“She is sick, She has bone cancer” answered Lia. "I went to her house yesterday to visit her, but she refused to see me.” Lia continued. "Her sister told me that she needs to be alone right now”. Lia explained it to me carefully. She didn’t want me to get shocked. But she failed, I was shocked, very much.
"I didn’t know that Arni had bone cancer. Oh My god, why did this have to happen to Arni? Why does this thing have to happen to a nice, loving, and caring friend like her? Why..Why..God?" Those questions were starting to bump into my head, I really couldn’t believe it.
The news surely explained everything about Arni’s strange attitude lately. She'd refused to talk, or see me. At first I thought perhaps it’s because of the argument we had the other day. I was confused with the situation. Though somehow I knew there was something wrong with her, but I never thought about this thing. How come she never told us about what was going on? The three of us; Lia, Arni, and I were best friends since we were little. We loved to do silly things together. We were even like siblings, our friendships are more than anything, we‘re inseparable.
There’s one thing special about Arni, she never wants other people to know about her problems. She always keeps it to herself. Once she told me that it is wiser if we make our friends laugh than to make them cry because of our problems. Yes…, that’s Arni. Even until now she still keeps it as her secret.
I hold my breath for a few seconds, I still can’t figure it out. What does this whole thing mean? Why didn’t Arni talk to us about her illness? I kept quiet, my mouth was speechless at that time. Lia waited for my reply, I still held the telephone.
”Nina …Nina…, are you there?” asked Lia. Her voice makes me sober again. “Yeah..I’m…I’m here,” I answered her. Then Lia told me that it would be better to appreciate Arni’s decisions, and leave her alone at first, but I don’t know why. But maybe Lia is right; I think it’ll be better for us to let Arni alone for a moment. Though I feel very bad about my attitude last week. My heart told me that I wanted to go and see her, and ask for her forgiveness for all the foolish things I said to her. Before Lia hung up the phone, she told me that if there was any other news about Arni, she’d let me know.
It was Friday when I received the second call from Lia.” Halo, Nina…….” Lia’s voice was suddenly stopped. I heard a worried tone in her voice. ”I’m afraid I have a bad news for you!” at that moment I was scared to death. I had a feeling that this news was going to be very bad. My heart starting to bump very fast. My stomach felt worse, it seemed like thousands of butterflies flying in my stomach. My mind started to think something terrible. ”I know this news from her sister, Mira.” Lia’s voice stopped again. “Nina…last night..Arni passed away..”.
...I was speechless, my hands were cold, I didn’t know what to say. I kept listening to Lia’s voice, but couldn’t understand a thing. My mind was filled with so many questions.
”Nina, if you want to go to her funeral, I’ll come to your house at 9:00 AM okay?” asked Lia.
“O…o…okay, I’ll …I’ll go with you!” Then the conversation ended. About five minutes later I still stood there. I still couldn’t believe or accept the fact that she’s already gone. Even yesterday I still thought of buying her a gift for her birthday, next week. I was planning to give her a surprise, and to say I’m sorry for the terrible things I have said. But she died last night. leaving me and Lia, without giving me the chance to see her for the last time. And then suddenly the tears in my eyes started to fall down all over my face. I cried…and felt deeply sorry for her.
“Thanks for coming Lia, Nina, and for your condolences. I really appreciate it!’ said Mira. I said “I’m very sorry Mira”. I told her how we were really going to Miss Arni. Mira nodded her head. The expression of sadness showed clearly on her face. She couldn’t believe it too, I guess... Arni was her only family, she loved her very much, had become her strength. After their parent’s death, Arni played the roll of a parent and a sister to Mira. Arni worked very hard for her little sister. Arni even stopped her college. Now, after Arni’s death, Mira seemed to no longer be certain with her life.
Both Lia and I felt the same way. We had lost Arni and would miss her very much. But, there’s nothing else we could do. This was God’s will. We could only try to be tough and accept it. Goodbye my dearest friend, please forgive me, and may you find your happiness there, in heaven.