GRATEFUL

GRATEFUL(Asqarini) GRATEFUL

By:Asqarini


Some people say that life treats us badly. For that reason many people are trying so hard to get a better life. They wake up everyday just to keep their dreams and imaginations alive. They live everyday only because they think there will always be better days to come. As for me, my mind didn’t think differently than most people in this regard. I am here today because I still keep my dreams and wishes in my mind. Yes, like the ling left on Pandora’s box. HOPE.

Do we love to hear more about a journey of one soul. That's already been set up by The Greatest of all on earth. That has to play the role in this giant melodrama play. Though they often say that we are just a bunch of amateur actors with our own character’s role. Some of us play the good one and some play the opposite, can we protest?

Do we often think too cocky about ourselves? We are creatures that were created by this magnificent evolution. We are just a small part of this so called society, we are only a small group of developed intelligent ‘animals’ that being blessed alot by GOD, The Almighthy, that has given us a brain. Do we deserve to be that cocky?

Together, to be accepted, and to be listened to, is another strange concept. I have to see the funny, stupid, ridiculous things to be done. Where I even remember about feelings of a crush? I am just a fragile soul and my achievements so far are nothing compared to my ancestors. I am here to testify.

As we think that we are the greatest, haven’t we learned that we are the least ever to exist. Human beings, do we have to stand up for ourselves. I come to live with nothing to be proud of. Born without ability like others, we are incapable creatures. When our age is increasing, we learn ourselves from our parents guidance. they took care of me and lead me to the exitement of exploring the world. Parents that stood up to my life, giving beautiful love and encouragements. I should thank them.

And then my new world expanded to the circles of toys and games. I realized that the world around me had changed into something more challenging, more fun and full of surprises. We dress up with our cute uniforms, listen to the teachers telling stories and tales and spelled the letters a,b,c Alphabet. We laughed and laughed and the feelings were so sweet.

As the new step began, I met the new pharse. Where I learn about rules. I learn about friendship, caring and sharing with others. I learn to build relationship with everyone I know. To be a part of the environment, to feel being welcomed, it is the beauty I learned.

And I believe with the trust we build, even the bitterness of reason, deceit, is good for me, helping me to be stronger and to think wisely, I shouldn’t neglect them.

I made it, at elementary school, learning to be familliar with letters and numbers, yup another achievement. I can read, the little girl can read sentences, oh how good.

I learn that in years of study, I began to know other people more often. My friends, they like me, and my teachers they encourage me, giving support and patience enough, helping me to do my tasks, correcting my homework, guiding me to take anything new and that seems interesting. Leading me to be open minded with this whole new world. I am!

I know that I am going to become a first junior high school, I went to a new society, my friends are no longer that cute and cuddly, they have changed, they have grown and this is life turned...blue.

I am an adolescent. this is a phase where we start to see others differently. People say we are facing our new phase of being a teenager. Most of us like to see our opponents. people say it is our love phase. The boys looks cute and the girls looks pretty. We still need one another, we still belong to each other. We still like to go together, we can build a gang, we can be friends.

We tend to lie and we started to cheat. we will never be as innocent as we were. why we have changed? It is time to move on to our next phase. Senior High school has given so much to me. I learn to keep honesty, and honnor it. Not betraying friendship, loving myself and to be what ever I wanted to become. I learn to appreciate every single breath.

I learn not to depend on others, only on GOD and family. I learn that betrayal can be so painful and damage every single thing, yet so worthwhile. I know that whenever you dream you have an opportunity to realise it into reality. I promised to be a good person. All of the things that I learn. I'm honored to fulfill my promises to my dear parents, and family, also friends. People who help me, my teachers, my neighbours, even the postman, the bus driver. They who gave me hopes and kind understanding. People that believed I can be someone and I can do it all.

I praise you all for teaching me everything. For letting me feel the pain, the love, the hopes and the beautiful thing called friendship and loyalty. I must thank you all for discouraging me, so I learned how to encourage myself. Thank you for doubting me, so I learned how to believe in myself. Thanks for not helping me, so I learned how to depend on myself. All the whining and all the bad things you have ever said to me, I learned to pretend that they were all giving me full support!

Does life have to be that hard? Or that’s the way life treats us? Face it, ignore it, forget it, one says. Yes, sounds easy to say? But hey, that’s just the way it is? Sometimes we pretend to ignore everything, though deep inside us we know we just simply can not? And I believe that we just need to see everything a little while, see in a different point of view, like what wise man says, If you can not change it you just have to change the way you think, your mindset, and it works indeed, helps me to overcome problems.

I know we just need to be more positive, more active and feel joy and exitement to be alive, face everything with bravery, cause we know everything will be just fine, Hakuna Matata, means no worries.

I thank you all and Life, for giving me so much, the complete emotions, happiness, joy, sadness, frustration, doubts, and everything I need to grow wiser. Those things make to a person’s life and character to become better. Thank you Life, Pain, Hate, Misery, I really learned so much from you all.

Hey friends, next time you are on a bus stop and you feel no one ever cares or thinks of you, let’s change the point of view, change mindset, perspective. Hey, everyone thinks the same about themselves once in a while, so that’s not sounding too lonely right?

Yes, sometimes we forget to show care, but we must to say and show indeed. That's the beauty of all lies on the sweet smile and joy, also happiness. I just realise that sometimes we waste our time worrying about things that have not happened and feel afraid we won’t become something. Doesn’t the key of true happiness lie in how we feel grateful every moment and thankful to GOD for this wonderful opportunity to live a life, make our own path, use our wisdom, to face the reality, just to live one more day. Yes, it is simple, just to be more grateful.


February 13th, 2008.