From Butterflies To Scars

You Scattered my heart on the ground into so many pieces that i can't put back the pieces , I looked here & there but its all gone !
I still can't seem to forget the pain you have caused me , the amount of tears , the amount of times you have broken my heart and acted so normal about it,
I still wonder how someone like you can give me butterflies at one point then bring out tears at the next point. I feel heartbroken!!! , this heart that you broke once use to beat for you now am not sure how to fix these pieces but am sure i feel dead within me .

You actually never brought out the best in me but the worst, you made me cry in places where you promised me you would be a better man, not just for me but for us .
What could I expect from someone so heartless, someone who can't understand the pain from a women who made sure you was always happy , but you couldn't even see my pain.

I wish you understood how I sat there silently and hid everything even when I had a thousand of reasons to complain but I never , I actually kept everything to myself , I buried all my sorrows within me
For all the times I cried in silence who's gonna repay those memories, who's gonna exchange my sadness with happiness?

Somewhere i stored a message in my heart for you and it goes like ,
I loved you so much but I wish you understood the trauma you caused me ,
The times you left me alone when I needed you the most!
The nights I spent crying over someone so heartless
It hurts being alone , I wish you knew how it feels being left out !!! All the times you made me feel as if i meant nothing to you .
But together it brought out moments i also cherished, the times I was basically loved by you , those moments were something I'll always cherish even though it wasnt something that always happened , those moments when it was just you&ii, us two locked in moments that meant the whole world to me but i couldn't say the same for you because if you loved me you would never hurt me , deep within me i still love you , but the scars you left on me will always remain, even if they heal , it will always hurt within.
My heart cries for the man I have first met , my heart also cries since the man I loved so much have hurt me the most, you broke me in so many pieces that you can't even glue back the pieces even if you wanted to ,Sometimes I still wonder how can someone so loving turn into a monster , did I over love you ? Did I over care ? Did i?
I seriously do miss the old you .

As i lay my head on the pillow, I can't help but think about us, when I closed my eyes i saw your love but when i opened my eyes i saw your true colour's. I miss the way we was , those incredible moments of you and only you .
I cant carry on like this because am so tired of the sleepless nights and the teary eyes , the late night cries , I miss the old you & I hate the new you . I wish I could go back in time and pause the moment I first met you , cause I wanna relive that moment , but at the same time that very same moment ruined my whole life , my eyes deceived me i honestly thought its gonna be us forever.

Well now I gotta embrace the reality, and move on
Let me pick myself up for one last time and dust myself since I got to remember I have to show up for myself now!
Yes he broke me , slowly but surely I'll be me again
Most definitely the happiest version of me .
I'll paint myself the happy ending i want because I said no to the sad ending.
I will surely do better without you , THE BEST VERSION YOU SHALL EVER SEE .