Letter to YOU(Nahar) Its been eleven years since I met you first. Surprising, amazing or frustrating? I don’t know how can I truly explain the meeting and spending time with you. Every moment that I spent with you..shared every little thing, removed dust from you shirt or jeans, shopping, eating out or only spending time looking and smiling at each-other was amazing part of our life. Your coming back again and again to me when I was not expecting you to be there or even when I was not supposed to be there was surprising and after all your love and care leaving me on an empty island was frustrating.

You left me behind for five long years. Five years which made up of five times of 365 days and nights that I never thought of staying without you. Now, standing at this phase of life, ‘me’ the most lovable and adorable person ever to you do not even know where you are and what you are doing? Do I ever come to your mind? Or, I could never make a place over there…I wish you every success in your life, I really do!

It hurts that you don’t bother who I am now or what would I be but I wish I could know who you are or what you are doing? Seeing you happy with someone else might wound the deepest core of my heart but I would be glad to know that someone could make you smile the way I did.

Now-a-days life is becoming miserable but still can’t just let you go out of my thoughts for a single day. I don’t understand why I am doing this to myself! Like drawn into darkness darker then thoughts or imagination, It feels like drizzling whole day when you just want be sat beside your window with empty eyes or like an artwork made up for years getting fade or covered by dusts or like taking a walk miles after miles without looking back or or or…how many things would I compare my feeling with? Why would I or even, should I?

Inner conflict is eating me up day by day, not finding a way out. I know God always loved me and still he does and I am confident I will get him with me every time I am about to fall. For now, I just want to get rid of your thoughts, that feeling, that darkness, which are killing me inside. I want to see the colors around me which are fading away, I want to find romance in those little drops of water falling from the sky, I want to think only of the things that make me smile. I want to forgive and forget what you have done to me. I want to pack and seal those seven years that I spent with you and loose it in an ocean…And, never want to rediscover you again in my life.

It’s ME!

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