Shyali

Shyali(Shyam) Hi all, my name is S Rao age 29 yrs and an orphan. Relationship changes as per time n need is an example of my story. I met a very poor girl with negligible parental caring and took charge of her upbringing from the age of 14 when I was at 20. I did everything that a father does with care n strictness n love.

She was legally married n had frequent unprotected sex. I am listed as married in social but she is not coz we were determined to get social marriage after her elder marriage. We did everything like a man and wife but she always kept a secret affair, but when caught cried n asked for forgiveness. I scolded her n abused her as well but continued with the relationship, but one day she found a job in an Ad company and started a serious relationship with her very rich boss n now she kicked me out. She is blessed with a very arractive face and body n this caused everything.

Now I'm left alone n don't have any desire to bring her back to my life, neither anyone else, but have numerous questions to GOD. I tried to kill myself twice in this 8 year relationship but failed and m not trying anymore but want to devote my life to doing something for my nation, my citizens, n to the earth through films and media. I want some guidance n probably a mentor to help me to get it.