To the Girl I think I'll Never Have

To the Girl I think I'll Never Have(Vince Neil J. Tabiano) To the girl I think I’ll never have,

I just want to tell you how much you mean to me. You’re special to me and you're an important part of my life. Ever since the day I saw you, I already noticed the beauty that you possess ... the kind heart that you have and that 'something' in you that caught not only my eyes but also my heart.

You are that one girl whom I'll never forget for the rest of my life. You are the only girl whom I've loved this way. You put a special kind of magic in me that made me think of you all the time. Every time I wake up ... everything I do, all I think of is you, my special someone. Every time I see you, happiness is all I feel – my world gets brighter and the stars in my universe shine like never before.

I learned to love you as days went by. I learned to love you as we got along together. I've always wanted to tell you how I feel but fear would always be there every time I felt that courage of saying so. I'm afraid to lose you ... I'm afraid that you might go ... I'm afraid to tell you ... I'm afraid to hear your response. I guess this is the consequence of loving you ... of learning to love you ... of loving you too much.

Maybe we'll be better if we'll just be friends - and only until there. I guess I won't be able to take it if you'll say you don't love me back.

Every time I hear a love song ... every time I watch romantic movies ... every time I see couples around, all I remember is you. You will always be in my mind because you gave me so much to remember.

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Sometimes, I can't stop but think that maybe, you really don't love me; that, I feel like I'm already tired of loving you. I came to a point wherein I felt like giving up – it's useless ... I'm the only one who'll get hurt here.

So, I tried to forget you; to eliminate you in my mind, but it's useless. I couldn't get you out of my mind. I guess I really love you no matter what happens.

Then one day – that one day – everything in my life changed. My whole world fell apart. He confessed his feelings for you – that guy you oh-so-love. We were together when he did that. I felt so stupid – so stupid that I didn't tell you. I could have told you before he did.

That should have been me who told you... that should have been me who said I LOVE YOU to you... that should have been me who hugged you... who kissed you... who gave you flowers... who gave you love letters... who gave you chocolates...

Girl, I loved you first – I know that, but you don't. That should have been me, but I'm stupid - so stupid because I loved you but I never told you.

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It seems that you are happy with him. I hate to admit, but I think the two of you are getting along well. Every time I see you together, JEALOUSY is all I feel. But when you look at me and smile, well I do smile back, but behind that is the pain that kills me inside. I'm jealous, yes I am… I really am! But I can't do anything about it because I'm stupid… stupid of loving you too much. But I will never regret the feeling of loving you. You gave me so much to remember though I didn't have the chance to be your boyfriend. Those moments with you made me so happy because somehow, I felt like I had someone who serves as my inspiration ... my reason for living in this world.

Someday, I will find someone for me – someone whom I will love and will love me back. I guess I'll just have to wait.

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Just be happy with him. You'll make a 'good couple' as they say.

But always remember this: I'll never forget you and I will always love you.

Thank you very much and I'm letting you go.

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With tears in my eyes,

Your best-friend