A perfect ending to a bad start

I never used to be like this. There was a time when I didn't have a care in the world. but one thing changed my life for the worst; High school. Everyone thinks high school is a step up in life. Well... I fell down the "stairs" of life. All the pressures of doing well in school, being good enough for today's society and desperately trying to be the "it" girl, I went into a depression. I started to do something i'm not proud of. A certain something that will literally scar me for my entire life. Every time I did it all my worries, anger, and sadness disappeared like all of the ignorant people finally went away. I always felt better than I had my whole miserable life. That changed for the better when I found out two of my close friends did it too. I finally had people that understood me as I did them. They were going through the exact same thing as me. We told each other everything and we surprisingly had a lot in common. As all of us were getting closer the happier I became, until my step mom started to ruin my life by constantly bringing me down by saying I'm fat, lazy and a waste of skin. So I started again, my friend warned me not to because I would regret it. She was right, I went too deep that night. Before the paramedics took me to the hospital I remembered my step mom looking at me with worried eyes and said she was sorry for everything she had done and I was beautiful just the way I was. Her words made me strong enough to keep going. Her apology kept me alive. Even though I never forgave her I'm thankful for that experience because it has made me stronger and for that I will be forever grateful.