My dark abode(Kanu destiny) * My Dark Abode*
Written by:Ms Debs
_This story is just a realistic fiction
*Contains suicidal thoughts and Deaths*

Haunted by those beautiful memories, why does it seem so real??
Life had taken away all those I loved or was it death? Their smiles all in my head.
I held my head in pain, bit my lips hard until I got the taste of blood and I was satisfied. I imagined all those memories again as the pain in my head came again.
I have cried so much in the last few months as I no longer felt tears in my eyes. I never thought it was possible but now I believe.
Everyone I loved and I cared about disappeared in just a moment.
My life was already miserable, what could be worse than getting crushed by a moving truck or maybe I should try taking an insecticide just like I tried before.
My eyes looked around for where it might possibly be but I can't seem to remember where I had kept them.
Too bad I wasn't going to move from my position.
My head started to ache again as I screamed more loudly this time.
I looked at myself the broken mirror beside my leg, I had turned to a shadow of myself
Dark circles where around my eyes, my lips had bruises on them, my hair looked like I was electrocuted and I hadn't taken a good bath a while now.
I couldn't blame my outside, it had to look just like my inside "Broken".
How I wished my legs could take me outside to see the sun light once again, may be It could lighten my outside, but my legs were to weak.
It's been 3 months since I lost the whole people I knew as my family, I don't think I could move on with life any longer.
When I saw their body parts being placed right in front of me I couldn't identify them.
"Death why so cruel"
I could only laugh as gradually the laughter disappeared into tears, tears of pain, sorrows, and agony.
My heart I don't think it could be saved any more.
I remember "Japhet" the only person I still had.
I told him to go far away from me and never come back because I knew my fate was bad and it brought death to everyone close me.
He was very stubborn and wouldn't leave me,he promised to stay with me till his last breathe.
He came into my dark Abode and tried to give it light
It seemed difficult for him.
Japhet kept encouraging me to forget the past and pull myself together.
If only it was so easy as he said.
Japhet had saved my life six times when I tried committing suicide.
I looked at myself in the mirror once again and then I looked at the little sunlight that tried penetrating it self through the closed curtains
But the light that came into my dark abode wasn't even big enough to lighten the whole place up!!!
I began to laugh at the sunlight trying to forget the sorrows that placed itself permanently in my heart.........

*"My dark abode"*

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