My whiskey lullaby

My whiskey lullaby

This is a true story about my old boyfriend Jonathan. He died on December 17, 2010. He killed himself, although I found him dead. all this story is, is the most important things that happened. This is my story. If u like it contact me through email. Email address-zoiemae@icloud.com

June 19,2008 age 9 his age-11
This was my first time meeting Jonathan. I fell in love with him instantly. I can't believe he's so perfect, almost too good to be true. I've also learned that Jonathan came from a hell of a past. His mother was raped and murdered in front of him at 4. Then he lived with his father who died in a car accident. Then he went to abusive foster parents. He went through hell and back but he seems like a strong minded person which I love.

February -14,2009 age 10 his age 12
Jonathan gave me flowers today for V-day! I'm so happy I could explode! He told me I might be a little young but he still liked me. My heart melted when those big brown eyes looked at me, I fell...hard. He's like the best thing that ever happened to me. I never would've thought a boy could like me but I guess it's possible.

April 17,2010 age 11 his age 14
Today Jonathan asked me out! I'm so excited, I've been hopping around like a one legged bunny walking on hot rocks. His lips were warm and I couldn't breathe for that whole moment! I can't believe he asked me out! IM SO HAPPY! :D

August 7,2010 age 12 his age 14
Today is my B-day and he bought me the prettiest pair of earrings. I am in love!

August 13, 2010 age 12 his age 14
Me and my friend Chad went to Jonathan's today. And I'm worried! He was in the Corner with a gun saying that he was waiting for the guys who killed his mom. He acted as if she was still alive. I don't know what's wrong but he's scaring me. I mean I love him, I don't wanna lose him. He needs help!

September 20, 2010 age 12 his age 14
Now Jonathan's saying he's hearing voices. He described them as low and raspy like a older man. I'm seriously scared, what the hell is going on? I hope he stops because this isn't funny!

November 16, 2010 age 12, his age 15
Jonathan's B-day was yesterday. So I called him but no answer. so today I went to his house he wasn't home. Then he calls me saying he's at a doctor and he broke his ankle. Come to find out his foster mom beat him with a broom and as he ran he fell. I feel bad bc I can't help him out of the hell house he calls his home.

December 17, 2010 age 12 his age 15
This was the day I would have never in a million years would of wanted. I walked to Jonathan's and found him. Half of his head was gone, the velvet blood covered the walls. my heart sank to my feet. I trembled in fear and confusion. I couldn't wrap my mind on what I was seeing! Was he really gone? Was the man of my dreams really gone forever? The silver 2/20 gun sat in his cold palm, and on his chest was 3 envelopes, one with Chad's name, one with His foster mother's name and one with my name. I screamed as loud as I could but it felt like I wasn't loud enough to get my pain out. Ms.Jane ran into his room shocked. Her eyes shook with Grief. I want to take his gun and point it to my head also, even though i knew he wouldn't want me to do that. All my fear towards his soon to be insanity fell into a huge ball of anger. I was mad. Why did he do this to me? Why would he want me to cry? I was never aware of his pressure. I wish it was me.

The note read:
Dear Zoie
Please know that I didn't do this because of you. I'm sorry for hurting you and so too myself. I do want you to be happy but I just couldn't handle the pressure anymore. Please move on with your life, don't you dare do what I did. Get married, start a family. And remember I'll be you and your children's guardian angel. Even though they are from another man I will still love them because they're your children and I wish for you to have the best life and for your future to be bright. I love you

Love
Jonathan Kale Maxwells