Am too a criminal

Am too a criminal(Anisha Shome) "Please , please go ... we can never be together , just LEAVE..RIGHT NOW" I don't believe that he said these words. I went outside and saw about 2000 police men and 400 police cars standing in front of me on the road. They all were shouting and calling out his name , they had gunmen around them , each of them in a position , ready to fire as soon as he came out. Suddenly, everything became blurred in front of my eyes , i felt weak , very weak. My head spun and i lost my control.. i fall down , just then a figure appeared , i viewed it with that blurred vision, it was him , i tried to speak , but he bent down and whispered few lines in my ears , which i still remember "If i stole your heart and you stole mine .. then wouldn't it be the perfect crime? Some people are meant to fall in love with each other, but not meant to be together. bye star, you'll always be my star in this living dead heart.." rest just faded away .. and the view became pitch dark.

The moist winds with a scorching sun rays entering from the window besides me , i sat up with all the weakness stored inside my body , i was in a hospital's room. "move away!" a nurse came towards my room shouting at other workers, i guess. "well miss chorale.. how are u feeling now?" she kept the tea pot and tray full of sandwiches on the table besides me and sat down on the stool. She gave a smile rising her face towards me , expecting some answer. "No. my body is aching.How am i here?" "The police-force brought you here.. you were unconsciously lying at the doormat of your house."Did they catch him?" i asked hesitantly , she replied " No , he ran away before they could even get a look of him.. he was too fast, too clever , to get hold of" I gave her a simple smile , then started looking through the window . "He was too small When his father died" She continued "Her mother became his father and mother both, she made him study in a good school , she worked hard to earn , she gave him everything possible, kept him happy always.. But one day..." now she had tears in her eyes " Her mother became ill , So he left school and started working like his mother did , his mother used to be on the bed , he was always there for her , he cared like a nurse for her ,used to do all the work to earn money and treat her, one day , he got a job , he was being well paid when one day there was some quarrel between the workers and ..." "the manager threw him off the job... right?" i interrupted , she looked at me with pleasing eyes "yes.." "Then he stole all the money from that factory and brought it to his mother but didn't let her know " i continued " the next night he went to all those worker's house and murdered them , then he entered the factory and burnt it down" she asked with a surprising tone "do you also know the reason for this?" "Yes .. They rose their fingers on his mother's character, the manager also accompanied those people and therefore and he became uncontrollable therefore was thrown out of the factory". "He told you all this? when did you meet him?" "After that war among the Nazis and Aryans, i shifted to cape town with my grandparents." I continued, never wanted to tell my story to anyone, but something very strong drove me towards her, it felt that i can share every bit of my life with her. "A month ago , my grandmother had a transfer to America for her heart surgery, and i was all alone at home . I am 20 , so i could manage home alone. One day, i was roaming on the waked streets, because the weather was perfectly pleasant, when suddenly i heard gun shots, i turned around and there was a man , just standing in front of my eyes , he pointed the gun towards me and ordered me to take him to a shelter. I was damn scared, my brains not working, he read the nervousness in my eyes and shouted, "Move or I'll get these bullets into your brain" , i started walking towards my house , he pushed my and ordered again " fast.. will u?" and i started running , he was running behind me, his speed was equal every time i turned to watch him. We reached my house and he locked the door. I was dumbstruck , my throat was not blabbering anything out. "Look , am not gonna hurt in anyways , it's just you'll have to keep me hidden.." he was making me understand as if i was a student and he my teacher, with a tall height , good physique , though rough looking but very attractive, i mean seriously like a cowboy. He kept his gun on the table, and asked "washroom??" "there , t..turn..left" He passed me a sly look , and went in the direction directed by me. I kept my eyes on that gun of his, still confused about whatever was happening.

THE sun was shining bright now, but the weather was cool, and i was cold. He came out blabbering something from the washroom "...you know when this kind of thing happens , no one is to blame... isn't it?" our house was the only house on that valley , and if something even tends to happen , it'll be impossible for anyone to know until and unless they come to visit us up the valley , i was there , sitting on the floor , thinking all these , and didn't even realize when he came near me . "hey..! alright??" his voice was calm and decent, the earthly smell of his , filled my nostrils , it was pleasant. But still i didn't even care to look up to him and asked "why are you here?...you could have killed me there and then only.. why did you bring me here .... oh .. wait .. now i know.." i started sobbing " you are a criminal and hence you like torture killing, peace is not in your dictionary , u are a monster, a criminal.. a" "i don't want to hurt you." he was still calm and patient . He sat there opposite to me, facing me he spoke " there is no such motive of killing you, i want to hide , that's all , you were home alone , i didn't even had any idea about.." "you are a criminal , isn't it?""look.. i just .." " YOU ... A CRIMINAL? YES OR NO?" I was shouting now. "doing fair for someone close to you is a crime for you then , yes i am a criminal" his voice maintained calm. I was still looking towards the floor , you took your gun from the table and stood up, in a friction second my mind ordered me to have a glance at whatever you were doing or were going to do. I looked up and saw your bare body, with those heavy metal like muscles and a clean chest with no signs of hair at all. You had the perfect physique . I had not met any guy from many years , only me and my grandparents, i was doing my graduation from home only. "you are like a normal decent guy.." he looked back towards me, gave a confused look and sat down again, opposite to me, on the floor. He was looking into my eyes and i was into his, and i continued "you have the perfect green eyes, the finest hair, the perfect face.. " now he was blushing ".. the perfect smile .. look .. you get dimples.. my god.. you are angelic.." and suddenly i remembered who he was , i stole my eyes from him and stared towards the windows besides us. He was still staring me, getting my looks , studying my mind , "i think you should move from this place.. more towards the society .. close to the out side world.. you are beautiful.!" his voice , calm and controlled , i looked up into his eyes, "you are unaware of that beauty of yours , you are magical my dear!, your voice , your innocence, your figure.." I had no clue about all these, was he joking? i thought. i gave a satisfactory smile, and his eyes became wide , "hey .. look , you smiled.." and i stopped smiling!.

I let him use our guest room. It was the second day of my home alone , and that too with a stranger. There was still time for grandma and grandpa to arrive. At 3am , my eyes opened after i heard someone shouting, i and that stranger were the only people living on that valley at that moment . I got down off my mattress , wore my slippers, and started towards his room. The noise was coming from his room , i was confirmed now. I opened the door quietly , and saw him sitting on the bed and crying like a child. I got inside and started walking towards him "hey..!! Any problem? can i be any help to you?" now i was really close , that i could see his wet eyes , he was sobbing. I sat beside him , "Hey!!??" , he heard my voice , didn't look up, but dropped his head to my chest , wrapped his arms around me like a child and continued sobbing. "hey!! i know that it was a nightmare , but you are safe here, stop crying.. tell me your problem, maybe i could be of any help to you.." i was polite and organized, my voice cool. He was sobbed for few more seconds , then replied "they abused my mother, they say she is characterless , she deserves nothing but getting used by every one..mother is innocent.. she is a good person.. she made my life , my heart, she made me.. she is is the best mother." "Where is mother then? Is she alright?" i stayed calm. "She is sick, i have to help her , she is the only person who loves me.. she took my father's place too , after he died.." and he let me know every thing about him. And I was now i little assured that he was himself in need of help , he can't be dangerous. Now he stopped his sobs and was quite.

It was 4am now, none of us were sleepy. I had made him sleep on my lap, he was too scared, i was not sure of what but he was shivering. His eyes wide open , still wet. "you know , my parents died when I was just 2, from then my grandparents became my only hope of survival.." "am sorry" his voice was too firm. I wanted him to lose concentration from whatever he'd been thinking . "you know , my grandpa loves dancing.. ha aha , every Sunday , grandma used to play the country music aloud and i and grandpa used to dance for hours . Ours is the only house on this valley , so there was literally no one who could raise any kind of objections on us!!." "where are they now?" he asked quietly "grandma is having a heart surgery. They shifted her to the American Costa Rica hospital and now they'll treat her there." He got up, thank god he was paying attention to my words "it's not critical i hope?" now he was talking to me, "no nothings critical , yeah but grandpa got emotional whenever doctor said that there was no improvement in her condition, i wished i was there with them , but they advised me to stay home, as ours is the only house on this valley , and to keep this safe , i needed to be here." "oh.. i see. " he gave a smile, thank god!. "so .." "so you are the watch women of this house...!!".

It was almost 6am now. My eyes were wide open , no signs of sleep. I turned to see him , he was asleep. I got down the bed, just to conform he was comfortable, i put my hand under his head and slid his head on the pillow. As soon as slid my hands away , he caught my wrist, and pulled me towards him. He gently opened his angelic eyes, wow, those were the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen. His eyes were almost penetrating mine, so i looked away. He gave a kiss on my wrist and i went off from the room, to the kitchen. I was preparing our coffee and breakfast. He came out of the bathroom and sat on the sofa. I held out the coffee mug and kept the plate filled with bread and scrambled eggs besides him on the sofa. I sat on the other side of the sofa. He tasted the eggs and sipped the coffee , and I noticed his sigh of relief. "how's it?" I asked hesitantly. He gave a big smile and rest of the time we were quite. It was my bath time now, i went to the bathroom, started sliding off the pant over my legs , then i shoved the top over my head and now i was ready for bath. I turned the tap and the cold water sprinkled down my body. I was thinking about him , how lonely he is , no one's there to show love to him , no one has mercy for him. When suddenly he entered the bathroom. Gosh..!! I held the shower curtain tightly. "Oh..!! I.. I am sorry miss ..." And he turned around. Huh, he was still standing there not even moving a muscle. "Hey,, am sorry.. i didn't knew that you were already using this , bathroom." "That's alright... i think you should better move out now.." i stayed calm. And he just ran outside the door. I came out of bathroom , my body wet , i had wrapped my pink towel around me. He was there in the room, sitting on my bed. Heads bowed down. I tried "Hey!! that was all right, i mean it's OK.. not your fault.. it wasn't intentionally right... ". He stood up and came very near to me, and i had to push my self against the wall, because he was so close , he had his arms blocking my escape, touching the wall. He was still looking down. While i was searching for his eyes , he said "I don't want to go back.. They are looking for me.. no ones there to be my support.. I want to stay here.. I don't want anything..." I was paused, i had no words. Then i finally asked " and your mom?" "She'll be happy without me. My pal came here , and he informed me that she'd got a good job in a good hospital as a nurse and she is earning well. They give her regular checkups and she is fine." "oh.. OK. But why do you want to live here? With me? " I asked with a hesitant tone. " Every one used to abuse and rag me.. i was the one who was always betrayed and thus no one was there to love me. My friends left me because they thought i was prone to mistakes and can never confine them..." He pause for a few seconds.. "but here.." and now he looked up to my eyes "here i really felt that love, for which I've been craving since my childhood. I never had any girl in my life , every one thought i was a loser, a criminal, not even a human.. they treated me bad.. very bad.. but i learned love.. from you.. yes you are the one.." His eyes were wet and pleasing, i hugged him tight, and he let out that cry , and those tears which were captured in his eyes. "that's alright..." and we were in each others arm. I let my body into his , and now we were over each other. his innocence hid his criminality . His body was shining in those rays of sun, coming from the window. We literally made out. And he spoke "you are my star.. you just stole my heart.. yes you are the one.. my star.. I love you" and he held me tight in his arms.. Our bare body were mingling and now we were hot . We gave it a pause. And we sat up on the bed covering our bodies with the blanket. "They can be here anytime. They'll catch me and will put me behind the bars. You will take care of yourself after I'll go.. right.. " "I will keep these memories forever.." I was quite then. We wore our clothes and went to the dining table for lunch.. My head was whirling because of the bright sun rays , but kept them covert , didn't let them out. Then we heard the gun shots, and he took me by my wrist "they are here.. Hide ..!!" And we hid under the table.

"Tanzan..your game is over.. come out or else we'll get in. " They were giving out warnings.. "They are calling me, they'll catch me.. you run.. I'll not let them hurt you.." he was trembling. "no am not leaving you alone.. am going with you or not going..."He gave me a kiss.. and then a gunshot broke in through the window .. he gained his consciousness and shouted "Please , please go ... we can never be together , just LEAVE..RIGHT NOW" I don't believe that he said these words. I went outside and saw about 2000 police men and 400 police cars standing in front of me on the road. They all were shouting and calling out his name , they had gunmen around them , each of them in a position , ready to fire as soon as he came out. Suddenly, everything became blurred in front of my eyes , i felt weak , very weak. My head spun and i lost my control.. i fall down , just then a figure appeared , i viewed it with that blurred vision, it was him , i tried to speak , but he bent down and whispered few lines in my ears , which i still remember "If i stole your heart and you stole mine .. then wouldn't it be the perfect crime? Some people are meant to fall in love with each other, but not meant to be together. bye star, you'll always be my star in this living dead heart.." rest just faded away .. and the view became pitch dark.

And this was our story. The nurse was Quite and listening to me, with patience ." How do you know him?" I asked her. "He is my son.. and I am that lucky mother of his" . My eyes broadened and I gave her a cute look. She smiled.

The next day i was discharged and she came to see off me along with my grandpa and grand ma. Grand ma was alright now. "Thank you star ... For taking care of my son, and teaching him love" . And she went away .
I was back to my life again, but still my pounding heart says One day you'll be back for me.