talk to the fish

talk to the fish(Bijan Kia) Talk to the fish

The doctor stole a look from the young woman who was lying down on the sofa.
The light that shined through the venetian blinds, had cast dark and bright lines on the wooden parket.
The patient, silent and motionless, with closed eyes looked more like a stylish polite corpse.

- …Imagine, you‘ve entered your apartment… the doctor said.
Everywhere was dark, the key turned in the lock.
The woman opened the door and a ray of light reached the depths of the apartment.
- Go to the aquarium which you told me about.
The woman closed the door and fumbled around the wall to turn on the light. The doctor who was sunk in the sofa said loudly: no. no more lights!
The patient stood, hesitated and said: it’s so dark…
- You will get used to it…
The woman whispered: but it’s too dark…
- The window. Draw the curtains. Doctor said.
She put her bag on the table beside the lampshade and went to the window with caution, and drew the curtains.
the purple and orange light of the sunset diffused everywhere. Suddenly she saw a thin woman, skinny I mean. A woman with black eyes and bony cheeks who stared at her, against the background of tall buildings and dazzling neon lights.
The woman seeing her dim shape in the glass. Gently touched her amber skin and the winkles round her eyes with her tembling fingertips.

- Look at the fish
The woman looked at the big aquarium which was placed beside wall. Several big and small fish , plastic shells that scattered tiny bulbs in water, colourde sands, and
The closer she looked , the better she could see the fish. The red fish opened and closed his mouth with impudence and the black fish, sometimes was still and sometimes moved so quickly here and there.

Talk to them
The woman gently rubbed her hand on the glass wall of the aquarium.
Talk to them
She filled the glass and each of the startled fish moved to a corner.
Talk
The woman pressed her face on glass and said: hey…
Talk
The woman paused and then went on: it’s Rita Martin talking to you…
She didin’t get any answer , she bit her lips and said: would you please listen to me?
There was no voice again , just wis wis of the air pump.
Rita murmured: little fools!
Go on…say something..
Rita said (tired voice): it is useless
talk to the fish
no
you should
she stared at the fish and said: they don’t wanna hear anything
they will hear you …try more
Rita , lying down on the sofa with closed eyes
Feel them
Meanwhile lying on the sofa , she pressed her face on glass again.
Now..
She looked at the fish and asked : how are you?
She added: I’m tired, too tired
Why?
Rita took a deep breath.
Insomnia…I can’t sleep.
The black fish opened his mouth and said: insomnia can’t kill any one.
I feel sleepy during the day. When I take a nap , I wake up into strange places.
Like Alice?
Not as good as that. Two days ago I took a nap but I found my self in a dark home.. it was so terrible.. a dark man attacked me..he tried to rape…oh..
The black fish asked: how did you commit suicide?
She said with choked tears: I took sleeping pills, but I took too many.
The black fish , sunk in the sofa, took a note slowly and said: ok. What happened next?
She bit her lips and continued: they saved me .. hotel servant noticed
She looked at the big and soulless eye of the fish and added: ..and they brought me here
The black fish , shook his delicate tiny ballets. He moved his lumpy stomach to right and left. He moved away from the glass and asked: since when have you had insomnia?
Rita moved her head and said: I don't know . maybe since the damn day when I lost my little daughter.
The black fish swam around her and asked: are you sure?
She frowned and answered: no really? No.. it happened too fast and quickly. First the death of my little girl with her daddy’s car. I know , I know that was an accident but no one can continue living with a man that has run over her daughter..
The fish put his mouth on the aquarium glass and said: ok. Let’s review. Your husband ran over his daughter..and..?
She said: I don’t wanna talk about it.
Th doctor smiled with satisfaction, he gave out tiny and big air bubbles from his mouth and nose strongly and said: mrs martin you should get along with truth..
Rita sighed, the doctor screw his scaly body . a small wave embraced the whole room and shook Rita's asleep body on the sofa.
The doctor asked: what happened next?
Rita gazing at the psychiatrist’s scaly brightness.-
- I left home..could’nt sleep any more.. heard lucy's voice all the time, from hall way, from her bed room, kitchen .. everywhere..from all over she always called me.. mum..mum…help me..
Doctor clapped his ballet and said: do you want to find peace?
She touched the glass , smiled and said: yeah..
The doctor took a note again in the note book , Rita asked him: what are you writing?
The black fish stopped writing .
Do you want me to read it for you?
She smiled.
Ok. …I looked at the thin body of my beauty patient who was lying down with closed eye ..I asked her why she did commit suicide. My patient who was so beautiful said me that she suffered from insomnia… The eyes she had turned to me were wide, darkened a little by apprehension.. She was a delicately pretty girl with a fine, smooth, pale olive skin that shone richly in the yellow light. Her nose was straight, small and finely molded. Her lips, full and red.
The black fish lighted his pipe and asked: how do you feel about this?
trying to smile, trying to make her feel that everything was all right.
Doctor added: did you commit suicide?
She who was still lying down on the sofa , got up gradually and said: when I wrote my last poem , went to the kitchen and put my head into the microwave oven and turned it on. It was painful . I became like a king burger! It was so terrible…
- What happened next?
- They saved me and brought me here by force.
The doc doesn’t say anything.
- Can you help me doctor? Can you really?
- What do you want from me?
- Tranquility… a powerful tranquilizer..maybe..loorazpam, diazepam.. oxazpam..
- You should be alive
- I want to sleep comfortably
- Stay with us
The black doctor swam around and added: bring your hand into the water
She dipped her hand in the water cautiously but she just saw a tiny ballet with golden scales.
- How is it?
She stared at her bright scales and said: so beautiful..really ..
- Come here..hurry up..
She lifted up herself and entered the aquarium with difficulty.
The black fish asked: are you asleep or awake now?
The gold fish answered: I don’t know..really I don’t know..
It was dark everywhere. the key turned in the lock. The man opened the door and a ray of light reached the depth of the apartment.
The gold fish hid herself behind the black fish.
- Hello?.. any body home?
The man closed the door. he saw her bag on the sofa.. the black fish followed the movements of the man silently and motionlessly.
The man stood and paused, put his coat on the handle of the chair and went to the window. Golden fish turned around herself, restlessly.
The black one swam toward her.
- Ritta? .. are you home?
The black fish touched the gold one and rubbed him to her body. The man went to the aquarium slowly but he stared at what happened there, The fish were mated. So wild. So horny.