My Dad always supported me in everything I did and what I was passionate about. He was undeniably one of my heroes, and still is.
Since a little over a year my mom has been dating a guy named Rick. He’s okay, but I feel we can never connect. My older brother, Kevin feels the same way. Rick seems to ask us about the same topics, like, “How’s school? Doing any sports YET? You like to hike, because I really do?” Does he even listen to what we tell him?
One of my best friends of 5 years is Ariana. When met in the 8th grade and since then we’ve been inseparable. She’s always been a blunt person and offers any advice she can to me. I feel like I can trust her with my life.
My other best friend is Logan; I’ve known him since the 4th grade, and we’ve always been close like he’s my brother and I’m his sister. He aims for high grades in school and always stays on his best behavior. It’s mostly because his parents want him to be that way. I sympathize with him trying to live up to their standards all the time. But he can do it, and has been.
At school…
I see my friends hanging out in the front of the school waiting for me. We greet each other & head inside. We walk to my locker and I grab some text books for my classes…
Logan: *taps my arm* Hey Man, did you do the Chem. homework?
Me: Mr. A-plus have an off night?
L: Oh come on, man. My sister needed some help with her own homework— so I got distracted and had like no time to finish mine!
Me: OKAY, okay, I believe you *I give him a smirk*
L: *shakes his head at me*
Me: I think I ignored all my homework last night. Oops
Ariana: *widens her eyes* Wait we HAD Chem. homework?
Me: Someone’s still sleeping
A: Hey, this is no time for sass
The bell rings for first period class…
Me: Damn that bell. I guess I’ll see you guys later
A: Maybe
Me: Love you
A: *shrugs* Love you too
L: Later!
Me: Lata!
I speed walk into my English classroom & find my desk. Mr. Hayes—my teacher—gives me a side eye and continues speaking to the class. All this month we’ve been reading the play: “Romeo & Juliet.” Mr. H. likes to give us parts to read out loud to the class. He assigned me the part of Juliet & another girl in our class, Demi—who sits next to me—reads Romeo’s part. We’ve partnered up and read a couple of pages together and I catch myself staring at her lips whenever she reads her lines. They’re so pretty like her eyes; I can’t help admiring her looks. I could barely hear Demi speaking, as I somehow managed to drown out all the other sounds around me as I shifted my eyes up to her eyes; they’re a nice dark brown color to compliment her brown hair—?
Mr. Hayes: Mandy?
Me: *I look up at my teacher a little frazzled* Uuuh yes?
Mr. Hayes: It’s your turn to read
Me: UUUUH… *I look down at my book in my hand*
Demi: *leans over to me* Page 20 *gives me a little smile*
Me: Right, thanks *I let out a deep sigh & start reading*
Later after class, I keep wondering why I keep thinking about Demi. I’ve been doing it a lot lately, not just with her, but with other girls. Maybe I should talk to someone about it—no I should keep quiet—or they’d know that I’m having all these conflicting feelings and no one has the time to listen to all of that…
At home: It’s nighttime and I sit on my bed playing my guitar trying to write a new song that I’ve been struggling to compose for what feels like forever. My mom peaks her head into my room…
Mom: I’m heading to bed, hon.
Me: Alright, love you
Mom: *smiles* Love you too, sweetie. Don’t stay up too late
Me: Yeah, yeah, yeah *I smile at her*
Mom: *laughs & shakes her head while walking away*
I’ve been playing guitar for a while now. It helps me get through my hard times or to relieve stress. I strum a few chords on the guitar out of frustration…
∞•Chapter 2∞
Next morning:
I wake up in my bed realizing there’s not much longer left of my Senior year. The Valentine’s Carnival is this Friday, I hope that’ll lift my spirits a bit. I’ve been thinking of asking someone—anyone at this point. I haven’t been on a real date in a real long time. Maybe Logan and I should double date. Not each other…you know, with other people. Since my last real date or serious relationship was sophomore year. I wouldn’t say that I’m ugly or some kind of ‘Jessica Alba.’ Maybe somewhere in the middle of them two? Anyway, I just always seem to find the wrong person. Every time my date thinks everything’s going well, I can’t help but to think otherwise. It’s a mystery to me as to why this still happens. But maybe things have changed since sophomore year—the change is just now more noticeable…
Kevin: *pops his head into my room* Hey sis, wakey, wakey!
Me: AH! *he startles me & I throw a pillow at him* Since when are you awake at this time? *I sit up & squint at him*
Kev: *excited* I dunno! I kinda just…woke up! *holds his arms out feeling proud*
Me: Ya, I see that *I give him an un-amused look*
Kev: Ooo, you’re sassy in the early mornin’ *gives me a smug look & walks away*
Me: *I roll my eyes then yell at him* You’re lucky I ran out of pillows to throw at you! *I shake my head at him & get up & ready for school*
At school…
Logan and I wait outside Ariana’s classroom while she talks to her teacher…
Me: *I stutter for a second before speaking* H-h-hey Loge, you think we could somehow double date Friday for the carnival?
L: Yeah sure man, just tell me what I should wear *nudges my shoulder & laughs*
Me: Aha, that’s hilarious *I give him an annoyed look* I’m serious. I haven’t had a date since—
L: The Stone Age? *gives me a teasing look*
Me: *I point at him* Heeey *I chuckle* Seriously
A: *walks up to us* What’cha two talkin’ bout?
Me: We need to find dates for the Carnival, Friday
A: Samezies. Maybe we can TRIPLE date, huh? *points at us all excitedly*
Me: That sounds awful
A: Hey, I’m not that bad once you get to know me *nudges my shoulder*
Me: *I act annoyed but can’t help but to smile at her* We can talk about it later
*The bell rings for first period class…*
Me: LATER! *I rush off to class*
In English class…
Later during class, when we have silent reading time, I decide to scope the room for possible date “candidates.” No one really looks appealing at the moment—since we are all practically on the verge of death from sheer boredom. Maybe second period will be a much livelier bunch. I never thought looking for a date could be this challenging…
Throughout the day I observe everyone with their significant others. Sometimes I feel like there’s no one out there for me. It’s a real scary thought. I get tired of looking so I lean against the lockers & look to my left, seeing Demi walking toward my direction. She smiles, maybe not at me, but I couldn’t help feeling a little weak kneed when she came closer. Actually, this feeling I get, seems to happen a lot around her—or just any girl. But back to Demi; she’s captain of our school soccer team and has the edgy babe look to top it off. But she isn’t arrogant about it. She gives me a little nod while passing and I catch myself just staring at her…and her ass. Shit, did anyone see me do that? My eyes are misbehaving so much recently. I’m starting to feel like I’m trapped and can’t breathe. I gotta get outta here! Crap I still have last period left…maybe I could skip it. Not alone, that would suck. I’ll ask Ariana— since Logan needs to keep his school records squeaky clean—I’ll text her.
For about fifteen minutes Ariana and I are walking down the sidewalk that leads to downtown. For some reason I don’t talk as much as I usually do when I’m with her. Ariana starts to notice how quiet I am…
A: *nudges my shoulder* Everything okay?
Me: *I nudge her back & sigh* I dunno…I’ve feeling so different, lately. Been struggling trying to figure out…what I want. Like this ongoing war in my head?
A: *shrugs* What are you so conflicted about?
Me: *I look around then lower my voice & lean towards her* Sexuality conflicted
A: Whoaa *stops walking & moves in front of me & holds her hand out to stop me from walking* Hold up. What’chu sayin, girl?
Me: *I wave my hands at her* Shhh, keep walking
A: *continues to walk next to me* WELL. What ARE you saying? *widens her eyes*
Me: I’m not sure. I’ve been confused for a while *I look down at my feet as we walk* Does it mean something if I look at another girl’s ass?
A: Um, please first clarify whose ass you’re eyeballing?
Me: *I lower my voice & mutter to myself*
A: I’m sorry but I don’t speak MUMBLE
Me: *I roll my eyes* Alright! Captain of our soccer team
A: *raises her eyebrows & whispers* Demi? Pfft, well I don’t blame ya. After all, she is a babe *smirks then eyes widen* You know…Demi would actually be a good date for Friday…
Me: Not- helping- here!
A: Aaah sorry! Let’s discuss this, shall we?
Me: *I let out a big breath* Alright. I’m calm now
A: Yes, find your “Zen”. Okay, so first let’s remember when you last had a boyfriend or even dated a guy in general
Me: *I put my hands together* Mmm, well…the last time I did anything with a guy was probably…sophomore year
A: Interesting…
Me: *I raise my eyebrow at her* Also, it seems like I’m never satisfied with any of the guys I go out with. It HAS been a while since I’ve been on a date…
A: So then why not try going out with a guy first to “test” these new feelings you have? See if you feel the same or not?
Me: I’ve been TRYING to find a date all day but it’s harder than I thought. It’s been overwhelming honestly. That’s why we’re out here now & not in school
A: *pats my shoulder* WELL, if you’re still out of luck with your search before the Carnival then I’ll try to help you, okay?
Me: *I groan* Fiiiine *I cover my face with my hands then look at her* We can’t tell Logan about this. At least not yet. Until I’m sure
A: I won’t. Pinkie-promise
Me: *I sigh & smile at her & give her my pinkie finger* I know you won’t
A: That’s YOUR job
Me: *I laugh nervously & point at her* HA, good one
A: Maaandy
Me: I WILL. Jeeeeze, lady
A: *laughs then wraps her arm around my neck* If you need to talk more, I’m here, okay?
Me: *I smile* I know, I know
At home…
My mom walks over to me while I’m watching T.V. with a not so pleased look on her face…
Me: Heeey momma…
Mom: Your Principal called me today *folds her arms*
Me: Really? Aaand how’s he doin’?
Mom: Mandy. Why weren’t you in your last period class today?
Me: I…I didn’t feel well…so I stayed in the bathroom…for a REEEALLY long time
Mom: Were you doing drugs or something?
Me: Mom?! No. You know me
Mom: Alright…is that all?
Me: Yup!
Mom: *stares at me for a second* Well, do you feel better?
Me: Yeah, I’m fine now—I mean, I’m a little better. But I’ll be okay
Mom: *eyeballs me* Well alright
Me: Um, so yeah, I guess I better get goin’ on that homework that I have…every night…see ya!
I rush out of the T.V. room & up to my bedroom. I close my door & lay back on my bed & let out a big breath. The last thing my mom needs to hear is that I skipped class with Ari to have an anxiety attack about my sexuality. I can’t even imagine what she would say—I don’t think I want to know. But I DO know that she wouldn’t be overjoyed about the whole idea. I probably won’t get much sleep tonight with so many thoughts running through my head…
∞•Chapter 3•∞
Next day at school…
In English class today, Mr. Hayes decided to put us in our partnerships & read aloud to make the “Romeo & Juliet” play seem more ‘fascinating’ for us—since we all keep falling asleep in his class. Since Demi and I are Romeo & Juliet, we rearrange our desks so we’re sitting across from each other. I read my part aloud, then when it’s Demi’s turn, she’d cutely stumble over her words…
Demi: *peeks up at me & cracks a smile* God, isn’t this the lamest?
Me: Like you read my mind
Mr. Hayes: *walks by us & claps* We should be reading girls!
Me: *I jump up in my seat startled*
Demi: *covers her mouth hiding her smile* You okay?
Me: *I grin at Demi* Uh yeah, just a little jumpy I guess
Demi: Deep breaths! You don’t need to be nervous around me *gives me a playful look*
Me: *I return the playful look* Hey, you wanna make this more fun and less awkward than it already is?
Demi: Please
Me: Okay. Let’s read our parts with different accents
Demi: HUH?
Me: It’ll be fun. Trust me *I move her papers closer to her face* I’ll start *I use my best Russian accent & read my part* “Saints do not move, though grant for prayers sake!”
Demi: *cracks a smile*
Me: *I laugh & tap her book* You try
Demi: Alright *raises her eyebrows & reads one of her parts from the play with a Jersey accent* “Then move not white my prayer’s effect I take. Thus from my lips, by yours, my sin is purged.” FIST PUMP!
Me: *I shake my head & laugh at her*
Demi: Dude, but trying to talk Shakespearian with a Jersey accent isn’t as easy as it looks
Me: I noticed!
We burst into laughter. When Mr. Hayes walks by eye-balling us Demi reads her part normally to save us from getting into more trouble…
Demi: *raises her fists in the air* “Sin from thy lips! Oh, trespass sweetly urged! Give me my sin again.”
Me: *I mildly flirt* You kiss by the script?
Demi: *laughs & pats the side of my arm* You’re funny
Me: I try *I smile nervously & touch my arm where she pat it*
At one point during class I leave to go to the “bathroom” to meet Ariana in the corridor by the snack machine…
Me: And when she touched my arm…I felt something
A: *gives me a weird look* What did you feel?
Me: *I hit her arm a little* Butterflies. I felt butterflies. God Ar. Way to make it dirty
A: Pfft, hey, you’re the one who said it! *laughs then moves closer to me & whispers* So…you really think you’re gay?
Me: I…I don’t want to put a label on me quite just yet. But I just know I’m trying to get more comfortable with these ‘feelings’ that I’ve been having
A: *hugs me* Good for you Mandy *pulls away from our hug & smiles* As much as I’d rather stay out here—we gotta get back to class!
Me: Same! See you at lunch! *I wave at her then speed walk back to class*
∞•Chapter 4•∞
A couple days pass…
It’s finally Friday, which also means; DATE NIGHT. At school in the hallway, Ariana & I are stand by my locker watching Logan talk to very Smiley-Katie from my first period class. Logan sees us staring, and he waves at us, then walks over with her...
Ariana: Looks like someone has a date for tonight
Log: You’d be correct!
Katie: *giggles & turns to me* Hi Mandy!
Me: Sup Smiley—Katie, hi *I wave at her*
L: You two know each other?
Me: Yeah we—
Katie: We’re in first period English together, its suuuuper great, right, Mandy?
Me: *I cringe at her over-the-top peppiness* Oh yeah, IT’S SUPER
A: *covers her mouth & hides her laughter*
L: So did YOU two find your dates?
A: Still searching *points at us both*
L: If you can’t find anyone maybe you can be each other dates
A: *gives him a sarcastic look* Cute idea Loge. Never would have thought of that one
L: Ha, ha, ha. Anyway, I was going to escort Katie to her first period
Katie: Wanna come, Mandy?
Me: Uh, I’ll be there in a sec
L: Okay, later!
Me: Okay bye-bye *I say quickly*
A: They’re kinda cute
Me: Yeah kinda
A: Don’t worry Mandy. If we can’t find dates, we’ll still have fun
Me: Yeah, we’ll see
A: What a negative Nancy you are
Me: *I stick my tongue out at her*
Ari: *sticks her tongue out at me*
In first period English class…
Mr. Hayes caught Demi¬ and I doing our various accents game during our Shakespeare reading. He told us both to knock it off and to write a page on why Shakespeare’s so “great.” Mr. Hayes takes everything way too seriously, and obviously likes to make my classroom time with him personal torture. But as long as Demi’s here the torture lessens. But then again also being AROUND Demi is torture too at times. As Demi and I write our “amazing” pages on Shakespeare, we keep looking at each other holding in our laughter over the whole situation. After class, Demi & I walk out together, talking about how bad the pages are that we wrote…
Demi: Dude, I swear he’s out to get us. And that “punishment” he gave us was stupid
Me: Maybe he needs to get laid
Demi: My thoughts exactly! *laughs & gently punches my arm* Hey everyone needs a good lay
Me: *I nervously laugh* That’s true *I slow my laughter down & stare at her* Hey, um, so…are you going to the Carnival, tonight?
Demi: Oh yeah totally
Me: *I try not to look the least awkward while speaking* Got a hot date?
Demi: Oooh yes; you?
Me: *I try to hide my disappointment* No luck yet
Demi: So, you’re still on the hunt?
Me: Yep. All this week *I shake my head sadly*
Demi: I could hook you up…if you’d like…?
Me: *I give her a slow look* It’s…like you read my mind
Demi: *grins* Cool. I think I know who… *looks around & makes eye-contact with a guy. She calls him over to us* Hey Alec!
Alec: *stops talking to his friends & walks over to us* Hey Demi *gives her a flirty smile then looks over at me*
Me: *I wave while clenching my jaw*
Alec: Who’s your cute friend?
Demi: Ah already off to a good start. Wanna be her date for the Carnival?
Alec: Sure *brushes his bangs away from his face*
Me: Sure?
Alec: Mmm hm *nods his head*
Demi: Well that settles that! I’ll see YOU two at the Carnival
Alec: *caresses my arm*
Me: *I raise an eyebrow at him then look at Demi* Yooou betcha
Demi: *smiles* Well, catch ya lata’!
Alec: Bye Demi! *leans in & speaks into my ear* Lookin god Mandy *growls playfully* Don’t let this face fool ya. I’m not- that- innocent *winks at me & walks away*
Me: *I put my hand over my face & groan* Why meee?
∞•Chapter 5•∞
At the Valentine’s Day Carnival…
It’s crazy busy out here! People of all ages are making out everywhere—even in the bathroom! Also, it’s getting darker outside so now all the carnival lights are on for the rides. Speaking of rides, my damn head won’t stop spinning from my date. This guy doesn’t shut up or stop being so grabby with me. And we’ve been on the Ferris wheel for God only knows how many times. It’s gotten to the point where I’ve perfectly practiced tuning him out. I keep telling him I need to use the bathroom—hoping to maybe ditch him. After our ride ends, I try to walk towards the bathrooms (again, I’m hopeless), but he grabs my waist and pulls me in forcefully for a kiss with some tongue action…
Me: *I push him away* Back off Alec!
Alec: Hey why so cranky? Is it that time of the month or something?
Me: *I let out a disgusted scoff* Screw you, Alec!
Alec: Hey, what’s your problem?!
Me: *I poke his chest* YOU are my problem, asshole
Alec: *tries to hold my hand*
Me: Also *I slap his hand away* STOP-TOUCHING-ME
Alec: I can’t help it you’re so sexy, girl
Me: Ugh, god. I’m going now, feel free to NOT follow me
I sTerrap off trying to shake off our kiss. I’ll make a deal with myself and try not to be stuck in a situation like this ever again to the best of my ability. I look behind me to get one last glimpse of him, then duck to my right & purposely get myself lost in the sea of people. What a crappy Valentine’s Day. I mean, it’s not Demi’s fault for this date; it’s mine for going along with it in the first place. Ugh, I really hope she doesn’t find me…or worse…or my friends…
Ugh, all this thinking is exhausting me. I need to sit down. I find a Balloon Darts booth nearby and decide to sit on one of the stools they have. Wishing it was a bar stool. I see no one running the booth & let out a deep sigh & I run my hands over my face & my hair. “You alright there, lady?” I hear someone say in an Australian accent. I lift my head up out of my hands startled for a minute then pleasantly surprised to see a super cute butch girl with hazel eyes and a dark blonde pixie haircut with a long bang on one side & faded shave on the other. I feel dazed for a second while looking at her. I can tell by her outfit that he’s in charge of the booth. She’s wearing a pink hat with a pink shirt & a black jacket with black skinny jeans. I check her out then straighten myself up & fix my hair. She’s still giving me a concerned look while I stare at her…
Me: *I stutter* W-why’re you looking at me like that?
Girl: Ya lookin’ a bit crook
Me: *I tilt my head a little*
Girl: Lookin a bit sick?
Me: I feel fine. Well—do I really look that bad? *I fix my hair*
Girl: *shrugs her shoulders* Ya don’t look too bad to me *gives me a friendly smile*
Me: Well…I could be better. You startled me a bit. I didn’t see you there
Girl: I needed a loo break. Sorry to give ya a scare *drinks from her water bottle*
Me: It’s alright *I smile weakly at her & look down at my feet*
Girl: Ya seem a bit dim. Whadya say, we play a round of Balloon Darts to lighten the mood *she looks at me closely with her sparkly eyes*
Me: *I look back up at her, still smiling weakly*
Girl: *grins* Ya up for the challenge, lady?
Me: *I give her a clever grin* Challenge accepted, lady
Girl: *laughs & grabs some darts for us to throw*
After playing a few games with her, we end up just talking until closing time for the Carnival. So far, I’ve found out her name is Terra, and that she’s from Australia, and she’s definitely on the attractive side—Demi may have some competition. After I help Terra clean up a bit, she leans her elbows on the table & pulls out a deck of cards & holds them out in front of me…
Terra: Pick a card
Me: Aw man, not this trick
Terra: Come on lady, ya know ya want to *looks at me playfully*
Me: *I give her a teasing look* First of all, I have a name, and it’s not lady. How would you like it if I kept calling you lady?
Terra: Ya just did *gives me a clever smile*
I stare at her for a second then reach forward & I grab some of cards from her hands & laugh. She comes out from behind her booth & tries to grab them back from me. She puts her hands over mine & we stare at each other; she gives me a shy smile while I try not to blush…
Terra: I’d like to have my cards back Miss Mandy—not Lady
Me: *I roll my eyes* Ha ha *I hold them out & she grabs them quickly & gives me a second look*
Terra: You’re such a dag *puts her cards into her pants pocket*
Me: A dag?
Terra: *sits on top of the booth table* An amusing type of person. You’re quite daggy
Me: Oh. Well then, I’m slightly less offended *I sit down next to her*
Terra: *chuckles & playfully nudges my arm* I saw ya earlier with that try hard pashing on ya; he ya boyfriend?
Me: *I blink a few times* OH…THAT situation? Oh god, not even close to a boyfriend *I make a gagging noise*
Terra: *shakes her head & laughs*
Me: We were set up by a friend of mine
Terra: Ah, exciting *widens her eyes at me with intrigue*
Me: Ugh, don’t remind me *I shake my head*
Terra: *gives me a sad look & taps my wrist*
Me: *I give her a second look* Actually, hanging out with you kinda made up for what I thought was going to be a real shitty night
Terra: *nods her head slowly* I’m glad I could help make it less shit *smiles & looks me up and down* So you’re not dating anyone then?
Me: *I feel a little nervous* Uh no. I’m not
Terra: *nods her head at me*
Me: *I turn to her slowly* Can you…keep a secret?
Terra: *tilts her head at me & gives me a curious look* I can
Me: Okay. Well…so…the reason it didn’t work out with that guy tonight…is because…well—
Terra: He’s a bit of a bogan?
Me: Is that a bad thing?
Terra: Yes. Guys got no class
Me: *I point at her* Bingo
Terra: But go on…
Me: Besides him being a complete asshole…I think I may find more interest with…
Terra: Fancy the ladies? *raises her eyebrows*
Me: *I give her a shy look* Well…you’re not wrong *I panic for a second* Wait, am I that obvious?
Terra: *chuckles* Mandy. Ya stand out like a shag on a rock
Me: *I blush at her comment & try not to have an anxiety attack*
Terra: Aaand I might also fancy the ladies myself. So that may have helped a bit with my guessing
Me: *I raise my eyebrows at her* Well then that’s just cheating
Terra: Mm, I don’t think so *pokes my arm*
Me: *I shake my head & laugh at her* I have this crush on a girl classmate in my English class
Terra: Is she straight?
Me: Yeees
Terra: Well of course she is. It happens often
Me: It sucks
Terra: Too right. Ya know, this whole night I’ve been trying to figure ya out
Me: Looks like you did *we stare at each other for a second*
Terra: And don’t worry, your secret’s safe with me
Me: *I give her a weak look then stare down at my feet*
Terra: Ya know…fun fact, in Aussie slang, girls like us are called Lemons. We call ourselves lemons because we are sweet, juicy and tasty *winks at me*
Me: *I give her a funny look then chuckle a bit* Well, if it wasn’t obvious, I’m new to the Lemon world
Terra: No worries, lady
Me: *I grin at her*
Terra: At first when I saw ya, my Lemon-dar did go off a little. Buuut that may have just been wishful thinking
*Terra shrugs & looks into my eyes achingly. I bite my lip & give her a similar look then feel overwhelmed & look down at my watch…*
Me: OH WOW, it’s late as hell. My Mom will freak if I’m not home soon— *I freeze* Aaand I just remembered that my date that I ditched drove me here *I shake my head*
Terra: *jingles her car keys*
Me: *I smile* You’d give me a ride?
Terra: Say please
We arrive at my house in her car & I ask her to park on the side of the street so my family won’t be nosy…
Me: Hey, thanks for the ride
Terra: No problem *gives me a toothy smile*
Me: *I snort out a little laugh then give her a sideways look* Hey uh…would you wanna try…going out…sometime? I mean, you don’t—we don’t have to—but—oh god am I doing this right? *The car suddenly feels like its closing in around me & I look around nervously* But please by all means say something to stop me from babbling
Terra: *shakes her head chuckling then puts her hand on my arm* You are a bit of a Yabber…
Me: *I point my finger at her* I’m aware
Terra: *grins & pretends to bite my finger* So what’s your favorite food?
Me: Hmm…pizza probably
Terra: Alright. I’ll pop around tomorrow evening & we can go for a bite
Me: That sounds…nice
Terra: I mean, it’s the least I could do—after ya yabberly asked me out
Me: *I cover my face blushing* Thaaat is what I did. Well, attempted, anyways
Terra: I’m impressed either way *crinkles her nose & smiles*
Me: *I smile nervously at her then start to feel lightheaded, but in a good way* Well uh, I should get going
Terra: *nods her head & caress my arm* See ya tomorrow
Me: See ya *I get out of hercar & wave goodbye*
∞•Chapter 6•∞
Next day: Saturday afternoon…
I keep thinking about my date tonight with Terra. I feel this date will show me what I’m really looking for in a relationship and person. And that I fancy the ladies like Terra said. I just know how I feel and I want to stay true to who I am. I sit down on the couch & I switch on the T.V. My older brother, Kevin, sits down on the couch next to me…
Kevin: *slaps my leg* What’s up lil sis?
Me: Juuust chillin
Kev: SAAAAME
I nod my head at him then look down at my cell phone. Logan & Ariana have been texting me a bunch of times since last night & they keep saying that they thought I died. I texted them both, “Sorry, change of plans, suddenly,” Logan stopped worrying, but Ariana wouldn’t let me off the hook just yet. Just then, my door bell rings a couple times…
Kev: Hey, you wanna get that? *stares intently at the T.V. screen*
Me: *I glare at him, annoyed* Sure *I shake my head & walk over to open the front door to see Ariana standing there* R?
Ari: Don’t R me, I wanna know what really happened to you last night *walks past me & into my house*
Me: Gee nice to see you too *I close my front door & face her*
Kev: *walks over to us & folds his arms* Well look-y whose here
Ari: NOT NOW, KEVIN *she grabs me & pulls me into the kitchen away from Kevin*
Where’d you go last night?
Me: *I whisper* Can we talk about this somewhere else?
Ari: Fine. Let’s do this in your room *grabs my wrist & pulls me towards the stairs*
We go into my bedroom & I shut my door tightly. We sit on my bed in pretzel sitting positions, face to face, & I tell her what happened last night…
Ari: *slaps my leg playfully* Why didn’t you just tell me?
Me: Ah, ow! *I rub my leg from her painful slapping* I’m just still figuring all these strong feelings I have
Ari: Aw, I’m here for you! *pats my leg*
Me: Thanks
Ari: And sooo…you got a date! *whispers* With a girl! An Aussie girl *slaps my leg again excitedly*
Me: *I smile at her in pain* Ow, okay, I’m probably gonna need this leg to properly function for my date
Ari: Ah, sorry! I’m done slapping…for now. And how long til your date? *raises her eyebrows all flirty*
Me: A few hours…
Ari: And we’re just SITTING here? *gets off my bed* Let’s get you lookin pretty for tonight!
Me: *I laugh then look at her* You’re serious?
Ari: *walks over to my closet* Oh you bet your butt I am. Come on, get off that booty of yours
Me: Well alright then!
A couple hours later Ariana finishes giving me my “makeover.” Ariana leaves me to my own devices & goes home. I look in the mirror & flatten out the front of my pink & black flannel button down shirt & push down my pockets into my black jean pants. I fix my long brown hair in the mirror, then someone knocks on my bedroom door. I walk over to open it...
Mom: Hi sweetie, I just got back from work—well don’t you look nice…
Me: Uh thanks. Ari helped me clean up
Mom: And I see that *fixes my collar* You look very nice. You never did make it clear where you were going tonight…?
Me: I didn’t? *I laugh nervously* Oh, uh, well…I have a date
Mom: *raises her eyebrows* OH? Well, it’s about time!
Me: Why does everyone keep saying that?
Mom: I hope you two have a nice time
Me: Me too *I smile at her, then I look for my perfume in my room*
Mom: *stands by my doorway* Will I get to meet him?
Me: *I almost knock over my lamp on my dresser & turn to her* What? I mean, no. He’s uh, I don’t want you to meet him just yet—cause it may not work out or something…and what would be the point of introducing you…to uh them if it doesn’t work out, right? *I finally find my cologne & almost spray it into my mouth*
Mom: Huh, I guess you do have a point…
Me: *I hear a horn honk* THEY’RE here! Gotta go! Love ya, Mom! *I kiss her on the cheek & dash out my room & down the stairs*
Mom: Have a good night hon! And don’t forget your wallet!
Kev: And condoms!
Mom: *smacks the back of his head*
Me: Ignoring you!
Later…
After we eat our dinner Terra drives me home. It’s pouring outside so she parks a little closer to my driveway but enough to still be hidden in private from my family. Terra lowers the music on the radio & starts chatting…
Terra: Besides the rain, I’d say this night was on the spiffy side *pats my leg*
Me: *I chuckle then look down at where she touched my leg*
Terra: *smiles at me* Would ya like a chokkie?
Me: A whatty?
Terra: *lets out a short laugh* Chocolate!
Me: OH, yeah, sure *she reaches over my legs to get into the glove compartment*
Terra: I hope ya like Hersey kisses; they’re all I’ve got after the Valentine’s Carnival celebrations. *pulls out a couple chocolates & drops them in the palm of my hand*
Me: *I look down at my hand* Thanks. Oh, they’re so cute and pink
Terra: Right, you are *unwraps a chocolate & pops one in her mouth*
Me: *I pop mine into my mouth too*
Terra: Did ya know, a kiss in my country is called a pash?
Me: Oh really?
Terra: So, I really just gave ya a couple a’ pashes
After she says that he gives me a clever smirk, that shows her charming dimples. She stares at me, and I start to feel a little anxious, but in a good way. I eye her outfit—or as she would say in her Aussie slang a “once-over”—her purple button up top with black ripped jeans…
Me: *I smirk then look at my house* I guess I should get going now?
Terra: Fair enough. Want me to walk ya?
Me: Oh, that goes without saying *I smile at her & open the car door*
Terra: *her eyes twinkle at me when she grins*
We sprint to my front door, trying not to get soaked from the rain. We laugh it off & I shake my soaked hair while Terra gives me a second look & steps closer. She fixes my collar to my flannel then slides them down slowly to rest on my hips. We look at each other & I shakily touch her hands on my hips. Terra checks if the coast is clear then positions me so my back is against the front door so we’re hidden from the windows. Terra grabs the back of my head pulling me in for a long kiss. At first my eyes are open in shock then I start to feel more comfortable & close my eyes & enjoy the kiss. After a few moments we calm down and Terra rests her hands on my hips again. I blink a couple times & we laugh at each other, filled with excitement. Our faces are still so close that we can smell each other’s sweet chocolate breath. We should just be thankful neither of us had anchovies on our pizza tonight. I chuckle out loud at my own joke…
Terra: *looks at my neck longingly* What’re you thinking?
Me: I made a dumb joke in my head and it made me laugh
Terra: *chuckles & shakes her head* You really are a dag *gently tugs on my collar before letting go*
Me: *I look down & blush*
Terra: *smiles at me & shakes off her wet hair*
Me: *I jokingly put my hands up to block the water from hitting my face*
Terra: *laughs & gives me a little shove*
Me: *I chuckle at her*
Terra: I’ll ring you later?
Me: I DO know what that means…and yes
Terra: *kisses my cheek & runs out in the rain to her car*
I watch her drive away & I sigh feeling lightheaded—in a good way. I open my front door almost hitting my brother…whose mouth’s hanging wide open…
Kev: Holy shit—are you—is SHE—?
Me: *I put my hand over his mouth & use the other hand to close the door* NOT A WORD. To mom or anybody
Kev: *he nods his head still in shock*
Me: *I take my hand off his mouth & walk towards the stairs*
Kev: *laughs* I’ve never been so glad to not be in college right now *follows not far behind me*
Me: *I groan & walk faster up the stairs* Why is this happening to me?
Kev: *whispers behind me* Is she your secret lover?
Me: GoodNIGHT Kevin *I walk into my room & close the door quickly*
Kev: *says through my door* Come on. Talk to me!
Me: Not right now
Kev: Fine. But you can’t hide. I know where you live
Me: *I shake my head & laugh quietly*
∞•Chapter 7•∞
Monday at school…
It seems Logan and Smiley Katie really hit it off since the Carnival—they’ve been inseparable all day. After my last period, Demi & I meet up by her locker…
Demi: Hey, so how’d your date with Alec go?
Me: Uh, greeeat *I try my best not to sound sarcastic, but it’s almost impossible*
Demi: He’s hot, right?
Me: More like a complete moron. Couldn’t keep his octopus hands and lips off me all night *I cringe at the memory*
Demi: *gives me a worried wide eyed look* Guess the dude’s different when he’s just your friend *chuckles & rummages through her locker*
Me: YEEEEAH *I smirk & fold my arms*
Demi: *turns to me* Hey, I gotta get goin; I got soccer practice. See you tomorrow? *pats my arm then jogs down the hall & disappears around the corner*
Later at home…
Kevin decides to cook dinner. I walk into the kitchen sniffing the air. And it doesn’t smell terrible…
Me: What’s all this? *I point at the absurd scene of him cooking*
Kev: *stirs whatever’s in the pot of boiling water* Oh just tryin something a little new *raises his eyebrows at me & gives me a little wink*
I nod my head slowly; knowing that comment was personally directed at me. Ever since he caught Terra and I ‘in the act,’ he’s been giving me smirks & snarky remarks for the past couple of days…
Me: You better not tell anyone…about me and you know who
Kev: *grins all excitedly* About your little giiiirlfriend?
Me: *I smack the back of his head*
Kev: WHOAAA, hey, hey, easy! Watch the stove!
Me: *I give him a long dramatic stare* It’s like I don’t know who you are anymore
Kev: I could say the same for you lover-girl
Me: *I pinch his arm* SHUT IT
Kev: Come on Mandy, I’m a little funny *stirs his pasta happily*
Me: *I roll my eyes at him* SURE you are
∞•Chapter 8•∞
It’s Friday finally…
After last period, Logan asks me if we can hang out tonight, but I tell him a “friend” of mine is visiting…
L: Would I know this friend?
Me: Uh no
L: So I can’t meet them?
Me: Uh no *I crack my neck annoyed* I MEAN—yeah sure you can…
L: *gives me a funny look*
Ari: *skips over to us* So what’s up for tonight?
L: Mandy’s having a little get together tonight, want to join?
Ari: Yeah, I’m there *smiles*
Me: I grit my teeth* Okay I guess I’ll have to warn—ha-ha I mean, tell my friend that you guys will be joining us
L: Yeah, cool man *pats my arm*
Ari: Friend?
L: Her new friend
Ari: Would I know this new friend?
Me: You know, that uh CAMP friend I told you about…? *I widen my eyes at her*
Ari: *stares at me for a second* OOOOH…right!
L: You know about this “friend”?
Ari: Yeeeah maybe
Me: *I clap my hands once* OKAY! I guess I’ll see you both at my house a little later?
L: Sounds good to me
A: Yup!
Me: See you then! *I wave to them, then dash out of school to text Terra about our change of plans*
At my house…
Terra comes over a little earlier so we can have some alone time before my friends come over. We’re sitting on the couch watching “Extreme Makeover” on the T.V. She’s got her arm around me. It’s quite relaxing, despite hearing my brother tip-toeing around room to room. Luckily my mom went out with Rick. But that still doesn’t calm my nervous for tonight…
Me: Okay, I’m totally freaking out
Terra: YOU? I finally have a proper opportunity to meet your mates but have to pretend to be bloody straight! Bloody hell *shakes his head*
Me: And here I thought I was the only one with that problem *I sigh then give her a caring look* Also, you are kinda cute when you’re freaking out. Sorry
Terra: *tickles my ear with her finger, playfully*
Me: I’m sorry we have to do this tonight…I really don’t know how much longer I can keep this a secret anymore, it’s so frustrating I just—
Terra: *leans over & kisses me* We’re in this together, okay?
Me: It’s just…I didn’t want you all to meet under these circumstances
Terra: No worries
Me: And I already told you Ari knows about us…but Logan doesn’t yet
Terra: Yes, I remember. Take a deep breath. Everything will be quite alright
Me: *I smile & lean in for another kiss*
A couple hours later we finish a game of Gold-Fish. We’re all sitting on the couch together & cracking jokes while the TV’s on in the background. They really do like Terra; which is the least of my worries. Also, Terra’s been on & off secretly locking her pinkie with mine…
Terra: *sits up from the couch* I’ll get some more chips from the kitchen, be back in a tick *winks at me & takes the chips bowl with her*
Logan: TICK! *nudges my arm* Ha, I love it! She’s too cool
Me: I’m glad you think so *I smile & pat his shoulder*
Ariana: *rolls her eyes at me, then stands up & follows Terra to the kitchen* Hey *grabs a couple chips from the bag & takes a bite* You and Mandy are super cute
Terra: I think we’re cute too
Ari: *helps Terra put more chips into the bowl*
Kevin: Cuter than ME, mate? *says in an Australian accent & laughs at his own joke*
Ari: KEVIN
Kev: Alright take it down a notch, R
Ari: This is an A-B conversation. So, you can C yourself out
Kev: Ha-ha. Whatever you say I probably already know *folds his arms* Try me
Ari: *shakes her head & turns to Terra* What’s he talkin’ bout?
Terra: *sighs* He knows about us
Ari: And how did this idiot find out about you two? *glares at Kevin*
Kev: Hey, words hurt, R. Oh, and to answer your question *whispers* I caught them making out by the front door like… *pretends to make out with himself*
Ari: *shoves Kevin so he stops*
Terra: Why don’t you rack off
Kev: Hey, I’m just sayin’ *waves his hands mockingly then walks away*
Ari: *rubs her temples* I guess he has nothing better to do with his life than tease you two
Terra: *smiles weakly at her* Come on; let’s get back to Mandy and Logan *grabs her bowl of chips & locks her arm into hers while they walk back into the TV room*
Less than a couple hours pass by and everything starts to wind down…
Logan: *high-fives Terra* Fun night! We gotta do this again some time
Terra: Oh well that just sounds like a blast and a half
L: *laughs & looks at me* I love it
Ari: *hugs me, then Terra* Bye guys; nice to finally meet you Terra *gives her a sweet smile*
Terra: Nice meeting you *grins back at her*
L: Later!
Terra: *closes my front door slowly & turns to me with a playful grin*Come here ya dag
Terra steps forward to press her lips onto mine & grabs my waist. For a moment it gets intimate, & we take our business over to the couch. Car headlights flash through the window, interrupting us…
Me: *I weakly whisper* Mom’s home
Terra: I guess that’s my cue
Me: No! Don’t leave yet! Maybe you could stay over…
Terra: I guess an innocent little sleepover wouldn’t hurt *winks at me & tickles my side*
Me: Stop that! *I laugh & playfully swat her hands away*
My mom opens the front door then walks past the T.V. room where we are on the couch. She retraces her steps & smiles at us…
Mom: Hi girls
Me: OH, hello
Mom: Hi hon. Who’s your new friend?
Terra: *gives her a little wave* I’m Terra
Mom: Hello
Terra: Hi *smiles shyly*
Me: Hey, uh, mom, could Terra stay over?
Mom: Sure sweetie. It’s Friday, isn’t it? I need to wash up, but you two have fun *grins then walks away to go upstairs*
Terra: *slaps my leg* Come on now; show me what your room looks like!
Me: If you say so! Follow me
Terra: Right behind ya
∞•Chapter 9•∞
Terra’s parents give her permission to stay over. My mom walks into my room, holding a sleeping bag…
Mom: You two decide who gets the bed & who gets the floor
Me: We’ll rock paper scissors it, Mom, thanks
Terra: I’m expecting scissor—
Me: *I throw a pillow at Terra*
Mom: *gives us a funny look* You two have a fun night
Me: Thanks, night mom!
Mom: Night *closes my door*
Terra: Jerk *throws my pillow back at me & climbs onto the bed to give me neck kisses*
Me: That’s the most American you’ve spoken since I’ve me you
Terra: Shut up
Me: There’s another one
Terra: *takes my pillow & pretends to suffocate me*
Me: NOT funny! *I yell under the pillow*
Later, I showered first then Terra. I put on my red pj shorts and purple tank top then get comfortable under the covers. I leave on my Himalayan salt rock lamp on its lowest light setting for Terra to find her way back after showering. I hear the toilet flush then I hear my bedroom door close. I hear her footsteps coming closer in my direction & the mattress indents on my right. I should have figured she wouldn’t sleep on the floor in a sleeping bag. But I still feel nervous. I turn to my right & lay on my side facing her. I can see in the dim light; her face is serious for a moment then softens into a playful smirk. I let her borrow my pj shorts and black t-shirt. She pulls a strand of my long brown hair behind my ear. Then slowly caress down to my cheek then chest. She moves her hand lower towards my crotch area…
Terra: *whispers* Are you comfortable with doing any bits with me?
I let out a nervous laugh & can’t help but to just stare at her in awe. Terra starts to kiss my neck. We get really into our foreplay and I’ve never felt so much bliss. Nothing’s ever felt so…right. I let out a breath of pleasure and relief…
Me: What if someone hears?
Terra: No one will suspect anything because we’re just good camp friends, right?
Me: *I give her a mischievous grin* Don’t let that stop you
Terra: I don’t mind having a naughty *wiggles her eyebrows at me*
Me: *I pull her by her t-shirt in for a long sensual kiss*
Saturday morning…
I wake up feeling groggy from a long night of…activities, eh hem. I stretch & look at the time; 11am. Then I look to my right & see Terra sleeping soundly. She looks so beautiful…and peaceful…and naked…and I’M half naked…and she’s IN my bed. Oh god, what if my mom peaked her head into the room to check on us? Uh yeah mom we’re doing JUST FINE in here. Shit! I shake Terra to wake her up; she opens her eyes & moans…
Terra: *yawns* Bloody hell. What’s all the fuss about?
Mom: *knocks on my door* Girls, are you awake?
Terra & I give each other panicked looks…
Me: UH yeah mom, we’re alive!
Terra: *tickles the side of my stomach*
Me: *I laugh & slap her hand away playfully* Stop it!
Mom: Well when you two are ready, I made some pancakes for your breakfast
Me: Awesome mom thanks! We’ll be down in a sec!
Terra: I could use a good brekky after last night
We joke around then throw on our clothes & head downstairs. During “brekky” we steal little looks at each other trying not to crack up…
Kev: *watches us & rolls his eyes* WELL, I think I’m done here *puts his plate in the sink & walks out the room*
Mom: What’s the matter with him? *stabs her pancake with a fork & takes a bite*
Me: Not a clue *I bite my pancake off my fork & grin up at Terra*
After breakfast, Terra & I watch a few cartoons on the T.V. After a couple hours Terra’s mom texts her to come home…
Me:*I walk her to the front door trying to hide my sad expression*
Terra: I’ll pop around soon, don’t you worry *smiles*
Me: *I open my front door for her*
Terra: *nods her head & kisses me softly & pokes my nose*
Me: *I wave goodbye, then close my front door & turn to see my Mom staring at me from the kitchen. I stare at her for a moment* HEEEY Mom…whatcha doin’?
Mom: *blinks a couple times at me* I could ask you the same thing, Mandy *pauses for a second* Is there something you want to tell me about your new friend, Terra? *walks over to me cautiously*
Me: *I laugh nervously* Uuuh…
Mom: Is she…more than a friend?
Me: *I find it hard to make eye contact with her*
Mom: *laughs in shock* Sweetie, I saw what I saw with that girl. We have to discuss this
Me: Well for starters…she’s not just a girl
Mom: And what do you mean by that?
Me: I mean…that she’s my…girlfriend
Mom: *her eyes go wide* Does this mean you’re now gay?
Me: If that’s what you want to call it then YES mom, I’m gay! I like girls! *I let out a sigh of relief*
Mom: *shakes her head* And I allowed her to sleep in your ROOM last night—were you two taking advantage of me?
Me: No, never. We just enjoy each other’s company, like you and Rick—
Mom: Do not compare Rick and I…to you and—that friend of yours
Me: You know her name…
Mom: *puts her hand to her forehead* I never thought in a million years you could ever…be that way
Me: Well “that,” isn’t so bad, mom. I actually feel more like myself lately. And happy
Mom: And that’s gay? *stares at me*
Me: *I give her a slow look* Yes. But gay doesn’t define me. I’m still the same Mandy. Nothing else has changed
Mom: Honey, you’re kissing a girl
Me: Aaand?
Mom: But you’ve always dated boys? It’s always been that way
Me: Mom. Maybe in YOUR world it’s been that way, but for me I know what I like…and I feel good about it. Why do you have to make me feel bad about it?
Mom: *inhales deeply*
Me: Dad wouldn’t judge me
Mom: *looks at me sadly* I need a minute or—a day or two *walks away into the T.V. room*
Kevin: *walks down the stairs cautiously towards me*
Me: She hates me *I shake my head*
Kev: She doesn’t hate you. It’s just going to take her some time to get used to this… ‘new’ you *puts his hand on my shoulder*
Me: Psh, like hell that’ll happen *I push past him & walk upstairs to my room*
∞•Chapter 10•∞
Monday morning…
After all the drama from the long weekend; I’ve become mentally exhausted from the whole ordeal. My mom still doesn’t know what to say or do around me—and I’m second-guessing everything; like, maybe how I shouldn’t have “chosen” to like girls— did I really have a choice? Or was it my “fault?” Why am I blaming myself? I shouldn’t have to apologize for being who I am and liking who I like…?
At School…
I meet up with Logan & Ariana outside & we walk inside together…
Ari: Where’s your new girlfriend, Loge?
L: Eh, it’s over
Me: But she was so…smiley
L: So, it wasn’t just ME who noticed that? Cause it really started to freak me out
Ari: Honey, everybody noticed it—since like the 5th grade
L: For real?
A: Yes! *laughs*
L: Where have I been? *shakes his head & nudges my arm* Hey, why so glum?
Me: Huh? Oh no, I’m fine, just a little tired
L: Long weekend?
Me: You have no idea *I give Ariana a little look*
Ari: *widens her eyes* MANDY—bathroom—NOW
Me: UH YES
L: See ya??
Ari: *pulls on my arm & drags me to the bathroom* Okay, tell me what happened *folds her arms & gives me a second look when I don’t speak* Did something happen with you and Terra?
Me: No—well, yeah, actually *I smile a little*
Ari: *raises her eyebrows* Spill
Me: Well, first I gotta tell you…my Mom caught us kissing
Ari: Ooo… *covers her mouth quickly* When?
Me: After you guys left, she slept over
Ari: Oooh?
Me: We…got freaky in the sheets
Ari: Ooo—wait did your mom catch you guys in bed?
Me: *I cringe* Ew. No. The next morning we kissed goodbye and she saw us
Ari: OOOH…
Me: MMM HM. And I’ll tell ya, she wasn’t thrilled one bit *I run my hand through my hair*
Ari: Well, that’s awkward
Me: YEAH. Not really the way I pictured introducing my new girlfriend to my mom
Ari: Yikes
Me: And she’s hasn’t been able to look me in the eye since it happened *I take a deep breath*
Ari: I’m so sorry sweetie *gives me a short hug* It’ll be okay. She’ll come around
The bell rings for first period class…
Ari: *hugs me*
Me: Thanks *I smile weakly at her* Better get to class, chica
Ari: Will do, chica *giggles*
In first period I feel more distracted than ever. I look up at Demi & she gives me a quick nod of acknowledgement & I smile back at her. Later around last period, I feel really antsy so I leave the room to pretend pee. I get a text from Terra & she asks where I am now. I tell her the obvious, “I’m in school,” & she responds so is she. I shake my head confused but find it funny she asks. She texts me back telling me to come towards the front lobby. I walk out of the bathroom & walk towards that direction, then see her standing there…
Me: Terra?! *I playfully push her chest & I look around self-consciously & lower my tone of voice* What’re you doing here?!
Terra: *laughs* Thought I’d surprise ya *gives me one of her charming grins*
Me: *I give her a tight hug** Aren’t you supposed to be in school?
Terra: Aren’t you supposed to be in class?
Me: I asked you first *I poke the side of her stomach with my index finger*
Terra: My class got out early, so I thought I’d surprise ya *puts her hands around my waist*
Me: *I smile & lean into her, then frown & pull her hands off my waist, slowly* Um…
Terra: What’s the matter?
Me: *I whisper* Nobody here knows I’m…super gay now
Terra: *gives me a small smile* Well then, they don’t have to. Your secret’s safe with me
Me: It’s already safe with you. But thanks. You’re so patient with me *I smile dreamy at her*
Terra grins then finds a private corner for us. She scopes the area then pulls me by the front of my jeans & in for a close kiss. I grin through our kiss. I open my eyes to see Logan standing in the hall with a bewildered look on his face. Terra pulls her hands away from my crotch area. At the same time the bell rings for the end of the day…
Me: *I take a step closer to him* Loge… I wanted to tell you…
L: *raises his hands & looks at us still in shock* I uh…need…some time *walks away*
Me: *I sigh & watch him disappear around the hall corner*
∞•Chapter 11•∞
At home…
Terra & I are hanging out on the couch while my mom is upstairs in her room…
Me: You think Logan will ever talk to me again?
Terra: Mandy, he’s your best pal. Of course
Terra puts her hand on my knee & I nuzzle her neck. We kiss a little then Terra decides to get back home. We softly kiss goodbye…
Terra: *points at me* You never fail to give me fanny flutters
Me: *I snort*
Terra: *catches a little look of doubt in my eyes & puts her hands on my cheeks* It’ll all be okay. Okay?
Me: Okay
Terra: Do you believe me?
Me: Little bit?
Terra: Better than nothing!
Me: *I chuckle at her*
I open the front door for her to leave then we both see Logan getting out of his car in my driveway. He walks over to us slowly. Terra walks past him with a worried look then Logan gives her a warm smile & pats her arm gently. Terra gives me a “you’ll be alright” look & walks to her car. Logan walks past me into my house with his hands in his pockets & a cautious look on his face. I walk back inside & close my front door. We walk into my T.V. room together & sit down on the couch together, & stay silent for a minute…
Log: *sighs loudly* Sooo…how long has this been going on with Terra?
Me: *I shrug* For a little while now. I was going to tell you…I just didn’t know how to start that type of conversation…
L: *gives me a light smile* Well you’re doing fine so far
Me: *I let out a little laugh* You know…there’s nothing different about me? I’m still…me
L: True. You just like boobs now
Me: *I give him a playful shove*
My mom walks down the stairs & into the kitchen to prepare dinner…
L: *looks down at his feet then looks up & cracks a side smile* Listen, you know you’re my best friend, and I’ll still like you no matter who you like *pats my arm*
Me: *I take a deep breath* You don’t know how much of a relief it is to hear you say that
L: Then why’d you hold this secret in for so long!? Come here *stands up & holds his arms out for a hug*
Me: *I stand up to hug him & try to hold in my tears*
L: You don’t need to hide from me *we pull apart from our hug* Alright so how long has Ari known?
Me: *I give him a sheepish look* For a while…sorry
L: Hey, it’s your decision. It’s about you. Not me. I’m just glad you had someone to support you still
Me: Me too
L: So uh, we all need to hang out for real now
Me: We do
L: Because the last time we hung out with Terra you two were camp buddies
Me: *I cover my face with my hand* Don’t remind me
L: *smirks* It’s alright, Mandy. I’m not mad or anything *nods his head towards the front door*
I should get home for dinner. I just…wanted to come by and make sure you were okay. And that we’re cool
Me: We’re always cool
L: Right *lets out a laugh of relief & stands up* Well uh, I guess I’ll get going
Me: Sure *I stand up & walk over to my front door with him*
L: Go easy on yourself
Me: I’ll try *I smile at him & open the front door*
I watch him walk away then close my front door after he leaves. I catch my mom watching us from the kitchen; I give her a small smile & go back into the T.V. room.
Later after dinner…
Mom: *knocks on my bedroom door*
Me: Come in?
Mom: Hi. *walks in* Do you mind?
Me: Like I said…come in
Mom: *sits down next to me & pats my leg* Sweetie, we can’t act like this forever. You’re my daughter, and I should love you, gay, straight, poke -a –dots, whoever you want to be
Me: Mom, it’s who I am
Mom: *nods her head* Right *hugs me* I’m still figuring it out too, Mandy. I’m sorry I reacted the way I did. It was just a real…surprise
Me: It’s alright. I knew you’d come around eventually. Thanks for still loving me the same way
Mom: Oh sweetie, I’ll always love you no matter what *puts her arm around me & gives me a little side hug*
∞•Chapter 12•∞
As the months pass by, Prom is JUST around the corner & then graduation isn’t too far along after that. It’s a Friday evening—also Terra’s birthday—and I invite my friends over along with the birthday girl herself. We’re all sitting on the couch together watching T.V. I feel like talking to Terra about Prom so I pull her into the kitchen, by her hand…
Terra: Ya alright?
Me: Uh, yeah. It’s just…Prom’s coming around the corner and…
Terra: *intertwines her fingers with mine* Are you feeling confident about us going?
Me: *I look at our hands* I have no idea what we should do
Terra: If it’s anyone’s problem then they can go piss off *smiles & gives me a charming look*
Me: *I give her an excited look* We should go, right?
Terra: I think we should
Me: Well let’s do it!
Terra: Well alright! *she hugs me & we get all giddy with laughter*
Ariana & Logan hear our excitement & they walk into the kitchen…
Ari: *grins* What’s goin on in here?
L: *follows in after Ariana* Did someone propose in here?
Terra: *chuckles*
Me: *I laugh* We’re going to Prom!
Ari: YAY!
L: Awesome!
Terra: Yeah we’ll show them all *bumps my hip with his own*
Kevin: *walks into the kitchen to eat some cake*
Me: *I give Kevin an un-amused look*
Terra: *taps Ari’s wrist* Hey, I bet ya I could find ya a date
Ari: *reaches out dramatically & grabs her shoulders* COULD YOU REALLY?
Terra: YES
Ari: *lets go of her shoulders* Not that I’m desperate
L: Oh not at all *chuckles*
Kev: *walks by her & acts all snarky* Obviously
Ari: *slaps his arm a couple times*
Kev: Ow girl, watch it *walks out of the room*
Terra: *laughs*
Me: *I crack up at them*
L: I’m thinking of bringing Katie
Me: Smiley Katie?
L: Yeah
Me: Uuuh? *I tilt my head to the side*
L: What? She’s cool
A: Godspeed with you boy
Me: *I put my hand on his shoulder* Go for it
Terra: We’ll support your decision
L: Thanks *messes up Terra’s hair with his hand*
Terra: *whines at Logan messing with her hair*
Later, after Ariana & Logan leave, I bring Terra upstairs. I hold her hand & tell her to close her eyes as I guide her upstairs to my room…
Terra: Can I open my eyes yet?
Me: Yup
Terra: Okay. It’s…your room?
Me: And we have it all to ourselves
Terra: *laughs & hits my arm* This is my surprise?
Me: Maybe. Come here. Sit with me
Terra: You’re acting weird
Me: Well I’m TRYING to tell you I love you, you goof
Terra: *gives me a tearful look & hugs me close & whispers into my ear* Love you too
Me: *I start to tear up myself*
Terra: *leaves one hand on my waist & fixes my hair* I can’t believe you *smirks & pokes my chest all giddy*
Me: So…when do you think our families can meet?
Terra: *gives me a nervous look*
Me: You keep putting it off…what’s wrong?
Terra: Nothing’s wrong…it’s just…my parents. They aren’t exactly comfortable with my…Lemon lifestyle
Me: You mean being yourself?
Terra: *tilts her head at me annoyed* It’s complicated *sits on the edge of my bed*
Me: *I scoot over next to her* Don’t you want to try and make it un-complicated? I mean, my mom finally came around. I’m sure your parents will *I put my arm around her & caress her arm gently*
Terra: *looks at my hand on her arm* Lady, if I keep pushing it, they may kick me out of my own house
Me: Well, we can’t let that happen. Why would they do that? And to their own daughter? I don’t get it
Terra: Lately, they’ve been ignoring me and just plain not wanting to have anything to do with me. It’s been more than 2 years since I came out and they still won’t accept me *sighs after speaking so quickly*
Me: I accept you. Don’t worry; they’ll come around some day. I mean they just HAVE to. You’re amazing
Terra turns to me & gently grabs the back of my head—knowing it makes me weak in the knees. I look at her with caring eyes & nod letting her know everything will be okay…
Terra: Come here *leans in and kisses me*
I smile at her & we sit in silence for a few peaceful minutes—then decide to kiss some more & enjoy the rest of the evening together…
Monday: The last week of school...
Prom is this Saturday, and Graduation is next Monday. After 1st period ends, Demi greets me from behind, by grabbing my shoulders & shaking me a little…
Demi: Hey you!
Me: Hey, long time no talk
Demi: Dude, right? OH, and I think it’s chill that you’re into girls. I mean, you still seem like the same person. I dunno why people always freak out about things like this
Me: Thanks? *I laugh a little* I guess news travels fast round here
Demi: It only takes a couple of eyes
Me: Yeeeah *I shake my head*
Demi: Nothing wrong with it. I’m pretty open too with who I date too
Me: Meaning…you like girls too?
Demi: LIKE? Oh honey. Girls are the best *winks at me*
Me: *I chuckle at her* Well now I know!
Demi: *laughs along with me* Hey, I gotta head home. See ya later!
Me: See ya!
Demi: *waves at me then walks off*
Saturday evening: Prom Day…
Terra & I are getting ready in the downstairs bathroom near the kitchen. We decide to color coordinated; Terra in her black/pink tux and me in my pink fluffy dress. My mom peeks in on us…
Mom: OH, you two look so adorable! *clicks a picture on her phone*
Me: Mooom
Terra: *chuckles & fixes my hair* You look beautiful
Me: And you look very handsome
Terra: Why thank you
Me: *I chuckle*
Rick: *yells to us from the kitchen table while chewing on some chips* So where’s your dates?!
Terra: *clears her throat awkwardly*
Mom: *bites her bottom lip guiltily* You want to tell him?
Me: *I give her a “yeah right,” look*
Terra: I’LL tell him *walks over to Rick*
Me: Are you sure—?
Terra: *already walking into the kitchen* Rick, I’m Mandy’s date—OH and girlfriend
Me: *I gain some confidence & walk in & lock my arm around Terra’s arm* Yeah. She’s my date. And uh, I’m hers
Rick: *blinks a couple times, then looks at my mom* Aaand you weren’t going to tell me this?
Mom: No, I mean I was…
Rick: That sounds like a bunch of bull
Mom: *puts her hand on Rick’s shoulder* Rick, sweetie, you don’t need to get so angry—
Rick: How long have you known about this?
Mom: I wasn’t keeping it from you; the subject just never came up. I didn’t think it’d be a big deal
Rick: Not a big deal? *stands up* You must be high. You both, too *points at Terra & I*
Mom: Excuse me?
Rick: Your daughter’s a fruit! And so is her woman-friend here!
Mom: RICK. You’re being so— *stops talking & puts her hand up at Rick* You know what. I think you should leave
Rick: Leave?
Mom: *crosses her arms*
Rick: Fine. I’ll leave. And maybe I just won’t come back *walks towards the front door*
Mom: Please, do us all a favor Rick—don’t come back
Rick: *glares at us* Freaks
Mom: OUT! *walks over to him & pushes him towards the door*
Me: *I run over & swing the front door open*
Rick: *scowls at me & curses*
Terra: *slams the door shut* Well that went shit
Mom: *shakes her head* Any guy I date who won’t accept my daughter or her partner has no purpose in my life *holds in her tears* I think I need to be alone now for a bit—but you two have a nice time tonight, okay? *fixes her hair & smiles at us, then slowly walks up the stairs to her room*
Me: *I sadly watch her* I always thought Rick was a jerk but I didn’t expect it on this level. Wow
Terra: One less whacka to worry about
Me: *I give her a weak smile*
Terra: *wraps her hand behind my waist & says into my ear* Come on, lady. The Prom’s awaiting, and so are our friends
Me: Right. Let’s go!
Terra: That’s the spirit! And I’ll drive *pulls out her keys from her pocket*
Me: Oh, such a gentlewoman
Terra: *snorts out a laugh* Fair enough *opens my front door* After you
Me: *I walk past her & she slaps my butt* SO cheeky *I laughs & she closes the door behind us*
At the Plaza where Prom is being hosted…
The place looks so beautiful! The Prom Committee really went all out; there’s fairy lights dangling & twinkling from every inch outside and inside—which gives the Prom a dream-like atmosphere. Terra & I look at each other with excitement. We eventually find Ariana & Logan, along with their dates. I bump fists with Logan…
Ari: You guys look great!
Me: You too! *I look at her date & smile* You must be Julian?
Julian: Ay you’d be correct
Me: I’m Mandy *I shake his hand*
Julian: Nice to finally meet you
Me: You too
Julian goes to school with Terra. He has a nice English accent. How charming. And he’s a looker for sure…
Terra: *grins & pats her friend on the arm* Fancy seeing you here, mate *laughs*
Julian: Seems like a pretty chill place
Terra: Pretty chill *grins at her friend*
Me: *I chuckle at them*
Katie: Hi Mandy!
Me: *she startles me a little* Oh look it’s Katie, everyone
Logan: *wraps an arm around her waist to pull her close*
Katie: Doesn’t this place look AMAZE-ING?
Me: *I try to sound as enthusiastic as she is* OH MY GOD, TOTALLY
Logan: *playfully pats my arm*
A slow song comes on & more people gather onto the dance floor. Julian & Ariana seem to be hitting it off well. They look like they could already be an actual couple. And then there’s Logan and Katie…he really does seem to like her a lot. Terra distracts me out of thoughts, by caressing my arm all the way down to my hand & gently grabbing it. I take a deep breath getting caught up in the moment. I never guessed that this is where I would be in my life during my Senior year of high school. After our slow dance the music changes to a fun upbeat song…
Julian: *twirls Ari around by her hand & pulls her close* So you’re still a fan of me?
Ari: *giggles & pokes his chest* I was a fan even before you spoke with that cute accent of yours
Julian: *laughs* Funny, I felt the same about you
Ari: *shakes her head & blushes*
Logan: You know, you look really beautiful tonight
Katie: Aw, well so do you hon. *fixes his bow tie*
Later, we all take a break & sit together at a table & goof off. Logan & Katie go back to dancing, while the rest of us still sit & talk. Felt kinda surreal watching Demi my ex-crush and my girlfriend getting to know each other throughout the night. Terra snuck me a thumbs up of “approval” when Demi was looking away. I waved my hand at her feeling embarrassed & covered my face with my hand laughing.
Finally, the night ends & we all say our goodbyes, ready to see each other at Graduation. Terra & I hold hands while walking out of the Plaza. It seems like most people have gone home. We walk under a big walnut tree with the fairy lights twinkling through the leaves. I give Terra a playful look & pull her in closely for a long kiss…
Terra: *let out a deep sigh & says in a teasing yet longing way* Marry me
Me: You have to behave yourself first
Terra: You know I can’t
Me: *I stare longingly at her daring yet innocent eyes*
Terra: Ya ready to go home?
Me: Yep. I just need to find my ride *I look over Terra’s shoulders’*
Terra: *hits my arm* You cheeky minx
I laugh & playfully push her. She pushes me back as we race to her car…
•∞• THE • END •∞•
Mandy(Michelle O'Donnell)
∞• MANDY •∞
∞•Chapter 1•∞
My alarm clock wakes me up with the usual 6am wake up call for school. I slam my hand down on the snooze button then wait in my bed for a couple lazy minutes. I tend to be the first person awake in my house. I walk by my brothers’ room & hear him snoring and speaking some gibberish in his sleep. I eat a quick breakfast and head out in my dad’s hand–me- down jeep.
Five years ago, my dad passed away from a terrible car accident. That was definitely a tough time for my family and I. Our family just isn’t the same since his passing. When the funeral came around, I wrote a song about him and sung it in front of everyone with my guitar. It was a very emotional day for everyone. My Dad always supported me in everything I did and what I was passionate about. He was undeniably one of my heroes, and still is.
Since a little over a year my mom has been dating a guy named Rick. He’s okay, but I feel we can never connect. My older brother, Kevin feels the same way. Rick seems to ask us about the same topics, like, “How’s school? Doing any sports YET? You like to hike, because I really do?” Does he even listen to what we tell him?
One of my best friends of 5 years is Ariana. When met in the 8th grade and since then we’ve been inseparable. She’s always been a blunt person and offers any advice she can to me. I feel like I can trust her with my life.
My other best friend is Logan; I’ve known him since the 4th grade, and we’ve always been close like he’s my brother and I’m his sister. He aims for high grades in school and always stays on his best behavior. It’s mostly because his parents want him to be that way. I sympathize with him trying to live up to their standards all the time. But he can do it, and has been.
At school…
I see my friends hanging out in the front of the school waiting for me. We greet each other & head inside. We walk to my locker and I grab some text books for my classes…
Logan: *taps my arm* Hey Man, did you do the Chem. homework?
Me: Mr. A-plus have an off night?
L: Oh come on, man. My sister needed some help with her own homework— so I got distracted and had like no time to finish mine!
Me: OKAY, okay, I believe you *I give him a smirk*
L: *shakes his head at me*
Me: I think I ignored all my homework last night. Oops
Ariana: *widens her eyes* Wait we HAD Chem. homework?
Me: Someone’s still sleeping
A: Hey, this is no time for sass
The bell rings for first period class…
Me: Damn that bell. I guess I’ll see you guys later
A: Maybe
Me: Love you
A: *shrugs* Love you too
L: Later!
Me: Lata!
I speed walk into my English classroom & find my desk. Mr. Hayes—my teacher—gives me a side eye and continues speaking to the class. All this month we’ve been reading the play: “Romeo & Juliet.” Mr. H. likes to give us parts to read out loud to the class. He assigned me the part of Juliet & another girl in our class, Demi—who sits next to me—reads Romeo’s part. We’ve partnered up and read a couple of pages together and I catch myself staring at her lips whenever she reads her lines. They’re so pretty like her eyes; I can’t help admiring her looks. I could barely hear Demi speaking, as I somehow managed to drown out all the other sounds around me as I shifted my eyes up to her eyes; they’re a nice dark brown color to compliment her brown hair—?
Mr. Hayes: Mandy?
Me: *I look up at my teacher a little frazzled* Uuuh yes?
Mr. Hayes: It’s your turn to read
Me: UUUUH… *I look down at my book in my hand*
Demi: *leans over to me* Page 20 *gives me a little smile*
Me: Right, thanks *I let out a deep sigh & start reading*
Later after class, I keep wondering why I keep thinking about Demi. I’ve been doing it a lot lately, not just with her, but with other girls. Maybe I should talk to someone about it—no I should keep quiet—or they’d know that I’m having all these conflicting feelings and no one has the time to listen to all of that…
At home: It’s nighttime and I sit on my bed playing my guitar trying to write a new song that I’ve been struggling to compose for what feels like forever. My mom peaks her head into my room…
Mom: I’m heading to bed, hon.
Me: Alright, love you
Mom: *smiles* Love you too, sweetie. Don’t stay up too late
Me: Yeah, yeah, yeah *I smile at her*
Mom: *laughs & shakes her head while walking away*
I’ve been playing guitar for a while now. It helps me get through my hard times or to relieve stress. I strum a few chords on the guitar out of frustration…
∞•Chapter 2∞
Next morning:
I wake up in my bed realizing there’s not much longer left of my Senior year. The Valentine’s Carnival is this Friday, I hope that’ll lift my spirits a bit. I’ve been thinking of asking someone—anyone at this point. I haven’t been on a real date in a real long time. Maybe Logan and I should double date. Not each other…you know, with other people. Since my last real date or serious relationship was sophomore year. I wouldn’t say that I’m ugly or some kind of ‘Jessica Alba.’ Maybe somewhere in the middle of them two? Anyway, I just always seem to find the wrong person. Every time my date thinks everything’s going well, I can’t help but to think otherwise. It’s a mystery to me as to why this still happens. But maybe things have changed since sophomore year—the change is just now more noticeable…
Kevin: *pops his head into my room* Hey sis, wakey, wakey!
Me: AH! *he startles me & I throw a pillow at him* Since when are you awake at this time? *I sit up & squint at him*
Kev: *excited* I dunno! I kinda just…woke up! *holds his arms out feeling proud*
Me: Ya, I see that *I give him an un-amused look*
Kev: Ooo, you’re sassy in the early mornin’ *gives me a smug look & walks away*
Me: *I roll my eyes then yell at him* You’re lucky I ran out of pillows to throw at you! *I shake my head at him & get up & ready for school*
At school…
Logan and I wait outside Ariana’s classroom while she talks to her teacher…
Me: *I stutter for a second before speaking* H-h-hey Loge, you think we could somehow double date Friday for the carnival?
L: Yeah sure man, just tell me what I should wear *nudges my shoulder & laughs*
Me: Aha, that’s hilarious *I give him an annoyed look* I’m serious. I haven’t had a date since—
L: The Stone Age? *gives me a teasing look*
Me: *I point at him* Heeey *I chuckle* Seriously
A: *walks up to us* What’cha two talkin’ bout?
Me: We need to find dates for the Carnival, Friday
A: Samezies. Maybe we can TRIPLE date, huh? *points at us all excitedly*
Me: That sounds awful
A: Hey, I’m not that bad once you get to know me *nudges my shoulder*
Me: *I act annoyed but can’t help but to smile at her* We can talk about it later
*The bell rings for first period class…*
Me: LATER! *I rush off to class*
In English class…
Later during class, when we have silent reading time, I decide to scope the room for possible date “candidates.” No one really looks appealing at the moment—since we are all practically on the verge of death from sheer boredom. Maybe second period will be a much livelier bunch. I never thought looking for a date could be this challenging…
Throughout the day I observe everyone with their significant others. Sometimes I feel like there’s no one out there for me. It’s a real scary thought. I get tired of looking so I lean against the lockers & look to my left, seeing Demi walking toward my direction. She smiles, maybe not at me, but I couldn’t help feeling a little weak kneed when she came closer. Actually, this feeling I get, seems to happen a lot around her—or just any girl. But back to Demi; she’s captain of our school soccer team and has the edgy babe look to top it off. But she isn’t arrogant about it. She gives me a little nod while passing and I catch myself just staring at her…and her ass. Shit, did anyone see me do that? My eyes are misbehaving so much recently. I’m starting to feel like I’m trapped and can’t breathe. I gotta get outta here! Crap I still have last period left…maybe I could skip it. Not alone, that would suck. I’ll ask Ariana— since Logan needs to keep his school records squeaky clean—I’ll text her.
For about fifteen minutes Ariana and I are walking down the sidewalk that leads to downtown. For some reason I don’t talk as much as I usually do when I’m with her. Ariana starts to notice how quiet I am…
A: *nudges my shoulder* Everything okay?
Me: *I nudge her back & sigh* I dunno…I’ve feeling so different, lately. Been struggling trying to figure out…what I want. Like this ongoing war in my head?
A: *shrugs* What are you so conflicted about?
Me: *I look around then lower my voice & lean towards her* Sexuality conflicted
A: Whoaa *stops walking & moves in front of me & holds her hand out to stop me from walking* Hold up. What’chu sayin, girl?
Me: *I wave my hands at her* Shhh, keep walking
A: *continues to walk next to me* WELL. What ARE you saying? *widens her eyes*
Me: I’m not sure. I’ve been confused for a while *I look down at my feet as we walk* Does it mean something if I look at another girl’s ass?
A: Um, please first clarify whose ass you’re eyeballing?
Me: *I lower my voice & mutter to myself*
A: I’m sorry but I don’t speak MUMBLE
Me: *I roll my eyes* Alright! Captain of our soccer team
A: *raises her eyebrows & whispers* Demi? Pfft, well I don’t blame ya. After all, she is a babe *smirks then eyes widen* You know…Demi would actually be a good date for Friday…
Me: Not- helping- here!
A: Aaah sorry! Let’s discuss this, shall we?
Me: *I let out a big breath* Alright. I’m calm now
A: Yes, find your “Zen”. Okay, so first let’s remember when you last had a boyfriend or even dated a guy in general
Me: *I put my hands together* Mmm, well…the last time I did anything with a guy was probably…sophomore year
A: Interesting…
Me: *I raise my eyebrow at her* Also, it seems like I’m never satisfied with any of the guys I go out with. It HAS been a while since I’ve been on a date…
A: So then why not try going out with a guy first to “test” these new feelings you have? See if you feel the same or not?
Me: I’ve been TRYING to find a date all day but it’s harder than I thought. It’s been overwhelming honestly. That’s why we’re out here now & not in school
A: *pats my shoulder* WELL, if you’re still out of luck with your search before the Carnival then I’ll try to help you, okay?
Me: *I groan* Fiiiine *I cover my face with my hands then look at her* We can’t tell Logan about this. At least not yet. Until I’m sure
A: I won’t. Pinkie-promise
Me: *I sigh & smile at her & give her my pinkie finger* I know you won’t
A: That’s YOUR job
Me: *I laugh nervously & point at her* HA, good one
A: Maaandy
Me: I WILL. Jeeeeze, lady
A: *laughs then wraps her arm around my neck* If you need to talk more, I’m here, okay?
Me: *I smile* I know, I know
At home…
My mom walks over to me while I’m watching T.V. with a not so pleased look on her face…
Me: Heeey momma…
Mom: Your Principal called me today *folds her arms*
Me: Really? Aaand how’s he doin’?
Mom: Mandy. Why weren’t you in your last period class today?
Me: I…I didn’t feel well…so I stayed in the bathroom…for a REEEALLY long time
Mom: Were you doing drugs or something?
Me: Mom?! No. You know me
Mom: Alright…is that all?
Me: Yup!
Mom: *stares at me for a second* Well, do you feel better?
Me: Yeah, I’m fine now—I mean, I’m a little better. But I’ll be okay
Mom: *eyeballs me* Well alright
Me: Um, so yeah, I guess I better get goin’ on that homework that I have…every night…see ya!
I rush out of the T.V. room & up to my bedroom. I close my door & lay back on my bed & let out a big breath. The last thing my mom needs to hear is that I skipped class with Ari to have an anxiety attack about my sexuality. I can’t even imagine what she would say—I don’t think I want to know. But I DO know that she wouldn’t be overjoyed about the whole idea. I probably won’t get much sleep tonight with so many thoughts running through my head…
∞•Chapter 3•∞
Next day at school…
In English class today, Mr. Hayes decided to put us in our partnerships & read aloud to make the “Romeo & Juliet” play seem more ‘fascinating’ for us—since we all keep falling asleep in his class. Since Demi and I are Romeo & Juliet, we rearrange our desks so we’re sitting across from each other. I read my part aloud, then when it’s Demi’s turn, she’d cutely stumble over her words…
Demi: *peeks up at me & cracks a smile* God, isn’t this the lamest?
Me: Like you read my mind
Mr. Hayes: *walks by us & claps* We should be reading girls!
Me: *I jump up in my seat startled*
Demi: *covers her mouth hiding her smile* You okay?
Me: *I grin at Demi* Uh yeah, just a little jumpy I guess
Demi: Deep breaths! You don’t need to be nervous around me *gives me a playful look*
Me: *I return the playful look* Hey, you wanna make this more fun and less awkward than it already is?
Demi: Please
Me: Okay. Let’s read our parts with different accents
Demi: HUH?
Me: It’ll be fun. Trust me *I move her papers closer to her face* I’ll start *I use my best Russian accent & read my part* “Saints do not move, though grant for prayers sake!”
Demi: *cracks a smile*
Me: *I laugh & tap her book* You try
Demi: Alright *raises her eyebrows & reads one of her parts from the play with a Jersey accent* “Then move not white my prayer’s effect I take. Thus from my lips, by yours, my sin is purged.” FIST PUMP!
Me: *I shake my head & laugh at her*
Demi: Dude, but trying to talk Shakespearian with a Jersey accent isn’t as easy as it looks
Me: I noticed!
We burst into laughter. When Mr. Hayes walks by eye-balling us Demi reads her part normally to save us from getting into more trouble…
Demi: *raises her fists in the air* “Sin from thy lips! Oh, trespass sweetly urged! Give me my sin again.”
Me: *I mildly flirt* You kiss by the script?
Demi: *laughs & pats the side of my arm* You’re funny
Me: I try *I smile nervously & touch my arm where she pat it*
At one point during class I leave to go to the “bathroom” to meet Ariana in the corridor by the snack machine…
Me: And when she touched my arm…I felt something
A: *gives me a weird look* What did you feel?
Me: *I hit her arm a little* Butterflies. I felt butterflies. God Ar. Way to make it dirty
A: Pfft, hey, you’re the one who said it! *laughs then moves closer to me & whispers* So…you really think you’re gay?
Me: I…I don’t want to put a label on me quite just yet. But I just know I’m trying to get more comfortable with these ‘feelings’ that I’ve been having
A: *hugs me* Good for you Mandy *pulls away from our hug & smiles* As much as I’d rather stay out here—we gotta get back to class!
Me: Same! See you at lunch! *I wave at her then speed walk back to class*
∞•Chapter 4•∞
A couple days pass…
It’s finally Friday, which also means; DATE NIGHT. At school in the hallway, Ariana & I are stand by my locker watching Logan talk to very Smiley-Katie from my first period class. Logan sees us staring, and he waves at us, then walks over with her...
Ariana: Looks like someone has a date for tonight
Log: You’d be correct!
Katie: *giggles & turns to me* Hi Mandy!
Me: Sup Smiley—Katie, hi *I wave at her*
L: You two know each other?
Me: Yeah we—
Katie: We’re in first period English together, its suuuuper great, right, Mandy?
Me: *I cringe at her over-the-top peppiness* Oh yeah, IT’S SUPER
A: *covers her mouth & hides her laughter*
L: So did YOU two find your dates?
A: Still searching *points at us both*
L: If you can’t find anyone maybe you can be each other dates
A: *gives him a sarcastic look* Cute idea Loge. Never would have thought of that one
L: Ha, ha, ha. Anyway, I was going to escort Katie to her first period
Katie: Wanna come, Mandy?
Me: Uh, I’ll be there in a sec
L: Okay, later!
Me: Okay bye-bye *I say quickly*
A: They’re kinda cute
Me: Yeah kinda
A: Don’t worry Mandy. If we can’t find dates, we’ll still have fun
Me: Yeah, we’ll see
A: What a negative Nancy you are
Me: *I stick my tongue out at her*
Ari: *sticks her tongue out at me*
In first period English class…
Mr. Hayes caught Demi¬ and I doing our various accents game during our Shakespeare reading. He told us both to knock it off and to write a page on why Shakespeare’s so “great.” Mr. Hayes takes everything way too seriously, and obviously likes to make my classroom time with him personal torture. But as long as Demi’s here the torture lessens. But then again also being AROUND Demi is torture too at times. As Demi and I write our “amazing” pages on Shakespeare, we keep looking at each other holding in our laughter over the whole situation. After class, Demi & I walk out together, talking about how bad the pages are that we wrote…
Demi: Dude, I swear he’s out to get us. And that “punishment” he gave us was stupid
Me: Maybe he needs to get laid
Demi: My thoughts exactly! *laughs & gently punches my arm* Hey everyone needs a good lay
Me: *I nervously laugh* That’s true *I slow my laughter down & stare at her* Hey, um, so…are you going to the Carnival, tonight?
Demi: Oh yeah totally
Me: *I try not to look the least awkward while speaking* Got a hot date?
Demi: Oooh yes; you?
Me: *I try to hide my disappointment* No luck yet
Demi: So, you’re still on the hunt?
Me: Yep. All this week *I shake my head sadly*
Demi: I could hook you up…if you’d like…?
Me: *I give her a slow look* It’s…like you read my mind
Demi: *grins* Cool. I think I know who… *looks around & makes eye-contact with a guy. She calls him over to us* Hey Alec!
Alec: *stops talking to his friends & walks over to us* Hey Demi *gives her a flirty smile then looks over at me*
Me: *I wave while clenching my jaw*
Alec: Who’s your cute friend?
Demi: Ah already off to a good start. Wanna be her date for the Carnival?
Alec: Sure *brushes his bangs away from his face*
Me: Sure?
Alec: Mmm hm *nods his head*
Demi: Well that settles that! I’ll see YOU two at the Carnival
Alec: *caresses my arm*
Me: *I raise an eyebrow at him then look at Demi* Yooou betcha
Demi: *smiles* Well, catch ya lata’!
Alec: Bye Demi! *leans in & speaks into my ear* Lookin god Mandy *growls playfully* Don’t let this face fool ya. I’m not- that- innocent *winks at me & walks away*
Me: *I put my hand over my face & groan* Why meee?
∞•Chapter 5•∞
At the Valentine’s Day Carnival…
It’s crazy busy out here! People of all ages are making out everywhere—even in the bathroom! Also, it’s getting darker outside so now all the carnival lights are on for the rides. Speaking of rides, my damn head won’t stop spinning from my date. This guy doesn’t shut up or stop being so grabby with me. And we’ve been on the Ferris wheel for God only knows how many times. It’s gotten to the point where I’ve perfectly practiced tuning him out. I keep telling him I need to use the bathroom—hoping to maybe ditch him. After our ride ends, I try to walk towards the bathrooms (again, I’m hopeless), but he grabs my waist and pulls me in forcefully for a kiss with some tongue action…
Me: *I push him away* Back off Alec!
Alec: Hey why so cranky? Is it that time of the month or something?
Me: *I let out a disgusted scoff* Screw you, Alec!
Alec: Hey, what’s your problem?!
Me: *I poke his chest* YOU are my problem, asshole
Alec: *tries to hold my hand*
Me: Also *I slap his hand away* STOP-TOUCHING-ME
Alec: I can’t help it you’re so sexy, girl
Me: Ugh, god. I’m going now, feel free to NOT follow me
I sTerrap off trying to shake off our kiss. I’ll make a deal with myself and try not to be stuck in a situation like this ever again to the best of my ability. I look behind me to get one last glimpse of him, then duck to my right & purposely get myself lost in the sea of people. What a crappy Valentine’s Day. I mean, it’s not Demi’s fault for this date; it’s mine for going along with it in the first place. Ugh, I really hope she doesn’t find me…or worse…or my friends…
Ugh, all this thinking is exhausting me. I need to sit down. I find a Balloon Darts booth nearby and decide to sit on one of the stools they have. Wishing it was a bar stool. I see no one running the booth & let out a deep sigh & I run my hands over my face & my hair. “You alright there, lady?” I hear someone say in an Australian accent. I lift my head up out of my hands startled for a minute then pleasantly surprised to see a super cute butch girl with hazel eyes and a dark blonde pixie haircut with a long bang on one side & faded shave on the other. I feel dazed for a second while looking at her. I can tell by her outfit that he’s in charge of the booth. She’s wearing a pink hat with a pink shirt & a black jacket with black skinny jeans. I check her out then straighten myself up & fix my hair. She’s still giving me a concerned look while I stare at her…
Me: *I stutter* W-why’re you looking at me like that?
Girl: Ya lookin’ a bit crook
Me: *I tilt my head a little*
Girl: Lookin a bit sick?
Me: I feel fine. Well—do I really look that bad? *I fix my hair*
Girl: *shrugs her shoulders* Ya don’t look too bad to me *gives me a friendly smile*
Me: Well…I could be better. You startled me a bit. I didn’t see you there
Girl: I needed a loo break. Sorry to give ya a scare *drinks from her water bottle*
Me: It’s alright *I smile weakly at her & look down at my feet*
Girl: Ya seem a bit dim. Whadya say, we play a round of Balloon Darts to lighten the mood *she looks at me closely with her sparkly eyes*
Me: *I look back up at her, still smiling weakly*
Girl: *grins* Ya up for the challenge, lady?
Me: *I give her a clever grin* Challenge accepted, lady
Girl: *laughs & grabs some darts for us to throw*
After playing a few games with her, we end up just talking until closing time for the Carnival. So far, I’ve found out her name is Terra, and that she’s from Australia, and she’s definitely on the attractive side—Demi may have some competition. After I help Terra clean up a bit, she leans her elbows on the table & pulls out a deck of cards & holds them out in front of me…
Terra: Pick a card
Me: Aw man, not this trick
Terra: Come on lady, ya know ya want to *looks at me playfully*
Me: *I give her a teasing look* First of all, I have a name, and it’s not lady. How would you like it if I kept calling you lady?
Terra: Ya just did *gives me a clever smile*
I stare at her for a second then reach forward & I grab some of cards from her hands & laugh. She comes out from behind her booth & tries to grab them back from me. She puts her hands over mine & we stare at each other; she gives me a shy smile while I try not to blush…
Terra: I’d like to have my cards back Miss Mandy—not Lady
Me: *I roll my eyes* Ha ha *I hold them out & she grabs them quickly & gives me a second look*
Terra: You’re such a dag *puts her cards into her pants pocket*
Me: A dag?
Terra: *sits on top of the booth table* An amusing type of person. You’re quite daggy
Me: Oh. Well then, I’m slightly less offended *I sit down next to her*
Terra: *chuckles & playfully nudges my arm* I saw ya earlier with that try hard pashing on ya; he ya boyfriend?
Me: *I blink a few times* OH…THAT situation? Oh god, not even close to a boyfriend *I make a gagging noise*
Terra: *shakes her head & laughs*
Me: We were set up by a friend of mine
Terra: Ah, exciting *widens her eyes at me with intrigue*
Me: Ugh, don’t remind me *I shake my head*
Terra: *gives me a sad look & taps my wrist*
Me: *I give her a second look* Actually, hanging out with you kinda made up for what I thought was going to be a real shitty night
Terra: *nods her head slowly* I’m glad I could help make it less shit *smiles & looks me up and down* So you’re not dating anyone then?
Me: *I feel a little nervous* Uh no. I’m not
Terra: *nods her head at me*
Me: *I turn to her slowly* Can you…keep a secret?
Terra: *tilts her head at me & gives me a curious look* I can
Me: Okay. Well…so…the reason it didn’t work out with that guy tonight…is because…well—
Terra: He’s a bit of a bogan?
Me: Is that a bad thing?
Terra: Yes. Guys got no class
Me: *I point at her* Bingo
Terra: But go on…
Me: Besides him being a complete asshole…I think I may find more interest with…
Terra: Fancy the ladies? *raises her eyebrows*
Me: *I give her a shy look* Well…you’re not wrong *I panic for a second* Wait, am I that obvious?
Terra: *chuckles* Mandy. Ya stand out like a shag on a rock
Me: *I blush at her comment & try not to have an anxiety attack*
Terra: Aaand I might also fancy the ladies myself. So that may have helped a bit with my guessing
Me: *I raise my eyebrows at her* Well then that’s just cheating
Terra: Mm, I don’t think so *pokes my arm*
Me: *I shake my head & laugh at her* I have this crush on a girl classmate in my English class
Terra: Is she straight?
Me: Yeees
Terra: Well of course she is. It happens often
Me: It sucks
Terra: Too right. Ya know, this whole night I’ve been trying to figure ya out
Me: Looks like you did *we stare at each other for a second*
Terra: And don’t worry, your secret’s safe with me
Me: *I give her a weak look then stare down at my feet*
Terra: Ya know…fun fact, in Aussie slang, girls like us are called Lemons. We call ourselves lemons because we are sweet, juicy and tasty *winks at me*
Me: *I give her a funny look then chuckle a bit* Well, if it wasn’t obvious, I’m new to the Lemon world
Terra: No worries, lady
Me: *I grin at her*
Terra: At first when I saw ya, my Lemon-dar did go off a little. Buuut that may have just been wishful thinking
*Terra shrugs & looks into my eyes achingly. I bite my lip & give her a similar look then feel overwhelmed & look down at my watch…*
Me: OH WOW, it’s late as hell. My Mom will freak if I’m not home soon— *I freeze* Aaand I just remembered that my date that I ditched drove me here *I shake my head*
Terra: *jingles her car keys*
Me: *I smile* You’d give me a ride?
Terra: Say please
We arrive at my house in her car & I ask her to park on the side of the street so my family won’t be nosy…
Me: Hey, thanks for the ride
Terra: No problem *gives me a toothy smile*
Me: *I snort out a little laugh then give her a sideways look* Hey uh…would you wanna try…going out…sometime? I mean, you don’t—we don’t have to—but—oh god am I doing this right? *The car suddenly feels like its closing in around me & I look around nervously* But please by all means say something to stop me from babbling
Terra: *shakes her head chuckling then puts her hand on my arm* You are a bit of a Yabber…
Me: *I point my finger at her* I’m aware
Terra: *grins & pretends to bite my finger* So what’s your favorite food?
Me: Hmm…pizza probably
Terra: Alright. I’ll pop around tomorrow evening & we can go for a bite
Me: That sounds…nice
Terra: I mean, it’s the least I could do—after ya yabberly asked me out
Me: *I cover my face blushing* Thaaat is what I did. Well, attempted, anyways
Terra: I’m impressed either way *crinkles her nose & smiles*
Me: *I smile nervously at her then start to feel lightheaded, but in a good way* Well uh, I should get going
Terra: *nods her head & caress my arm* See ya tomorrow
Me: See ya *I get out of hercar & wave goodbye*
∞•Chapter 6•∞
Next day: Saturday afternoon…
I keep thinking about my date tonight with Terra. I feel this date will show me what I’m really looking for in a relationship and person. And that I fancy the ladies like Terra said. I just know how I feel and I want to stay true to who I am. I sit down on the couch & I switch on the T.V. My older brother, Kevin, sits down on the couch next to me…
Kevin: *slaps my leg* What’s up lil sis?
Me: Juuust chillin
Kev: SAAAAME
I nod my head at him then look down at my cell phone. Logan & Ariana have been texting me a bunch of times since last night & they keep saying that they thought I died. I texted them both, “Sorry, change of plans, suddenly,” Logan stopped worrying, but Ariana wouldn’t let me off the hook just yet. Just then, my door bell rings a couple times…
Kev: Hey, you wanna get that? *stares intently at the T.V. screen*
Me: *I glare at him, annoyed* Sure *I shake my head & walk over to open the front door to see Ariana standing there* R?
Ari: Don’t R me, I wanna know what really happened to you last night *walks past me & into my house*
Me: Gee nice to see you too *I close my front door & face her*
Kev: *walks over to us & folds his arms* Well look-y whose here
Ari: NOT NOW, KEVIN *she grabs me & pulls me into the kitchen away from Kevin*
Where’d you go last night?
Me: *I whisper* Can we talk about this somewhere else?
Ari: Fine. Let’s do this in your room *grabs my wrist & pulls me towards the stairs*
We go into my bedroom & I shut my door tightly. We sit on my bed in pretzel sitting positions, face to face, & I tell her what happened last night…
Ari: *slaps my leg playfully* Why didn’t you just tell me?
Me: Ah, ow! *I rub my leg from her painful slapping* I’m just still figuring all these strong feelings I have
Ari: Aw, I’m here for you! *pats my leg*
Me: Thanks
Ari: And sooo…you got a date! *whispers* With a girl! An Aussie girl *slaps my leg again excitedly*
Me: *I smile at her in pain* Ow, okay, I’m probably gonna need this leg to properly function for my date
Ari: Ah, sorry! I’m done slapping…for now. And how long til your date? *raises her eyebrows all flirty*
Me: A few hours…
Ari: And we’re just SITTING here? *gets off my bed* Let’s get you lookin pretty for tonight!
Me: *I laugh then look at her* You’re serious?
Ari: *walks over to my closet* Oh you bet your butt I am. Come on, get off that booty of yours
Me: Well alright then!
A couple hours later Ariana finishes giving me my “makeover.” Ariana leaves me to my own devices & goes home. I look in the mirror & flatten out the front of my pink & black flannel button down shirt & push down my pockets into my black jean pants. I fix my long brown hair in the mirror, then someone knocks on my bedroom door. I walk over to open it...
Mom: Hi sweetie, I just got back from work—well don’t you look nice…
Me: Uh thanks. Ari helped me clean up
Mom: And I see that *fixes my collar* You look very nice. You never did make it clear where you were going tonight…?
Me: I didn’t? *I laugh nervously* Oh, uh, well…I have a date
Mom: *raises her eyebrows* OH? Well, it’s about time!
Me: Why does everyone keep saying that?
Mom: I hope you two have a nice time
Me: Me too *I smile at her, then I look for my perfume in my room*
Mom: *stands by my doorway* Will I get to meet him?
Me: *I almost knock over my lamp on my dresser & turn to her* What? I mean, no. He’s uh, I don’t want you to meet him just yet—cause it may not work out or something…and what would be the point of introducing you…to uh them if it doesn’t work out, right? *I finally find my cologne & almost spray it into my mouth*
Mom: Huh, I guess you do have a point…
Me: *I hear a horn honk* THEY’RE here! Gotta go! Love ya, Mom! *I kiss her on the cheek & dash out my room & down the stairs*
Mom: Have a good night hon! And don’t forget your wallet!
Kev: And condoms!
Mom: *smacks the back of his head*
Me: Ignoring you!
Later…
After we eat our dinner Terra drives me home. It’s pouring outside so she parks a little closer to my driveway but enough to still be hidden in private from my family. Terra lowers the music on the radio & starts chatting…
Terra: Besides the rain, I’d say this night was on the spiffy side *pats my leg*
Me: *I chuckle then look down at where she touched my leg*
Terra: *smiles at me* Would ya like a chokkie?
Me: A whatty?
Terra: *lets out a short laugh* Chocolate!
Me: OH, yeah, sure *she reaches over my legs to get into the glove compartment*
Terra: I hope ya like Hersey kisses; they’re all I’ve got after the Valentine’s Carnival celebrations. *pulls out a couple chocolates & drops them in the palm of my hand*
Me: *I look down at my hand* Thanks. Oh, they’re so cute and pink
Terra: Right, you are *unwraps a chocolate & pops one in her mouth*
Me: *I pop mine into my mouth too*
Terra: Did ya know, a kiss in my country is called a pash?
Me: Oh really?
Terra: So, I really just gave ya a couple a’ pashes
After she says that he gives me a clever smirk, that shows her charming dimples. She stares at me, and I start to feel a little anxious, but in a good way. I eye her outfit—or as she would say in her Aussie slang a “once-over”—her purple button up top with black ripped jeans…
Me: *I smirk then look at my house* I guess I should get going now?
Terra: Fair enough. Want me to walk ya?
Me: Oh, that goes without saying *I smile at her & open the car door*
Terra: *her eyes twinkle at me when she grins*
We sprint to my front door, trying not to get soaked from the rain. We laugh it off & I shake my soaked hair while Terra gives me a second look & steps closer. She fixes my collar to my flannel then slides them down slowly to rest on my hips. We look at each other & I shakily touch her hands on my hips. Terra checks if the coast is clear then positions me so my back is against the front door so we’re hidden from the windows. Terra grabs the back of my head pulling me in for a long kiss. At first my eyes are open in shock then I start to feel more comfortable & close my eyes & enjoy the kiss. After a few moments we calm down and Terra rests her hands on my hips again. I blink a couple times & we laugh at each other, filled with excitement. Our faces are still so close that we can smell each other’s sweet chocolate breath. We should just be thankful neither of us had anchovies on our pizza tonight. I chuckle out loud at my own joke…
Terra: *looks at my neck longingly* What’re you thinking?
Me: I made a dumb joke in my head and it made me laugh
Terra: *chuckles & shakes her head* You really are a dag *gently tugs on my collar before letting go*
Me: *I look down & blush*
Terra: *smiles at me & shakes off her wet hair*
Me: *I jokingly put my hands up to block the water from hitting my face*
Terra: *laughs & gives me a little shove*
Me: *I chuckle at her*
Terra: I’ll ring you later?
Me: I DO know what that means…and yes
Terra: *kisses my cheek & runs out in the rain to her car*
I watch her drive away & I sigh feeling lightheaded—in a good way. I open my front door almost hitting my brother…whose mouth’s hanging wide open…
Kev: Holy shit—are you—is SHE—?
Me: *I put my hand over his mouth & use the other hand to close the door* NOT A WORD. To mom or anybody
Kev: *he nods his head still in shock*
Me: *I take my hand off his mouth & walk towards the stairs*
Kev: *laughs* I’ve never been so glad to not be in college right now *follows not far behind me*
Me: *I groan & walk faster up the stairs* Why is this happening to me?
Kev: *whispers behind me* Is she your secret lover?
Me: GoodNIGHT Kevin *I walk into my room & close the door quickly*
Kev: *says through my door* Come on. Talk to me!
Me: Not right now
Kev: Fine. But you can’t hide. I know where you live
Me: *I shake my head & laugh quietly*
∞•Chapter 7•∞
Monday at school…
It seems Logan and Smiley Katie really hit it off since the Carnival—they’ve been inseparable all day. After my last period, Demi & I meet up by her locker…
Demi: Hey, so how’d your date with Alec go?
Me: Uh, greeeat *I try my best not to sound sarcastic, but it’s almost impossible*
Demi: He’s hot, right?
Me: More like a complete moron. Couldn’t keep his octopus hands and lips off me all night *I cringe at the memory*
Demi: *gives me a worried wide eyed look* Guess the dude’s different when he’s just your friend *chuckles & rummages through her locker*
Me: YEEEEAH *I smirk & fold my arms*
Demi: *turns to me* Hey, I gotta get goin; I got soccer practice. See you tomorrow? *pats my arm then jogs down the hall & disappears around the corner*
Later at home…
Kevin decides to cook dinner. I walk into the kitchen sniffing the air. And it doesn’t smell terrible…
Me: What’s all this? *I point at the absurd scene of him cooking*
Kev: *stirs whatever’s in the pot of boiling water* Oh just tryin something a little new *raises his eyebrows at me & gives me a little wink*
I nod my head slowly; knowing that comment was personally directed at me. Ever since he caught Terra and I ‘in the act,’ he’s been giving me smirks & snarky remarks for the past couple of days…
Me: You better not tell anyone…about me and you know who
Kev: *grins all excitedly* About your little giiiirlfriend?
Me: *I smack the back of his head*
Kev: WHOAAA, hey, hey, easy! Watch the stove!
Me: *I give him a long dramatic stare* It’s like I don’t know who you are anymore
Kev: I could say the same for you lover-girl
Me: *I pinch his arm* SHUT IT
Kev: Come on Mandy, I’m a little funny *stirs his pasta happily*
Me: *I roll my eyes at him* SURE you are
∞•Chapter 8•∞
It’s Friday finally…
After last period, Logan asks me if we can hang out tonight, but I tell him a “friend” of mine is visiting…
L: Would I know this friend?
Me: Uh no
L: So I can’t meet them?
Me: Uh no *I crack my neck annoyed* I MEAN—yeah sure you can…
L: *gives me a funny look*
Ari: *skips over to us* So what’s up for tonight?
L: Mandy’s having a little get together tonight, want to join?
Ari: Yeah, I’m there *smiles*
Me: I grit my teeth* Okay I guess I’ll have to warn—ha-ha I mean, tell my friend that you guys will be joining us
L: Yeah, cool man *pats my arm*
Ari: Friend?
L: Her new friend
Ari: Would I know this new friend?
Me: You know, that uh CAMP friend I told you about…? *I widen my eyes at her*
Ari: *stares at me for a second* OOOOH…right!
L: You know about this “friend”?
Ari: Yeeeah maybe
Me: *I clap my hands once* OKAY! I guess I’ll see you both at my house a little later?
L: Sounds good to me
A: Yup!
Me: See you then! *I wave to them, then dash out of school to text Terra about our change of plans*
At my house…
Terra comes over a little earlier so we can have some alone time before my friends come over. We’re sitting on the couch watching “Extreme Makeover” on the T.V. She’s got her arm around me. It’s quite relaxing, despite hearing my brother tip-toeing around room to room. Luckily my mom went out with Rick. But that still doesn’t calm my nervous for tonight…
Me: Okay, I’m totally freaking out
Terra: YOU? I finally have a proper opportunity to meet your mates but have to pretend to be bloody straight! Bloody hell *shakes his head*
Me: And here I thought I was the only one with that problem *I sigh then give her a caring look* Also, you are kinda cute when you’re freaking out. Sorry
Terra: *tickles my ear with her finger, playfully*
Me: I’m sorry we have to do this tonight…I really don’t know how much longer I can keep this a secret anymore, it’s so frustrating I just—
Terra: *leans over & kisses me* We’re in this together, okay?
Me: It’s just…I didn’t want you all to meet under these circumstances
Terra: No worries
Me: And I already told you Ari knows about us…but Logan doesn’t yet
Terra: Yes, I remember. Take a deep breath. Everything will be quite alright
Me: *I smile & lean in for another kiss*
A couple hours later we finish a game of Gold-Fish. We’re all sitting on the couch together & cracking jokes while the TV’s on in the background. They really do like Terra; which is the least of my worries. Also, Terra’s been on & off secretly locking her pinkie with mine…
Terra: *sits up from the couch* I’ll get some more chips from the kitchen, be back in a tick *winks at me & takes the chips bowl with her*
Logan: TICK! *nudges my arm* Ha, I love it! She’s too cool
Me: I’m glad you think so *I smile & pat his shoulder*
Ariana: *rolls her eyes at me, then stands up & follows Terra to the kitchen* Hey *grabs a couple chips from the bag & takes a bite* You and Mandy are super cute
Terra: I think we’re cute too
Ari: *helps Terra put more chips into the bowl*
Kevin: Cuter than ME, mate? *says in an Australian accent & laughs at his own joke*
Ari: KEVIN
Kev: Alright take it down a notch, R
Ari: This is an A-B conversation. So, you can C yourself out
Kev: Ha-ha. Whatever you say I probably already know *folds his arms* Try me
Ari: *shakes her head & turns to Terra* What’s he talkin’ bout?
Terra: *sighs* He knows about us
Ari: And how did this idiot find out about you two? *glares at Kevin*
Kev: Hey, words hurt, R. Oh, and to answer your question *whispers* I caught them making out by the front door like… *pretends to make out with himself*
Ari: *shoves Kevin so he stops*
Terra: Why don’t you rack off
Kev: Hey, I’m just sayin’ *waves his hands mockingly then walks away*
Ari: *rubs her temples* I guess he has nothing better to do with his life than tease you two
Terra: *smiles weakly at her* Come on; let’s get back to Mandy and Logan *grabs her bowl of chips & locks her arm into hers while they walk back into the TV room*
Less than a couple hours pass by and everything starts to wind down…
Logan: *high-fives Terra* Fun night! We gotta do this again some time
Terra: Oh well that just sounds like a blast and a half
L: *laughs & looks at me* I love it
Ari: *hugs me, then Terra* Bye guys; nice to finally meet you Terra *gives her a sweet smile*
Terra: Nice meeting you *grins back at her*
L: Later!
Terra: *closes my front door slowly & turns to me with a playful grin*Come here ya dag
Terra steps forward to press her lips onto mine & grabs my waist. For a moment it gets intimate, & we take our business over to the couch. Car headlights flash through the window, interrupting us…
Me: *I weakly whisper* Mom’s home
Terra: I guess that’s my cue
Me: No! Don’t leave yet! Maybe you could stay over…
Terra: I guess an innocent little sleepover wouldn’t hurt *winks at me & tickles my side*
Me: Stop that! *I laugh & playfully swat her hands away*
My mom opens the front door then walks past the T.V. room where we are on the couch. She retraces her steps & smiles at us…
Mom: Hi girls
Me: OH, hello
Mom: Hi hon. Who’s your new friend?
Terra: *gives her a little wave* I’m Terra
Mom: Hello
Terra: Hi *smiles shyly*
Me: Hey, uh, mom, could Terra stay over?
Mom: Sure sweetie. It’s Friday, isn’t it? I need to wash up, but you two have fun *grins then walks away to go upstairs*
Terra: *slaps my leg* Come on now; show me what your room looks like!
Me: If you say so! Follow me
Terra: Right behind ya
∞•Chapter 9•∞
Terra’s parents give her permission to stay over. My mom walks into my room, holding a sleeping bag…
Mom: You two decide who gets the bed & who gets the floor
Me: We’ll rock paper scissors it, Mom, thanks
Terra: I’m expecting scissor—
Me: *I throw a pillow at Terra*
Mom: *gives us a funny look* You two have a fun night
Me: Thanks, night mom!
Mom: Night *closes my door*
Terra: Jerk *throws my pillow back at me & climbs onto the bed to give me neck kisses*
Me: That’s the most American you’ve spoken since I’ve me you
Terra: Shut up
Me: There’s another one
Terra: *takes my pillow & pretends to suffocate me*
Me: NOT funny! *I yell under the pillow*
Later, I showered first then Terra. I put on my red pj shorts and purple tank top then get comfortable under the covers. I leave on my Himalayan salt rock lamp on its lowest light setting for Terra to find her way back after showering. I hear the toilet flush then I hear my bedroom door close. I hear her footsteps coming closer in my direction & the mattress indents on my right. I should have figured she wouldn’t sleep on the floor in a sleeping bag. But I still feel nervous. I turn to my right & lay on my side facing her. I can see in the dim light; her face is serious for a moment then softens into a playful smirk. I let her borrow my pj shorts and black t-shirt. She pulls a strand of my long brown hair behind my ear. Then slowly caress down to my cheek then chest. She moves her hand lower towards my crotch area…
Terra: *whispers* Are you comfortable with doing any bits with me?
I let out a nervous laugh & can’t help but to just stare at her in awe. Terra starts to kiss my neck. We get really into our foreplay and I’ve never felt so much bliss. Nothing’s ever felt so…right. I let out a breath of pleasure and relief…
Me: What if someone hears?
Terra: No one will suspect anything because we’re just good camp friends, right?
Me: *I give her a mischievous grin* Don’t let that stop you
Terra: I don’t mind having a naughty *wiggles her eyebrows at me*
Me: *I pull her by her t-shirt in for a long sensual kiss*
Saturday morning…
I wake up feeling groggy from a long night of…activities, eh hem. I stretch & look at the time; 11am. Then I look to my right & see Terra sleeping soundly. She looks so beautiful…and peaceful…and naked…and I’M half naked…and she’s IN my bed. Oh god, what if my mom peaked her head into the room to check on us? Uh yeah mom we’re doing JUST FINE in here. Shit! I shake Terra to wake her up; she opens her eyes & moans…
Terra: *yawns* Bloody hell. What’s all the fuss about?
Mom: *knocks on my door* Girls, are you awake?
Terra & I give each other panicked looks…
Me: UH yeah mom, we’re alive!
Terra: *tickles the side of my stomach*
Me: *I laugh & slap her hand away playfully* Stop it!
Mom: Well when you two are ready, I made some pancakes for your breakfast
Me: Awesome mom thanks! We’ll be down in a sec!
Terra: I could use a good brekky after last night
We joke around then throw on our clothes & head downstairs. During “brekky” we steal little looks at each other trying not to crack up…
Kev: *watches us & rolls his eyes* WELL, I think I’m done here *puts his plate in the sink & walks out the room*
Mom: What’s the matter with him? *stabs her pancake with a fork & takes a bite*
Me: Not a clue *I bite my pancake off my fork & grin up at Terra*
After breakfast, Terra & I watch a few cartoons on the T.V. After a couple hours Terra’s mom texts her to come home…
Me:*I walk her to the front door trying to hide my sad expression*
Terra: I’ll pop around soon, don’t you worry *smiles*
Me: *I open my front door for her*
Terra: *nods her head & kisses me softly & pokes my nose*
Me: *I wave goodbye, then close my front door & turn to see my Mom staring at me from the kitchen. I stare at her for a moment* HEEEY Mom…whatcha doin’?
Mom: *blinks a couple times at me* I could ask you the same thing, Mandy *pauses for a second* Is there something you want to tell me about your new friend, Terra? *walks over to me cautiously*
Me: *I laugh nervously* Uuuh…
Mom: Is she…more than a friend?
Me: *I find it hard to make eye contact with her*
Mom: *laughs in shock* Sweetie, I saw what I saw with that girl. We have to discuss this
Me: Well for starters…she’s not just a girl
Mom: And what do you mean by that?
Me: I mean…that she’s my…girlfriend
Mom: *her eyes go wide* Does this mean you’re now gay?
Me: If that’s what you want to call it then YES mom, I’m gay! I like girls! *I let out a sigh of relief*
Mom: *shakes her head* And I allowed her to sleep in your ROOM last night—were you two taking advantage of me?
Me: No, never. We just enjoy each other’s company, like you and Rick—
Mom: Do not compare Rick and I…to you and—that friend of yours
Me: You know her name…
Mom: *puts her hand to her forehead* I never thought in a million years you could ever…be that way
Me: Well “that,” isn’t so bad, mom. I actually feel more like myself lately. And happy
Mom: And that’s gay? *stares at me*
Me: *I give her a slow look* Yes. But gay doesn’t define me. I’m still the same Mandy. Nothing else has changed
Mom: Honey, you’re kissing a girl
Me: Aaand?
Mom: But you’ve always dated boys? It’s always been that way
Me: Mom. Maybe in YOUR world it’s been that way, but for me I know what I like…and I feel good about it. Why do you have to make me feel bad about it?
Mom: *inhales deeply*
Me: Dad wouldn’t judge me
Mom: *looks at me sadly* I need a minute or—a day or two *walks away into the T.V. room*
Kevin: *walks down the stairs cautiously towards me*
Me: She hates me *I shake my head*
Kev: She doesn’t hate you. It’s just going to take her some time to get used to this… ‘new’ you *puts his hand on my shoulder*
Me: Psh, like hell that’ll happen *I push past him & walk upstairs to my room*
∞•Chapter 10•∞
Monday morning…
After all the drama from the long weekend; I’ve become mentally exhausted from the whole ordeal. My mom still doesn’t know what to say or do around me—and I’m second-guessing everything; like, maybe how I shouldn’t have “chosen” to like girls— did I really have a choice? Or was it my “fault?” Why am I blaming myself? I shouldn’t have to apologize for being who I am and liking who I like…?
At School…
I meet up with Logan & Ariana outside & we walk inside together…
Ari: Where’s your new girlfriend, Loge?
L: Eh, it’s over
Me: But she was so…smiley
L: So, it wasn’t just ME who noticed that? Cause it really started to freak me out
Ari: Honey, everybody noticed it—since like the 5th grade
L: For real?
A: Yes! *laughs*
L: Where have I been? *shakes his head & nudges my arm* Hey, why so glum?
Me: Huh? Oh no, I’m fine, just a little tired
L: Long weekend?
Me: You have no idea *I give Ariana a little look*
Ari: *widens her eyes* MANDY—bathroom—NOW
Me: UH YES
L: See ya??
Ari: *pulls on my arm & drags me to the bathroom* Okay, tell me what happened *folds her arms & gives me a second look when I don’t speak* Did something happen with you and Terra?
Me: No—well, yeah, actually *I smile a little*
Ari: *raises her eyebrows* Spill
Me: Well, first I gotta tell you…my Mom caught us kissing
Ari: Ooo… *covers her mouth quickly* When?
Me: After you guys left, she slept over
Ari: Oooh?
Me: We…got freaky in the sheets
Ari: Ooo—wait did your mom catch you guys in bed?
Me: *I cringe* Ew. No. The next morning we kissed goodbye and she saw us
Ari: OOOH…
Me: MMM HM. And I’ll tell ya, she wasn’t thrilled one bit *I run my hand through my hair*
Ari: Well, that’s awkward
Me: YEAH. Not really the way I pictured introducing my new girlfriend to my mom
Ari: Yikes
Me: And she’s hasn’t been able to look me in the eye since it happened *I take a deep breath*
Ari: I’m so sorry sweetie *gives me a short hug* It’ll be okay. She’ll come around
The bell rings for first period class…
Ari: *hugs me*
Me: Thanks *I smile weakly at her* Better get to class, chica
Ari: Will do, chica *giggles*
In first period I feel more distracted than ever. I look up at Demi & she gives me a quick nod of acknowledgement & I smile back at her. Later around last period, I feel really antsy so I leave the room to pretend pee. I get a text from Terra & she asks where I am now. I tell her the obvious, “I’m in school,” & she responds so is she. I shake my head confused but find it funny she asks. She texts me back telling me to come towards the front lobby. I walk out of the bathroom & walk towards that direction, then see her standing there…
Me: Terra?! *I playfully push her chest & I look around self-consciously & lower my tone of voice* What’re you doing here?!
Terra: *laughs* Thought I’d surprise ya *gives me one of her charming grins*
Me: *I give her a tight hug** Aren’t you supposed to be in school?
Terra: Aren’t you supposed to be in class?
Me: I asked you first *I poke the side of her stomach with my index finger*
Terra: My class got out early, so I thought I’d surprise ya *puts her hands around my waist*
Me: *I smile & lean into her, then frown & pull her hands off my waist, slowly* Um…
Terra: What’s the matter?
Me: *I whisper* Nobody here knows I’m…super gay now
Terra: *gives me a small smile* Well then, they don’t have to. Your secret’s safe with me
Me: It’s already safe with you. But thanks. You’re so patient with me *I smile dreamy at her*
Terra grins then finds a private corner for us. She scopes the area then pulls me by the front of my jeans & in for a close kiss. I grin through our kiss. I open my eyes to see Logan standing in the hall with a bewildered look on his face. Terra pulls her hands away from my crotch area. At the same time the bell rings for the end of the day…
Me: *I take a step closer to him* Loge… I wanted to tell you…
L: *raises his hands & looks at us still in shock* I uh…need…some time *walks away*
Me: *I sigh & watch him disappear around the hall corner*
∞•Chapter 11•∞
At home…
Terra & I are hanging out on the couch while my mom is upstairs in her room…
Me: You think Logan will ever talk to me again?
Terra: Mandy, he’s your best pal. Of course
Terra puts her hand on my knee & I nuzzle her neck. We kiss a little then Terra decides to get back home. We softly kiss goodbye…
Terra: *points at me* You never fail to give me fanny flutters
Me: *I snort*
Terra: *catches a little look of doubt in my eyes & puts her hands on my cheeks* It’ll all be okay. Okay?
Me: Okay
Terra: Do you believe me?
Me: Little bit?
Terra: Better than nothing!
Me: *I chuckle at her*
I open the front door for her to leave then we both see Logan getting out of his car in my driveway. He walks over to us slowly. Terra walks past him with a worried look then Logan gives her a warm smile & pats her arm gently. Terra gives me a “you’ll be alright” look & walks to her car. Logan walks past me into my house with his hands in his pockets & a cautious look on his face. I walk back inside & close my front door. We walk into my T.V. room together & sit down on the couch together, & stay silent for a minute…
Log: *sighs loudly* Sooo…how long has this been going on with Terra?
Me: *I shrug* For a little while now. I was going to tell you…I just didn’t know how to start that type of conversation…
L: *gives me a light smile* Well you’re doing fine so far
Me: *I let out a little laugh* You know…there’s nothing different about me? I’m still…me
L: True. You just like boobs now
Me: *I give him a playful shove*
My mom walks down the stairs & into the kitchen to prepare dinner…
L: *looks down at his feet then looks up & cracks a side smile* Listen, you know you’re my best friend, and I’ll still like you no matter who you like *pats my arm*
Me: *I take a deep breath* You don’t know how much of a relief it is to hear you say that
L: Then why’d you hold this secret in for so long!? Come here *stands up & holds his arms out for a hug*
Me: *I stand up to hug him & try to hold in my tears*
L: You don’t need to hide from me *we pull apart from our hug* Alright so how long has Ari known?
Me: *I give him a sheepish look* For a while…sorry
L: Hey, it’s your decision. It’s about you. Not me. I’m just glad you had someone to support you still
Me: Me too
L: So uh, we all need to hang out for real now
Me: We do
L: Because the last time we hung out with Terra you two were camp buddies
Me: *I cover my face with my hand* Don’t remind me
L: *smirks* It’s alright, Mandy. I’m not mad or anything *nods his head towards the front door*
I should get home for dinner. I just…wanted to come by and make sure you were okay. And that we’re cool
Me: We’re always cool
L: Right *lets out a laugh of relief & stands up* Well uh, I guess I’ll get going
Me: Sure *I stand up & walk over to my front door with him*
L: Go easy on yourself
Me: I’ll try *I smile at him & open the front door*
I watch him walk away then close my front door after he leaves. I catch my mom watching us from the kitchen; I give her a small smile & go back into the T.V. room.
Later after dinner…
Mom: *knocks on my bedroom door*
Me: Come in?
Mom: Hi. *walks in* Do you mind?
Me: Like I said…come in
Mom: *sits down next to me & pats my leg* Sweetie, we can’t act like this forever. You’re my daughter, and I should love you, gay, straight, poke -a –dots, whoever you want to be
Me: Mom, it’s who I am
Mom: *nods her head* Right *hugs me* I’m still figuring it out too, Mandy. I’m sorry I reacted the way I did. It was just a real…surprise
Me: It’s alright. I knew you’d come around eventually. Thanks for still loving me the same way
Mom: Oh sweetie, I’ll always love you no matter what *puts her arm around me & gives me a little side hug*
∞•Chapter 12•∞
As the months pass by, Prom is JUST around the corner & then graduation isn’t too far along after that. It’s a Friday evening—also Terra’s birthday—and I invite my friends over along with the birthday girl herself. We’re all sitting on the couch together watching T.V. I feel like talking to Terra about Prom so I pull her into the kitchen, by her hand…
Terra: Ya alright?
Me: Uh, yeah. It’s just…Prom’s coming around the corner and…
Terra: *intertwines her fingers with mine* Are you feeling confident about us going?
Me: *I look at our hands* I have no idea what we should do
Terra: If it’s anyone’s problem then they can go piss off *smiles & gives me a charming look*
Me: *I give her an excited look* We should go, right?
Terra: I think we should
Me: Well let’s do it!
Terra: Well alright! *she hugs me & we get all giddy with laughter*
Ariana & Logan hear our excitement & they walk into the kitchen…
Ari: *grins* What’s goin on in here?
L: *follows in after Ariana* Did someone propose in here?
Terra: *chuckles*
Me: *I laugh* We’re going to Prom!
Ari: YAY!
L: Awesome!
Terra: Yeah we’ll show them all *bumps my hip with his own*
Kevin: *walks into the kitchen to eat some cake*
Me: *I give Kevin an un-amused look*
Terra: *taps Ari’s wrist* Hey, I bet ya I could find ya a date
Ari: *reaches out dramatically & grabs her shoulders* COULD YOU REALLY?
Terra: YES
Ari: *lets go of her shoulders* Not that I’m desperate
L: Oh not at all *chuckles*
Kev: *walks by her & acts all snarky* Obviously
Ari: *slaps his arm a couple times*
Kev: Ow girl, watch it *walks out of the room*
Terra: *laughs*
Me: *I crack up at them*
L: I’m thinking of bringing Katie
Me: Smiley Katie?
L: Yeah
Me: Uuuh? *I tilt my head to the side*
L: What? She’s cool
A: Godspeed with you boy
Me: *I put my hand on his shoulder* Go for it
Terra: We’ll support your decision
L: Thanks *messes up Terra’s hair with his hand*
Terra: *whines at Logan messing with her hair*
Later, after Ariana & Logan leave, I bring Terra upstairs. I hold her hand & tell her to close her eyes as I guide her upstairs to my room…
Terra: Can I open my eyes yet?
Me: Yup
Terra: Okay. It’s…your room?
Me: And we have it all to ourselves
Terra: *laughs & hits my arm* This is my surprise?
Me: Maybe. Come here. Sit with me
Terra: You’re acting weird
Me: Well I’m TRYING to tell you I love you, you goof
Terra: *gives me a tearful look & hugs me close & whispers into my ear* Love you too
Me: *I start to tear up myself*
Terra: *leaves one hand on my waist & fixes my hair* I can’t believe you *smirks & pokes my chest all giddy*
Me: So…when do you think our families can meet?
Terra: *gives me a nervous look*
Me: You keep putting it off…what’s wrong?
Terra: Nothing’s wrong…it’s just…my parents. They aren’t exactly comfortable with my…Lemon lifestyle
Me: You mean being yourself?
Terra: *tilts her head at me annoyed* It’s complicated *sits on the edge of my bed*
Me: *I scoot over next to her* Don’t you want to try and make it un-complicated? I mean, my mom finally came around. I’m sure your parents will *I put my arm around her & caress her arm gently*
Terra: *looks at my hand on her arm* Lady, if I keep pushing it, they may kick me out of my own house
Me: Well, we can’t let that happen. Why would they do that? And to their own daughter? I don’t get it
Terra: Lately, they’ve been ignoring me and just plain not wanting to have anything to do with me. It’s been more than 2 years since I came out and they still won’t accept me *sighs after speaking so quickly*
Me: I accept you. Don’t worry; they’ll come around some day. I mean they just HAVE to. You’re amazing
Terra turns to me & gently grabs the back of my head—knowing it makes me weak in the knees. I look at her with caring eyes & nod letting her know everything will be okay…
Terra: Come here *leans in and kisses me*
I smile at her & we sit in silence for a few peaceful minutes—then decide to kiss some more & enjoy the rest of the evening together…
Monday: The last week of school...
Prom is this Saturday, and Graduation is next Monday. After 1st period ends, Demi greets me from behind, by grabbing my shoulders & shaking me a little…
Demi: Hey you!
Me: Hey, long time no talk
Demi: Dude, right? OH, and I think it’s chill that you’re into girls. I mean, you still seem like the same person. I dunno why people always freak out about things like this
Me: Thanks? *I laugh a little* I guess news travels fast round here
Demi: It only takes a couple of eyes
Me: Yeeeah *I shake my head*
Demi: Nothing wrong with it. I’m pretty open too with who I date too
Me: Meaning…you like girls too?
Demi: LIKE? Oh honey. Girls are the best *winks at me*
Me: *I chuckle at her* Well now I know!
Demi: *laughs along with me* Hey, I gotta head home. See ya later!
Me: See ya!
Demi: *waves at me then walks off*
Saturday evening: Prom Day…
Terra & I are getting ready in the downstairs bathroom near the kitchen. We decide to color coordinated; Terra in her black/pink tux and me in my pink fluffy dress. My mom peeks in on us…
Mom: OH, you two look so adorable! *clicks a picture on her phone*
Me: Mooom
Terra: *chuckles & fixes my hair* You look beautiful
Me: And you look very handsome
Terra: Why thank you
Me: *I chuckle*
Rick: *yells to us from the kitchen table while chewing on some chips* So where’s your dates?!
Terra: *clears her throat awkwardly*
Mom: *bites her bottom lip guiltily* You want to tell him?
Me: *I give her a “yeah right,” look*
Terra: I’LL tell him *walks over to Rick*
Me: Are you sure—?
Terra: *already walking into the kitchen* Rick, I’m Mandy’s date—OH and girlfriend
Me: *I gain some confidence & walk in & lock my arm around Terra’s arm* Yeah. She’s my date. And uh, I’m hers
Rick: *blinks a couple times, then looks at my mom* Aaand you weren’t going to tell me this?
Mom: No, I mean I was…
Rick: That sounds like a bunch of bull
Mom: *puts her hand on Rick’s shoulder* Rick, sweetie, you don’t need to get so angry—
Rick: How long have you known about this?
Mom: I wasn’t keeping it from you; the subject just never came up. I didn’t think it’d be a big deal
Rick: Not a big deal? *stands up* You must be high. You both, too *points at Terra & I*
Mom: Excuse me?
Rick: Your daughter’s a fruit! And so is her woman-friend here!
Mom: RICK. You’re being so— *stops talking & puts her hand up at Rick* You know what. I think you should leave
Rick: Leave?
Mom: *crosses her arms*
Rick: Fine. I’ll leave. And maybe I just won’t come back *walks towards the front door*
Mom: Please, do us all a favor Rick—don’t come back
Rick: *glares at us* Freaks
Mom: OUT! *walks over to him & pushes him towards the door*
Me: *I run over & swing the front door open*
Rick: *scowls at me & curses*
Terra: *slams the door shut* Well that went shit
Mom: *shakes her head* Any guy I date who won’t accept my daughter or her partner has no purpose in my life *holds in her tears* I think I need to be alone now for a bit—but you two have a nice time tonight, okay? *fixes her hair & smiles at us, then slowly walks up the stairs to her room*
Me: *I sadly watch her* I always thought Rick was a jerk but I didn’t expect it on this level. Wow
Terra: One less whacka to worry about
Me: *I give her a weak smile*
Terra: *wraps her hand behind my waist & says into my ear* Come on, lady. The Prom’s awaiting, and so are our friends
Me: Right. Let’s go!
Terra: That’s the spirit! And I’ll drive *pulls out her keys from her pocket*
Me: Oh, such a gentlewoman
Terra: *snorts out a laugh* Fair enough *opens my front door* After you
Me: *I walk past her & she slaps my butt* SO cheeky *I laughs & she closes the door behind us*
At the Plaza where Prom is being hosted…
The place looks so beautiful! The Prom Committee really went all out; there’s fairy lights dangling & twinkling from every inch outside and inside—which gives the Prom a dream-like atmosphere. Terra & I look at each other with excitement. We eventually find Ariana & Logan, along with their dates. I bump fists with Logan…
Ari: You guys look great!
Me: You too! *I look at her date & smile* You must be Julian?
Julian: Ay you’d be correct
Me: I’m Mandy *I shake his hand*
Julian: Nice to finally meet you
Me: You too
Julian goes to school with Terra. He has a nice English accent. How charming. And he’s a looker for sure…
Terra: *grins & pats her friend on the arm* Fancy seeing you here, mate *laughs*
Julian: Seems like a pretty chill place
Terra: Pretty chill *grins at her friend*
Me: *I chuckle at them*
Katie: Hi Mandy!
Me: *she startles me a little* Oh look it’s Katie, everyone
Logan: *wraps an arm around her waist to pull her close*
Katie: Doesn’t this place look AMAZE-ING?
Me: *I try to sound as enthusiastic as she is* OH MY GOD, TOTALLY
Logan: *playfully pats my arm*
A slow song comes on & more people gather onto the dance floor. Julian & Ariana seem to be hitting it off well. They look like they could already be an actual couple. And then there’s Logan and Katie…he really does seem to like her a lot. Terra distracts me out of thoughts, by caressing my arm all the way down to my hand & gently grabbing it. I take a deep breath getting caught up in the moment. I never guessed that this is where I would be in my life during my Senior year of high school. After our slow dance the music changes to a fun upbeat song…
Julian: *twirls Ari around by her hand & pulls her close* So you’re still a fan of me?
Ari: *giggles & pokes his chest* I was a fan even before you spoke with that cute accent of yours
Julian: *laughs* Funny, I felt the same about you
Ari: *shakes her head & blushes*
Logan: You know, you look really beautiful tonight
Katie: Aw, well so do you hon. *fixes his bow tie*
Later, we all take a break & sit together at a table & goof off. Logan & Katie go back to dancing, while the rest of us still sit & talk. Felt kinda surreal watching Demi my ex-crush and my girlfriend getting to know each other throughout the night. Terra snuck me a thumbs up of “approval” when Demi was looking away. I waved my hand at her feeling embarrassed & covered my face with my hand laughing.
Finally, the night ends & we all say our goodbyes, ready to see each other at Graduation. Terra & I hold hands while walking out of the Plaza. It seems like most people have gone home. We walk under a big walnut tree with the fairy lights twinkling through the leaves. I give Terra a playful look & pull her in closely for a long kiss…
Terra: *let out a deep sigh & says in a teasing yet longing way* Marry me
Me: You have to behave yourself first
Terra: You know I can’t
Me: *I stare longingly at her daring yet innocent eyes*
Terra: Ya ready to go home?
Me: Yep. I just need to find my ride *I look over Terra’s shoulders’*
Terra: *hits my arm* You cheeky minx
I laugh & playfully push her. She pushes me back as we race to her car…
•∞• THE • END •∞•
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