Never Good Enough(Regan) Why do I question my choices?
Why am I hearing these voices?
A ringing in my ear
Threatening all I have and all I hold dear

"You'll Never Be Good Enough" They tell me
"You'll never bloom, you're just a weed."
A weed is what kills
What blooms is what grows
I am running for the hills
Desperate, to find my way home

Smile, they say
Get good grades, have a nice day
It's not a nice day
I live in fear, I'm afraid

I'm afraid of everything thats big or small
I'm afraid of everything thats going to force me to fall
Fall down into this hole
Falling into the grasp, as I am chained up by my soul

The wicked laughter, it feeds
Feeds on my fears, feeds on my tears
Feeds on my regrets, feeds on the thoughts filling up the brain in my head
All those things I said, I wish I never said
All those things I never said, I wish I said
All those things I did do, I wish I didn't do
All those things I didn't do, I wish I did do
But no
I'm played around like a little barbie doll
I am a puppet on your strings
Every wound, every bruise, every scar, every mark, they all sting
My heart, stings
As a broken heart is the biggest wound of all
Can't be fixed, can't be stitched back up
As my heart was played and broken by you!

I have nothing left to do
I have nothing left to choose
I just stay in every night and day
Crying in my room
"You're not good enough" you say
I'm an impossible mess that can't be clean
I can't clean up the mess that is me, the mess that you made

So tell me my dear
Why will I never be good enough?
Is it because of who I am?
And what do I see, in the mirror?
We see the same thing in me
And now I can see everything, crystal clear

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