Teen, and, Just Human Struggles

I didn’t type anything for the contest right now, lost, because even though I am lost right now I feel like it would not make me suited to type it, not having everything sorted out.

I am a teen and it feels like I am out of control, but in reality everything is still okay, and the environment is the same, the same house, same church, and same school, and yet things feel different. I feel insane and have intense anxiety, my dad says I am always freaking out and makes me feel insane when in reality I am not absolutely always. I have OCD that enforces my false fears, and feel as if I am suffocating. I just wish it would stop and feel like it came out of nowhere but the anxiety has stayed forever, and like I am in a different world, a different life, when in reality many things are still the same.

I do not hope that you can relate to this, but if anyone can, even if you are not a teen, even if you are not struggling with not fitting in, I hope this lets you know that you are not alone. If you believe in God then please remember him in times of fear, tell yourself that when you’re calm and anxiety tells you that it is dangerous, that you are okay, and even though sometimes you feel like you won’t make it out. Like you are just waiting for panic to arise again, waiting for peace to become chaos, you are not insane, it is just anxiety that is trying to ruin your life. You have to live though, live by the grace of God, even if you don’t feel seen, and do things to help your community, your friends and family, because if you stay in it for too long.

I know feelings you sometimes want to grieve in, or jealousy, but if you never get out then you will not feel better, and deep down you want that. We are human, even cats have emotions. Even if it seems to last long and the improvement feels too hard, get up and try again, because you are worth saving, and you are worth it.