What do I call it..............(Shubhada Warake) I was 20 years old when a 24 years boy proposed me for marriage. I took almost one month to answer him back. I was not sure whether I really love him or not but that was the first time when a boy had spoken to me such words that I could not say no to him. I was very much attracted to him.

Suddenly, one day I got to know that I am leaving Nagpur. In hurry and worry, I spoke to my family about him. I was in my final year of graduation. As i expected, my family refused his proposal. Our relation lasted only for 4 months. After that, 4years I spent thinking that I really loved him or not. By this time I completed my education and I was working in an institute and still working. Till now I did not find anyone to love because I made myself so busy that I did not have time to think about my love and life partner.

Suddenly, one day at my working place I got to hear that I have an affair with one of my male colleague. EVEN I DID NOT KNOW THAT I HAD AN AFFAIR. This was the talk all over in my working place. Fortunately, he was my very good friend. When I got to know this news, I immediately went and told him. He was shocked more than me. He was already engaged and committed in a relationship. He was about to marry next year. He really handled this situation carefully.

I have never seen a male respecting women so much. He was not worried that his name is getting destroyed in the school, but he was worried about me. He was worried because his name was joined with me. He thought that because of him my image is getting spoiled in the work place. I was little disturbed. After that we always spoke to each other and consoled. We tried out best to control the situation. Between this time, we shared lot many things about each others life. From good friends to we became best friends. The love, the care, the worries he showed to me were very hearth touching. He is a king of a guy whom a girl always wants in her life.

I really don't know what to tell and how to tell, but slowly started loving him. And at some point I too feel that he also loves me. But both of us are unable to express ourselves. One day we got to know that the news about our unknown affair is spreading a lot. We were discussing about this and suddenly he said that he will ask his parents to fix his marriage date. I agreed to him. But, somewhere in my heart I was not happy, because I had fell for him.

Still we share our things. Now we are the best friends. He got married to his girl on 3rd of May 2013. Its just 2 and half months for his marriage. I could not tell him that how much I loved him. Even now I feel that he loves me. But, he is married now. Being a girl, I don't want to spoil another girl's life. This not the thing that I will spoil a girl's life. It is the thing that how much I controlled myself. At this age, I learned that love is not only taking. It is that matter of how much love you give to others. It is not like that I didn't want to tell him. But i didn't want to loose a best friend like him. If I would have told him this, I would have lost a best friend in my life. Still we share our personal things with each other. We know that there is a love in our hearts but we don't want to express it. I call this as a pure love where you don't want to hurt anyone. We want to remain best friends forever. And we are very good friends. And I don't want to mix the relationships. I want him to be my best friend forever and even he wants the same thing.

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