Adjust your Alarm(salma salama) Adjust your Alarm

Being dissatisfied with her life, she created an imaginary one where everything that she has been deprived of is possible. This life gives her the ability to change time and place, and live with different people. She can pause certain scenes and push others forward.

In her imaginary life, she has expressed her feelings towards the man that she loves a thousand times, in many different ways, but in reality, she has never told him what he means to her. She felt weak and cowardly for not being able to reveal her emotions, so she indulged herself more in day dreaming, and forgot what had really happened and what she had never done. She has been unaware of wasting her life which, although hard, is more worthy of living.

What lead her to this state of unconsciousness and why does she imagine these situations in particular? She tried to recall past events and realized that she was attracted to this man because of the resemblance between him and her ex-lover. She lives with him the days that she loved, the days that she hoped to come but never did, and even the situations that hurt her, but with the reaction she wished to have had. Nothing is new.

She decided to get this bittersweet movie out of her mind, and the only way is by making it come true. She thought and arranged what she would say to him, and invited him to a romantic dinner in a restaurant she once imagined, but when she saw him, she forgot all the scenarios, and said “I love you”.

The most fatal mistake that she has made is hiding her feelings, believing that he can see them through her eyes. It is true that some close people can predict what is going on in your mind, but no one can be certain about it. She understood from his short reply, “you know my circumstances,” that she had lost him forever, but she still felt relieved as she will no longer imagine herself saying “I love you” to someone who has never heard her. She expressed her feelings to him not to win him over, but to regret nothing. She doesn’t want to say “I wish I’d done”.

She is still daydreaming, but now she imagines herself fighting circumstances. We will never be satisfied with what we have done, and every time we will hope for something more, but we have to wake up in order to Dream again.

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