Feelings

It was a early morning, around 5 am, a girl of 10 years woke up from her sleep, she went to her balcony to watch the rising sun. that rising sun was a hope in her life to give her strength to come out through her shell of shadows. she watched it for hours. then slowly she drifted to sleep on a near by sofa. she dream't the most significant quality about her. she was quite mature for her age because she had seen many phases in her life, though she was just 10, but she had a maturity to seek the world. she was sharp, introverted, quite sensitive, unpredictable for others. she was a silent watcher, she hardly talked to others, she was as simple as a book, which is filled with numerous words and letters but never said or explained.

After half an hour she woke up and saw that the sun was hidden behind clouds. suddenly it started raining heavily, everyone ran in their homes but that girl was watching the most peculiar sight. she went inside her room and locked it..the room was dark, quiet, gloomy, devastated. she sat on the floor and weep-ed her heart out. The tears were rolling down her brown eyes, her cheeks were red, her eyes were red. slowly she dozed off on the floor. she dream't a small gal of six years was abused, her dreams were broken, her life was stopped for a second, she was going inside a black pit, she shouted for help, but no use, she was going in and in, her life was shattered into pieces. no one knew what she was suffering. With a jerk she got up and looked around, she was completely sweating, her heart beat was not in control..it took a few minutes to settle her heart on right place. she consoled herself by saying "it's just a nightmare". She was a person who never shared anything to anyone, not a single emotion. She was alone and loneliness was her best friend, till today her best friend is her loneliness. she cared for everyone even though people hurt her, people don't understand her nature. at times she used to criticize her self for her mistakes, she was the most unfortunate person in the whole world, but she never gave up, she used to take everything in positive manner, she was a true fighter, many people ditched her friendship, but she never took a revenge, she knew if she did the same thing like others god will turn himself away from her, she can't lose her god. She again went to her balcony to see the setting sun, she looked at the sky, the sky was filled with stars, a smile appeared on her face as well as a tear. she said, "how much i suffer is just a beginning of life, i will suffer how much pain i get, i will never show my feelings to anyone, this world is disgusting, these people r fake, but god i never did any harm to anyone, but still i deserve pain, i deserve hatred, why i m not loved in equal way, why i m being used as a toy, why my life taught me so much which i never want to learn, why...why?" ...she banged her fist on the wall and let out a loud moan which is filled with lack of love...she went inside the room and dozed off with lot of sadness and pain which she never shared...From that day onwards she stopped living in a dream world and started to face the real world..

This gal was the reason of happiness for others, an inspiration for weaker people, though she is the most unlucky gal, but no one knows her past and her sufferings.....