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- Story Listed as: True Life For Adults
- Theme: Love stories / Romance
- Subject: Love / Romance / Dating
- Published: 11/19/2010
Silent Admirer of Green EyesBorn 1985, M, from Allahabad, India
Sometimes we meet people that change our life forever. One such incident happened to me too. It changed my life, if not forever then at least for a while.
Hey all readers! How do you feel when you see your past? Sometimes we laugh at why we reacted that way, sometimes we feel sorry for someone, sometimes we take it easy and sometimes not. When we see it while knowing the story which follows it we understand why the creator of the story has chosen that course. Same thing happens with me when I look back at the summer of 2008 now. When I came across the GREEN EYES. I just smile and dive into the ocean of time and live those moments again.
Lets roll back life to the summer of 2008. That time I got the news that I had to go to South Korea for business. That was the first time I was stepping out of my country. I was full of excitement and joy. I packed my bags and boarded the flight to South Korea.
In the night it was completely dark, inside and outside both. I was gazing out of the window. Although it was completely dark outside I saw some hazy figure there. Anyway, I closed my eyes. Suddenly, I heard someone whispering in my ears.
“Hey Gaurav, Don’t worry my lad. You will soon have an experience which will help ease your pain.” I opened my eyes but found no one beside me except an air hostess who smiled and said, “Sir, would you like something?”. I said no and started looking out the window again. I figured that hazy figure to be some alien. Whatever it was there was one thing for sure, that hazy figure was smiling at me as if he knows what good is going to happen with me. Well I closed my eyes again and slept.
Next morning when I opened my eyes I found myself in Korea. Believe me, I found Korea much more beautiful than I thought and had heard of. South Korea is full of greenery with rivers bisecting the peninsula everywhere. If there are mountains on one side then there are man-made skyscrapers on the other. You can easily see the competition between man and god as who will touch the sky first. Air of Korea carries a freshness which we hardly find nowadays. Awesome Korea.
While I was thinking about Korea someone called me and said, “Let's go to the office, we have not come here for day dreaming.” I took my laptop and went to the Seunglee Jhinjha (Seunglee Electronics), or the most commonly used word among Koreans, Seunglee Gamuk (jail). My Indian manager took me to my Korean team. There he introduced me to my Korean manager. After a brief meeting, I was allocated a seat in my new team. I took out my laptop and started checking my mail. As expected, I got work on the first day. I gave my best in that and finished it in a week. Everything was going well until then.
I didn’t know at that time that I was going to face the worst patch of my professional career. My second assignment came with all hell. I was given the job of researching, learning, and educating all of my Korean team members about the new technology which was still under construction at that time. I asked all of my seniors and peers about it. They didn’t even know about it. God! I had only one year of experience at that time. Moreover, I am an engineer, not a scientist. I asked for help from everyone but didn’t get any proper response. My peers in other teams got work which was not even one percent of what I got. I failed badly. My Korean manager and team started treating me badly. I asked my Indian manager to change my team but I didn’t get any proper help from him. Then I told my lead engineer about the situation and asked him to do something. He raised the matter to higher management. But as always happens, approaching higher management means you are diminshing your chances. I got the response: I have got a problem in my attitude. I should change it as soon as possible. Damn it! What the hell was that? First screw someone and then say they ended up on the screwed side because they should change their attitude. I and one of my colleagues, Chacha (Rajendra), who was in the same team, got this same response. If it were for proper reasons I would have accepted it and changed my attitude. But it was all wrong.
I started hating that office. I didn’t even want to sit at my seat. Every second in that office was killing me a thousand times. I was thinking it to be extreme, but the future had something more. I and Chacha were given the work of reproducing a rare bug. We were told that 3G network works on the 25th floor so better go there and reproduce that bug. We spent two days to reproduce the bug. When I reproduced the bug I showed it to the Korean counterpart. He asked where I had reproduced it. I said, Idea Spot (Cafeteria). Instead of getting happy he got angry and asked what I was doing there? I said I was unable to reproduce it at my seat so when I went for coffee I tried it and got it reproduced. He said that 3G network works fine only at that place as the transmitter was just above that seat. I told him that he only said 3G network works fine on the 25th floor so what does it matter if I test it on this side or that side of the floor? His English was damn poor. I didn’t know what he got out of it. Later on, I came to know that he complained to his manager that I tried to reproduce it in the Idea Spot rather than at my seat. I will not go as far as saying he lied, but if he didn’t know English then was that my problem? I and Chacha got badly screwed. Our Korean manager took a meeting with us and scolded us badly. Chacha was sent back to India after being given some idiotic reasons. Earlier, Rajendra was there with me to share the sorrows, but now I was left alone. I was feeling like a lone deer with the predators in the jungle. Nothing was going my way.
Before going to Korea, I ruined my personal life. I proposed to my best friend which made her angry and she ended all means of contact with me. The girl whom I loved the most, the girl whom I had silently loved for two years, the girl who mattered the most to me, ended all means of contact with me. I was completely broken at that time. Anyway, it is a long story, I will talk about it some other day.
I was lying in the park nearby our motel thinking about all that had happened in the past few months. It was starry night. I can say I totally messed up my personal as well as professional life. I was even considering my existence in this world. For the first time in my life I was feeling really very very down and was unable to cheer myself up. Was this day why I came to this earth? Why was that hazy figure smiling that night? Why had that voice whispered that I was gonna be easing out of my pain? Instead of lessening it, the situation had just increased my pain. I made up my mind that I would speak to my Director, in India, the next day and ask him to call me back to India. I was thinking all this while staring at the stars when I realized it was quite late so I went back to my room and slept.
The next morning I went to the office with a very heavy head as I hardly slept the night before. I took out my copy to write something but didn’t know what came to my mind, so I kept that copy aside. I stood up and headed towards the stationary girl for a new copy. She was picking up some pens lying down on the floor, so I just stood there. I was eagerly waiting for the clock to tick 12:30 PM as then it would be 9 AM in India and I would be able to talk to my director for my comeback to India. All those things were coming to my mind when the stationary girl stood up and raised her hand to give me the pen. What I saw I had never seen before. I was seeing the prettiest girl of my life. I don’t believe in love in first sight, but liking at first sight, yeah I do believe in it. All I can say is I was meeting the girl who by doing nothing did everything to bring back joy to my life.
Green Eyes. Small Pink Lips. Awesome Hair Style with a few hairs coming on her forehead. Little diamond (American ones) earrings on her ear. And her outfit – a white top and a black knee length skirt. Everything seemed to be so perfect on her. I have never seen an Angel but only imagined, and she was far beyond my imagination. Believe me, I couldn’t take my eyes from her for at least 20-30 seconds. After 20-30 seconds I realized she was offering me the notebook. She said “more?”, I said “ummm...ya one pen”. She gave me the black pen and then said, "okay?". I said, "yes it is okay, but I need the blue pen". I wanted to be there for as long as possible, so I was just asking for anything that was coming to my mind at that time.
Finally, I returned to my seat. I didn’t want to but I had to. Straightaway, with much curiosity, I asked the guy sitting behind me, the only guy in that team who was helpful, “Who is that girl at the stationary counter?” He said in a strange voice “Why?” I said “Nothing". Just like that. "She knows only a few words of English. So, it is tough to communicate with her.” He said, ”Yeah, I understand. I think we should call the previous girl for stationary.” Instantly, I replied “No, it is okay. We should give a chance to new people, and with time maybe she can learn English too.” He said, ”Yeah. Anyway, she is the new secretary of Mr. Oh, the third most important person of the floor, and along with that she will handle the stationary.”
So the girl with the Green Eyes was the new secretary of our boss. Interesting. All those ideas which were coming to my mind about going back to India flew into the air. Now, I want to stay in Korea only. I dropped the idea of talking to my Director and made my mind up to do anything for staying in Korea. Luckily, in a few days, my project got changed, although the team remained very much the same. I excelled a lot in that project and my place in Korea got confirmed for some more time. I didn’t know whether it was my luck or hard work, which helped me to excel in the project, but one thing for sure, if it were not for her then it would not have been possible for me to do well.
So here is the story of a guy who wants to have a friendship with the girl who doesn’t know his language. He made up his mind that whatever may happen, he would make her his friend. But how? Interesting. And now, the real story begins. The story which no one knows. So, lets wait and watch.
Aim – Friendship with Boss’ secretary and stationary girl.
Time Limit – 3 months
I want to spend as much time with her as possible. But how? I can’t stand at her seat all day. So, I asked my Indian colleagues that anyone who needs stationary materials contact me. Thanks to them, they did exactly that. By this I got the chance of meeting her with a valid reason. Moreover, whenever she gave me the blue pen I asked for the black pen, and when black I asked for the blue pen. This gave me extra time to spend with her. Moreover, I tagged her on my office communicator through which I came to knpw that at 5:30 PM she turns off her laptop and then after 10 minutes she reaches the lift. As soon as she turns off her system, I ask my friend Vipul to come with me and wait for her at B1 floor and follow her until the bus stop. Whatever happens, be it the rainy season or winter or summer, whatever be the work, however important it may be, I never miss the chance of saying good bye to her. I know it is cheap, but I acted so naturally that I never made it look cheap. Everyday I did it, and no one ever complained, which is a proof of my acting and full proof plan.
But wait. All that was okay, but I can’t make her my friend through all this. Something has to be done. I should make some plan. After a long thought process, a few plans came to my mind.
Plan A – I’ll approach her directly? No no. I don’t know Korean and she doesn’t know English. What means should I then adopt to communicate with her? Sign language? Big no. Plan A canceled out.
Plan B – I’ll learn Korean first and then approach her. But wait a minute. Three months is a very short time to learn any new language. And, even if I learned it in three months, then when would I approach her? Time was very short. So, plan B also canceled out.
Plan C – Why shouldn’t I ask some Korean colleagues for the help? He/she will then act as mediator. Bingo. What an Idea! But wait. What if they tell it to my manager? Now that will certainly backfire. But that was the only hope at that time. After a deep thought, I decided to pass plan C. Plan C got passed.
Goal was clear. Plan was ready. Only thing which was left was the selection of the right person. Just like the company hiring, hiring of the right person got started. Most of the Indians, and I, were doing work which involved lots of interactions with the Koreans. I got to interact with many Koreans but only a few of them fit in my plan. Before telling them about my intentions, I had to judge their capabilities and intentions. So, the interviews got started. However, no one could clear the interview. The few whose intentions were pretty good didn’t know good English, and the few who were good in English did not have the right intentions. Believe me, I got to know how tough it is to select the right person for the job.
Interview process continued for a few days, and it finally ended when I met two beautiful ladies, Jinyoung Choi and Sara Kim. My two lady mentors. Many Indian guys were jealous of me at that time, as they were not having any lady mentor, and I got not one but two lady mentors. My project required me to stay late in the night and with that I got the time to interact with my mentors. My work was like monitoring the process. Once started it didn’t need your brain. It just needed your time, approximately 10 minutes per hour. Since Choi was junior to Ms. Kim, she was a little bit free. Not as much as me, but a little bit. The day she was assigned my mentor, I had to stay until 2 AM. She was a little bit free at that time. She started talking to me about my family, hobbies, etc. Just in a day we became good friends and shared a lot. Straightaway, it came to my mind that she was the one whom I was looking for. Everything was clear then. Now, only the proper execution of the plan was needed.
A plan was made that I would write the speech, and Choi would read it out in front of her with all emotions and expressions. But for friendship, would a single speech be enough? Friendship needs the time of two persons. How would I spend time with her? Even if she agrees to go out on a friendly date what we will do? It could turn out to be a dumb date. So, I decided that instead of just us, four people would go on a date. I, stationary girl, Choi, and her husband. I knew it would be weird, but it would not be as weird as with me and the stationary girl alone.
I believe that no one can work effectively for more than 10 hours in a day. Therefore, while people there work all day, better say 'pretend to work', I take out some time to discuss my plan with Choi. Everything was going perfectly until Choi started losing her health. She was five months pregnant at that time and working eleven hours in a day was taking a toll on her body. After lots of tries, when it really became impossible for her to carry on with the job, she finally resigned from the company. It shattered my hopes. All of a sudden, I reached the place from where I had started. She left Seunglee and left me in the middle with her well wishes. Anyway, while trying out friendship with the stationary girl, I got a very good friend in Choi. Thanks a lot Choi.
There was not much time left in my trip. If the resignation of Choi was not heartbreak then definitely it was a setback. What should I do now? I was not having enough time to start it all again. Should I approach directly? No. What should I do then? I was thinking a lot when I saw a blinking message on my screen. It was of my Indian manager. Message was “COME HERE”. What was that? Did he get to know something of my plan? Will he scold me? Or, is it regarding some official work? I didn’t know why he was calling me. I just stood up and went to his seat. As soon as he delivered his first sentence, my legs froze. I couldn’t believe my ears.
“You have to come back in a week to work with the multi-media team. Do you have any problem?” That was the first sentence of my manager. God gave me a second chance, and I didn’t want to lose it. Straightaway, I said, “No, I don’t have any problem.” Within a week I was back to the playground but this time with a different strategy.
Last plan failed. Whatever I had to do now I had to do it from the start. Instead of asking for help, this time I decided that I would directly approach her. I knew it would turn into a whole new series of comedy but let it be. And this time instead of a single time consuming plan, I worked small plans. In modern cricketing words, it was the switch from the Test format to the Twenty20 format.
How do you feel when some foreigner says “Namaste, Aap kaise hain?” Isn’t it great? I decided that I’ll greet her in Korean, which will definitely make her happy. And at that time no one knew Korean better that Rakesh. Rakesh started teaching me the basic greeting messages in Korean. After knowing that I didn’t know even a single Korean word, Rakesh taught it to me in three simple steps: First, I have to say “an-nyung-ha-se-yo” then she would say “an-nyung-ha-se-yo”. Second, without paying much attention as to what she would say (as the probability was quite high that I would not get anything), I have to say “an-nyung-ha-shim-ni-kka”. Third and the last, again without paying much attention, I have to say “gam-sa-hap-ni-da”. That would surely be the perfect start of the friendship. After that I may learn few more Korean words and utter them in front of her.
Anyway, without being lost in dreams and much wastage of time, I went to her early in the morning. On seeing me, she said hi with a smile on her face. I said, “an-nyung-ha-se-yo”. I don’t know whether I spelled it wrong or messed up with the words, or my tone was not clear, but she said out of surprise, with a laugh this time, “What?” I thought I did something wrong. Suddenly, I said, “I need a blue pen.” After taking the pen, I went to my seat. I didn’t complete the three steps and failed to reproduce what Rakesh taught me, but I could see a glimpse of victory. From a stranger look in the beginning to the smiling face, and now the laughing one, I could see the progress, although it was a very slow one.
I thought that was the end of the comedy, but I was completely wrong. That was just the starting. A couple of weeks later, when I and Aditya, my friend (rather I should say enemy), were eating snacks at the shop at B1 floor, a chocolate named “FOR YOU” came to my line of sight. I thought it would be great to give her this chocolate. This would help her in remembering me. I told Adi about it. He supported my view. Then we started thinking how I would give her the chocolate. An idea came to my mind. I told Adi I would tell her it was my birthday, so I am distributing sweets and this one is for you. Adi asked how I could do this in September when my birthday falls in April? Oh my God! He is such a fool. I told him, "you know that my birthday is in April. I know that my birthday is in April, but that girl will think of only that day as my birthday, which is what I will tell her". So, I made the plan that both of us would go to her seat, and I would ask her for a copy. At that time, Adi had to wish me Happy Birthday in Korean, and I would then give him the chocolate. On hearing Adi, she would also wish me a Happy Birthday, and I would then give her the chocolate too and, if possible, ask her to join us in the party. According to the plan, I bought three chocolates. One for her, one for Adi and one again for bribing Adi.
In a few minutes, we went to her seat. According to the plan, I asked her for a copy. I started waiting for Adi to deliver his dialogue. Meanwhile, she took out one and gave it to me. Still, I was waiting. For a moment, there was complete silence. She looked at me and then at Adi and then again, at me. I stared at Adi and, in my mind, I said, “What you are doing? Deliver your dialogue.” And what he was doing was looking down and here and there. She was looking at me in a confused state. Then I took out the chocolate and gave one to her. She said, “Is it for me?” I said, ”Yeah. It's my birthday.” I gave one to her and another one to the idiot standing beside me. She wished me Happy Birthday and said thanks. Without saying anything we went to the Idea Spot. I said to Adi, “What the hell you were doing there?” He said since he is a method actor he can’t react so fast so he got nervous. Oh my God! Everything I had to do, and he got nervous. At that time I decided never to take Adi in any kind of plan.
After that incident, I dropped the idea of talking to her for a while. Furthermore, my travelling date was approaching nearer so at that point of time I wanted her to just know my name, and later on I would ping her on the messenger. I can’t give her my name like this so, what I did is I went to her seat and asked for sticky notes. Then I came back to my seat. There I made one plane with one of the sticky notes and wrote my name on one of the wings. Again, I went to her seat and said I forgot to ask for the permanent marker. I took the marker and gave her the plane. She was looking at it for the first time. She said, “What is this?” I said, ”It is a plane”. She said, ”What?” I said, ”Plane.” She didn’t get it. I made my palm as the plane and with the sound of the plane I showed her what it was. I don’t know what came to her mind that she unfolded the whole plane and said, "it’s blank". Now, I was confused about what to say. I just said, "thanks for the marker" and went back to my seat.
That was the last time I saw her. However, that wasn’t the last time I interacted with her. Story is still there. Keep waiting for the last part of the story...
After 2 months, on 31st December, 2009. New Year's Eve. Everyone was feeling happy about the soon to be past year. Those who had a great year were feeling happy thinking of their achievements, and those who didn’t have that great a year were happy that finally it ended. I could sense the happiness on everyone’s face. It seemed to be a perfect ending for the year. And what about me? It could not have been a better ending for me.
By that time, she came to know about me through one of my Korean friends. She came to know all those things…. The first day incident, my regular visits to her seat, seeing her off everyday, my trying to talk to her in Korean, and guess what… she still remembered my chocolate. It was after the lunch that the great ending to the year began for me. I was doing some work when a pop-up appeared. That pop-up was: She is Online. I saw everyone was wishing each other in advance. I thought, why shouldn't I wish her? I thought if I would wish her in Korean then it would be great. I opened google translator and converted Happy New Year in Korean.
I wished her in Korean, and I received some Korean words in no time. I translated it into English and was surprised to see her reply. It was “I’m very happy to see your wish and that it is in Korean too. Happy New Year to you too.” I didn’t expect that. Then we talked a little bit, but with great difficulty. Both of us had to use the google translator. After a while, I asked her, “Would you like to be my friend?” She said, ”Yes, but I don’t know English.” After waiting for two long years, I asked her for her friendship, and she said yes. Later, she also gave me her picture through one of our Korean colleagues, but on the condition that I should not share the picture with anyone. That was the last time we interacted with each other.
I knew that I would not be able to communicate with her in the future, but still I wanted a friendship with her. And why not, after all, it was she who, unknowingly, helped me in one of the worst phases of my life. It was she who prevented me from taking a stupid step and changing the course of my life.
She resigned one month back, and I have no idea where she is now. Furthermore, we don’t have any common friends so that I can get to know more about her. All I can say is, she stepped into my life as an Angel and after fixing up all my problems she disappeared from my life. I wish to meet her again in the future, if not in this life then may be in the next life.