The Untold

The Untold(grace) I cant believe it wont go away. it's like a everyday thing. when i wake up in the morning i see my reflection. I never felt pretty, i always felt a pinch of jealousy when i see someone else. i was always bullied at a young age for the way i spoke or looked. it never really stopped or went away. I'm in freshman year and i kinda just want to leave that place. Nobody knew i hated myself. Not even my own parents, but i mean why would they notice? i was their one and only disappointing daughter. They have missed all my open houses or my plays i was in but that never bothered me. what bothered me the most was they never took up for me when i was bullied. they always say "nothing can fix that" or "i never wanted a daughter like you" i don't know what it feels like to be wanted or loved by this world. i never liked my weight or hair or clothes. hell i never liked anything about my self. I would take my mothers old clothes and makeup and try to be at-least half way decent but she would soon catch me and take me to my room and beat me with a spoon and repeat "your always ugly!" And deep down i knew it was true i just never wanted to believe it. My dad was different he never said harsh words unless i touched his stash of cigars and beer. The harsh and cruel words that leaves his mouth everyday is "i never wanted you, but i have to live with you" i now take that as a complement cause past 10 years i always hear that. Who cares right? we all aren't perfect so why try to be? why do we hate our self when some people love us? is it cause we spend our time looking at flaws and listening to the hate we receive. i always felt ugly but somewhere out there someone will love me. just ignore the hate. ignore the lies that come out of people. just stay true to your self.