Writing a novel by Habil Yashar

Writing a novel is something beyond horror...
First of all, it can take months, even years, to think about what topic to write about. Just as you cannot determine when your time will come, you cannot even determine what topic to write about. It is born suddenly - from the impact that some event or some person has on you, or from something completely different. Its birth is so strange that... Perhaps stranger, more mysterious, more mysterious than the birth of a person... The birth of a person is based on certain laws, but there are no rules or any order in writing a novel. How can one write something whose birth is so strange...
Imagine the difference between the feeling of waiting for the next lines with inexplicable excitement when you finish the first sentence, and the feeling of seeing the pages and sheets pile up and finally seeing the completion of a novel... Every line you write, every line you think is perhaps written at the cost of your blood, the ink is just a tool. For a writer, the nights spent writing can be so bright that they don't feel dark, because he is enlightened while writing, he lives while writing, but at the same time, the mornings can be as shocking as darkness, because he is always searching for something to write, always thinking.
It shouldn't be so easy for you to write the fate of every character you create, to have a shadow and always follow it no matter where it is. You put so much life into unreal characters that you don't care about your own life as much as you give it your all. Because, you, yes, you are responsible for the fate of every character you create and you bear a great responsibility for every event that has happened to them or will happen. If non-writers are responsible for their families, and in a broader sense, humanity, then if writers are responsible for each of the characters they create (at the same time, they are also responsible to their families and humanity, like everyone else), imagine the weight of the burden they carry. Aside from responsibility, writers sacrifice even their health for them. But in return, they gain the name of a writer, eternity.
Characters dominate your soul so much that... It's as if they are always around you, in dialogue with you. Regardless of where and when, they won't let go of you, they'll joke with you, they can even judge you and make you cry. Because, non-existent characters actually come to you as if they were real, and sometimes you think of yourself, not them, but rather as a non-existent being, flowing away like water.
Perhaps they are your closest friends, confidants, heroes. Because in each of them there are sparks of your thoughts, of your energy. But along with all this, you have also given them freedom, leaving it up to them to choose in everything. Otherwise, in addition to being a dictatorial writer, you will be remembered as someone who does not respect their characters... Doesn't the existence of a writer depend on the perfection of their characters as well as on their works?
Writing is something beyond horror, just as it is something beyond life.

Habil Yashar