One in a Million

One in a Million(Neha Gandhi) I look at myself now and remember the promises I made to change. I had such high hopes, but honestly, I haven’t made the progress I envisioned. I thought I had a friend who would stand by me, but she turned her back when I needed her the most. Even though I always try to be kind-hearted, it feels like people just use me and then let me down. I’m not upset because I’m not likable enough. I’m upset because I’ve wasted so many tears feeling like a loner with a pile of unresolved issues.
There are nights when I wake up in the middle of the night with the lights on, feeling like the walls are closing in on me. Life feels overwhelmingly tough, and I know I’m not okay. Sometimes, it feels like the only way out is to disappear, even if it’s just a fleeting thought.

It’s hard seeing everyone else surrounded by friends while I’m left alone with my thoughts. I thought that if I could be more likable, people would include me. But in reality, trying to fit in with people who don’t value you is a waste of time and energy. It’s like chasing something that will never come.

Every morning, I wake up early and try to start the day with positive thoughts, but it feels like the struggle never ends. I’m trying so hard to be optimistic, but it often feels like a losing battle.
I’m deeply invested in making a change in my life. I haven’t made it through the hard times yet, and I wonder if my future will ever be as amazing as I dream it could be. I’m genuinely scared that life might not turn out as I wish. Even though the risks seem daunting and the fear of failure looms large, I’m still committed to facing them. I know I have to keep moving forward, even if it means bending until I break.

There are times when I feel like I’m shaking and there’s no one around to support me. But I’ve decided that even if I’m alone, I’ll still be one in a million. I believe that someday, those who doubted me will come to realize their mistake and apologize for the way they treated me.
I’m deeply invested in this journey of self-improvement. I haven’t made it through the struggles yet. But I know I will.