The Way Station(Barry) Jason Devlin called Mrs. Copparelli by her first name, Clarice. The middle-aged woman was no longer married and had been living alone since settling into the neighborhood eight years earlier. She wasn’t conspicuously ugly but neither was she particularly pretty. Close-cropped black hair framed a pettishly economical mouth, sharp nose and brown eyes. The skin, far and away her best feature, was olive complected and flawless as a young girl's even though the woman was on the back side of thirty. Clarice could have easily parlayed that silky skin and Mediterranean earthiness into an exotic mystique, but she never bothered to capitalize on her natural assets, scrupulously avoiding makeup and jewelry.

As far back as last March when he started doing odd chores for the single woman, Jason sensed that Clarice might seduce him. The seventeen-year-old boy just didn't know when, how or where it would occur. Soon, he hoped. She was always considerate toward the boy who mowed her lawn each summer and shoveled away the snow and ice from December straight through to spring. But, on occasion, a hungry look shrouded her dark eyes, an emotional neediness that played itself out in certain furtive movements and guttural inflections.

Clarice was married once but not for long. She had a poodle named Victor, who was arthritic and forgetful. The woman was slavishly indulgent toward the dog with the cherry eye and pointy snout who wandered about the kitchen with a befuddled expression. Sometimes Victor barked for no apparent reason, and other times the normally docile creature snapped at his mistress as though he hardly recognized the woman.

"What's wrong with Victor?" Jason had stopped by Saturday morning to mow the lawn. The thermometer topped out at ninety degrees by ten-thirty. Once he finished, Clarice invited him in for a cold drink.

The woman swept the dog up in her arms and nuzzled the pooch's forehead with her dusky cheek. "Victor's over ten years old and getting quite senile." She pointed at the far side of the door. "Did you notice how he waits by the hinge not the knob? That's a dead giveaway. The animal is confused and can't remember where the door opens." She kissed the dog and scratched him soothingly behind the ear. With his own family falling to pieces Jason wished someone would treat him with a similar measure of unbridled affection.

Clarice brought the dog outside so he could do his business. "Some days Victor forgets to eat," she reported in a matter of fact tone, "and I have to feed him by hand. When the pet went on a hunger strike in late March, Clarice did away with store-bought dog food altogether and prepared her own. Boiled chicken thighs, sweet potato, pasta shells, string beans and diced apples - she tossed it all together in a large bowl, storing individual portions in freezer bags. "What do you hear from your mother?"

Jason flinched inwardly.

Mrs. Devlin deserted the family around the holidays - ran off with a coworker, leaving his father and two sisters to fend for themselves. By Saint Patrick's Day the sisters opted to go live with their mother and new boyfriend. "She calls most weekends," he replied guardedly. "I went to visit last Sunday."

Victor did his business and Clarice removed the debris with a plastic bag. "How did that go?"

"Awkward." Jason cleared his throat. "Her boyfriend's a creep."

The dog was standing listlessly on rickety legs near the back steps. Again, the woman scooped him up. "Well, she's still you mother."

Back inside, Clarice paid him for cutting the lawn, then, without warning, pulled him close, wrapping her brown arms around his waist. "She's still your mother," she repeated. Relaxing her grip, she stepped away. Was the effusive gesture a prelude or nothing more than a display of maternal sympathy? Victor looked back and forth between the two; the muddled mutt clearly couldn't read the emotional cues any better than Jason.

* * * * *

Saturday afternoon, Jason walked over to Clarice's house. "I need a favor." She stared at him with a stolid, inscrutable expression. "I was running a load of laundry and the hose on our washing machine gave out. I was wondering-"

"Where's your father?" she cut him short.

Jason blushed scarlet. "Gone to spend the weekend with Mona Tapinsley."

"And she is?"
"His new girlfriend," Jason replied humorlessly. "When my mother left, he didn’t waste any time evening the score.” “Mona lives off Commonwealth Avenue in Brighton. You can see the Prudential Building in downtown Boston from the living room window."

He watched Clarice processing the information.

Everyone in Jason's family was living a tragicomic, fractured existence. Victor wandered into the living room and eyeballed them both suspiciously. Were they guests or interlopers? "Get your laundry and we'll run a load." As he turned away, she added, "Have you eaten?"

"Just a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. My father had to work late last night and didn't get a chance to do the shopping."

"I've got leftovers from the evening meal... meatloaf and mash potatoes."

"That sure would be nice."

*****

Clarice warmed the food before going downstairs to throw the laundry in the machine. An hour and a half later, after the clothes had been run through the dryer, she shuffled into the living room with a laundry basket tucked under her arm. Dumping the contents on the sofa, she began folding the boy's undershirts in neat squares and stacking them one on top of the other.

"My mother had a midlife crisis."

"It’s usually hormonal. The woman’s emotions run amok." She smoothed the front of a T-shirt with the palm of her hand, folding the material in thirds.

"From as far back as I can remember, she was always temperamental, moody, unpredictable.” He blew his cheeks out in frustration. “Hard to get along with." Finishing with the T-shirts, Clarice placed them on the living room table and began sorting his boxer shorts. "You're not much younger than my mother," Jason added as an afterthought.

Clarice face dissolved in a muted, close-lipped smile. "If it’s any consolation, menopause is a few years off yet. I don't intend to flip out or do anything rash."

"But how can you be so sure?"

"What would Victor do,” she answered his question with one of her own, “if I ran off and deserted my four-legged friend?" Finishing with the underwear, she began matching the boy's socks, tucking the mates together. A moment later, Clarice waved a pair of mismatched socks in front of his nose. "Two orphans!"

By way of response, Jason went and stood in the far corner of the room facing away from the woman with his forehead resting against the pine molding, his stomach pressed up against a brass hinge. Clarice studied the youth in mild disbelief, waiting a discrete interval before asking, “What exactly are you doing?”

“Both my parents resemble Victor,” he said. “Neither one knows which side of the door opens out… where the goddamn hinges are located.”

“I’m truly sorry, but you’ll eventually have to come to terms with the broken marriage.”

"I don't want to go home to an empty house," Jason muttered softly.

Clarice consolidated all the fresh-smelling laundry in a heap on the living room table. "And what do you suggest?" She sat down on the sofa, cuddling the dog on her lap.

Jason finally pivoted away from the wall. "Maybe I could sleep here."

"I’ll have to make up the spare bedroom."

"With you," Jason quickly added, "in your bed."

Clarice continued to pet the dog staring vaguely at the pile of laundry on the far side or the room. After a while she rose and fed the dog from her prepackaged homemade stash. She rinsed the water bowl before refilling it with fresh water from the tap. The woman locked the front door and turned off the lights in the kitchen. “Victor’s got cataracts.”

“What?”

“He kept bumping into things and falling down so I took him to the vet. If he was human he’d be tapping his merry way down the street with one of those collapsible, white and red walking sticks. I made an appointment with a veterinary ophthalmologist.”

Jason stared at the beleaguered beast. Only now did he notice the scaly, milky discoloration spreading across both eyes. “That’s tough.”

“Go upstairs. Take your clothes off and get into bed, while I get Victor settled for the night.” Fifteen minutes later, Clarice quietly entered the bedroom. She stripped methodically arranging the blouse and slacks on hangers in the closet. Undoing the clasp on her bra, she let it fall on the floor before sliding under the covers next to the boy. Then she reached out and pulled him on top of her.

* * * * *

Jason and Clarice arrived at a tacit understanding. He came to her weekends. She fed him. They took bubble baths together. They never spoke openly about what they were doing. He was going away to college in September - University of Vermont at Burlington, where he would be studying English literature. Some days the dog forgot to eat and Clarice had to feed him by hand, tearing dark-meat chicken into edible portions and twiddling it under the poodle’s beaky nose until recognition kicked in and he finally began nibbling at the bite-size chunks. It was like priming a pump. Once he remembered how to eat, the dog polished off the contents of the bowl with minimal assistance.

Clarice Copparelli never initiated the lovemaking. Rather, the woman gave herself to him with a hushed exuberance that almost frightened him. She was undemonstrative, said little to nothing afterwards. Once or twice she moaned when she came and that was it.

Clarice had little use for the 'outside world' as she called it. "I'm a misanthrope. I don't especially like people," she said, refusing to elaborate.

"But you like me?"

She cupped his face in her smallish hands. "No, I love you. Victor and Jason are the exceptions to the rule." No matter that she mentioned him last - the dog had medical issues and was in failing health.

Tuesday night after work, Clarice took piano lessons from an elderly gentleman, Mr. Mossberg who lived near the rotary in Foxboro center. Studying a year and a half, she was still in the beginner’s book. Lately, she was learning Chopin's Fantasy Impromptu on her small upright. She fingered the lilting melody in the right hand, the broken arpeggios resonating in the bass register. It was nothing more than a stripped down version of the classic melody, but when he left the house on Sunday morning, Jason carried the beginner-book waltz in his heart-of-hearts through the morbidly lonely week until he could sit in the living room again with Victor snuffling near the ottoman while his mistress negotiated the lovely melody.

* * * * *

In the middle of August, Jason's mother rented a U-Haul and cleared all her belongings from the house. The following week she invited her son to lunch at Papa Gino's. Jason hadn't seen the woman in six weeks. In the parking lot Mrs. Devlin burst into tears, smothering him with sloppy kisses. "I want you should get to know Eddy and the children by his first marriage." She had gained considerable weight. Jason remembered her as one of the prettier mothers on the block, but now her stylish, blonde hair appeared frazzled and unkempt.

His mother chattered away distractedly. Nothing she said explained why the woman needed to reinvent herself after eighteen years as his mother. Worse yet, Jason didn't know what he felt anymore for the middle-aged train-wreck sitting across the table.

"I got to drive to Burlington next weekend for freshman orientation.”

"School doesn't start for another month yet."

"They show new students around the campus and firm up freshman dorm assignments."

"Your father's taking you?"

"Yeah," he lied. Mr. Devlin had a prior commitment with his 'significant other' so Jason would drive the 495-interstate until he reached the Massachusetts Turnpike veering west toward New York. If he left at dawn, he would reach the college in plenty of time.

Number thirty-eight - your food is ready! Jason approached the counter and retrieved the pizza.

"What’re you reading?" His mother gestured at a paperback jutting from his coat pocket. "A White Heron - it's a collection of short stories by Sarah Orne Jewett."

Mrs. Devlin teased a slice of pizza from the round pie, sliding it onto a paper plate. "I never heard of her."

"She doesn't write conventional stories so much as brief character sketches."

"Who does?" Mrs. Devlin bit into the crust but the cheese was too hot and she had to chew carefully. A double chin had emerged along with a blotchy ripple of discolored flesh under her eyes.

"Sarah Orne Jewett, the woman who wrote the book."

"Pass me the salt, please." She stretched her hand across the table. "I always get this nutty craving for extra salt when I eat pizza. It's plenty salty enough and sodium wrecks havoc with your blood pressure, but I just go wacko with the salt shaker every time."

"A White Heron… it's considered her most famous short story and has been anthologized in various publications." Jason watched his mother eat.

"I love the food here. It's so much tastier than that other Italian chain down on Armistice Boulevard." His mother slid out from the booth. "We're going to need more napkins. Can I get you anything… another drink?"

"No, I'm fine.

* * * * *

Wednesday night, Jason went downstairs in the basement with his father. The stocky man had removed the mulching blade from the self-propel lawnmower and was securing it between the jaws of a metal vise. "How come you don't use the bench grinder?" Jason asked.

The man shrugged and ran a thumb and forefinger over a bristly moustache. "Metal tends to get too hot with a stone. This way I can proceed at my own speed." He reached for a flat file. One side of the tool was a rough-textured wood rasp, the other sported a finer, cross-hatched surface. Mr. Devlin ran the file over the dull blade. "How did the meeting with your mother go?"

"Good, I guess."

After a couple of tentative strokes, the man changed angles and began sharpening in earnest. A silvery sheen emerged where the cutting surface was previously scarred with nicks and burrs. "Is she happy?"

Jason hesitated. "No, I don't think so." When there was no reply, he added. "You can only accomplish just so much with a hand file."

"The goal is not to make the tool razor sharp like a chisel or planer blade." His father ran a thumb over the blade and, satisfied with the results, flipped it end-over-end in the vise and reached for the file a second time. "As long as it cuts rather than rips the grass, that's all that matters."

Mr. Devlin finished securing the blade and stood up. “I've seen water-cooled machines called wet grinders that can reshape and sharpen almost any cutting tool you own. They get the job done without the risks of overheating and blueing tool steel, and you can’t burn up the metal with a wet grinder, because its slow speed and a constant water bath keep the tool cool.” He pulled the file down at a diagonal. “There are no flying sparks or superfine grinding-wheel dust to worry about either.”

Jason watched the metal filings accumulate in a grayish mound directly below the vise as his father put the finishing touches on the restored surface. "I'm reading this swell book, A White Heron."

"A White Heron," his father repeated absently. He was reattaching the sharpened blade to the bottom of the lawnmower with a ratchet and half-inch socket.

"The woman who wrote the book was a teenager in the eighteen sixties during the Civil War."

"Imagine that!" The blade was not seating properly on the undercarriage. Mr. Devlin removed the heavy metal bushing and brushed some dirt from the threads.

"Sarah Jewett’s father was an obstetrician, and the author used to bunk school and travel around rural Maine with him on house calls when she was a little girl."

"Hand me that terrycloth towel," his father brought him up short, "so I can get a decent grip on this blade without cutting my hand when I tighten the nut."

* * * * *

One night shortly after they had gone to bed, Jason thumped Clarice lightly between the shoulder blades. “Yes, what is it?” Wakened from a sound sleep, she sounded grouchy.

"A sheriff visited the house earlier today. My mother had my old man served with divorce papers.” He spoke in a plodding manner. “As upset as I am about the divorce, that’s not what really bothers me. It’s the sordidness,... the way my mother’s gone whacko, a caricature of her former self, and now my dad hooked up with some gay divorcé.” Jason blew the air out of his lungs making a snorting sound. “It's like some trashy, third-rate soap opera.”

“Your point?”

“My folks screwed up their pathetic lives and then, in the process of fixing what was broke, made thing ten times worse.”

She kissed her fingertips then placed them over his mouth. “It’s late. Go back to sleep.”

“What about us?” Jason pressed. “What are we doing?”

After a brief pause, she said, "Think of me as a way station... a place to rest and lick your wounds before moving on.”

A place to rest and lick your wounds before moving on. Was that how she understood their relationship? Jason was stung by the woman’s callousness. “I like it best here with you and Victor.”

“A way station,” Clarice repeated what she said a moment earlier. “You’re leaving for college in a few short weeks. Victor needs surgical implants to correct his vision. Everything changes. That’s just the way it is.”

The room fell silent. Jason fluffed his pillow and lay back down. "We read this short story by Sarah Orne Jewett in English class last fall… no more than a handful of pages. Now I’m reading it a second time.”

"Never heard of her."

"She lived in the late eighteen hundreds." He recounted everything he previously told his parents about the obscure author. “A little girl goes to live with her grandmother on a farm. She meets a young ornithologist seeking to find a rare bird that has been spotted in the area."

"Where does the story take place?"

"On the coast of Maine."

With a nod, Clarice indicated that he should continue the narrative. "The man offers a large sum of money to anyone who can lead him to the heron's nest so he can shoot the bird and add it to his collection."

Clarice brushed a strand of black hair out of her eyes. "Well, does he find the bird or not?"

"No. The girl climbs the tallest tree in the forest so she can view the entire countryside. She finds the heron just where she was sure it would be but, even though her grandmother is desperately poor, refuses to share the information with the hunter and he goes away empty-handed."

"Such a beautiful story!"

"You're my white heron," Jason whispered. He placed a hand on her thigh and felt the hips reflexively rock backwards. "My refuge."

“I’m a middle-age woman who needs her rest.” The orneriness in her raspy voice was undercut by far too much tenderness to do any lasting damage as Clarice pushed his hand away and shifted on her side.

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