Still

Still(Alichea Crawford) I don't know why I still have feelings for you. After that issue I told myself to get over you but that never worked. All I can really think about during the day is you even though I try so hard not to. This is difficult to do when I see your picture everyday cause of your contact in my phone. Everyone tells me that I will find someone new to like. Well they are wrong for now. So far you were the only female with everything I looked for in a girl. Ever since your last day it has been hard to transition back into the loner status of school. Like you should know everyday I looked forward to seeing you after class. But now I have no one to look forward to seeing after almost every class. I told you the truth about my sex life like I never told anyone that. The question now is why do I still feel like I can make a move to be with you? My feelings are strong but sooner or later they will tone down due to the fact that you have a girlfriend. I wish I had one, that was the goal I set for myself but I haven't accomplished that goal yet. I wish we met earlier in order for me to know you better, then ask you out, but I guess it wasn't meant to be with us for now. If you ever need or want me you know where to find me. Yep that's right, I will be in class doing my work as usual or in the hallways walking around. It hasn't even been at least a week and a half and I'm already missing you. This is a shame. you were right this whole time, every time you leave me by myself I miss you. My intention while writing this is to not make you cry or sad. This has been a great few months knowing you. The highlight of it all was meeting you for the first time in class when me and cinnamon were eating ice cream sandwiches really sexually lol. You're like a Milkyway. You were someone I wanted but couldn't have plus your skin is so smooth and silky, looked like fine caramel. In the long run I will miss you but that is normal, you won't ever find a nerd like me. You look beautiful in your cap and gown. You're growing up as a wonderful smart young woman. Even though we're going our separate ways with u out in the world and me still in school for the last time, just know I will still love you as a good friend, like a sister. You know almost everything about me now. I appreciate you being there for me in my success and my ups and downs. I knew we would connect as good friends. This isn't goodbye it's see you later. Keep in contact with me and just know if you need to talk, shoulder to lean on, or you just feel sad you know where to find me. I will still be the same nerd you met a few months ago.